hey, long time no blog. has been working for the couple of days since the 17th nov, which sadly, is my birthday.
anywayz, i'm working as a "usher" to help facilitate queues and give out freebies for the kids who are attending the disney and frens' show. sometimes it's nice to see them smile after they receive the freebies and they'll jump ard with tigger... but when they cant get into the show, their sad faces shows all and it makes our hearts melt, but we cant do anything...
haiz... i'm ending now.. too tired. tmr may go to reg getting the car license... good nitez. =(
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Sunday, October 24, 2004
nowadays, i'm really wondering if heaven is making fun of us. it can be sunny and all of a sudden, be so dark and cloudy. well, i'm gonna stay at home today, and am planning to start mugging prolly tmr. issit too late? i hope not. =) anywayz, went over to granny's place yesterday night to have dinner.
when we reach there, granddad was watching soccer on the tv, and grandma was sleeping. and my lil cousin, bryan, asked for my phone and played with its cam and game. lol. and he was such a vain pot, he asked me to take several pix of him. lol. my phone has a mini album of him now.
He's the cuttie.
hees. how's it? is he cute? or is he just a poser? lol.
btw, i went to meet dee after my dinner... i wanted to go over to semb park with him, and i called him at 1930, but he said it was kinda late... so i decided to just go over to ahma's place... but when i was there, he msged me and asked if i wanted to meet him at yio chu kang station. of course i do. so he arranged 2115 and i agreed. i reached there earlier, cuz dad sent me. i reached at 2100 so i waited.
until 2115, he wasnt here, so i called him, and he told me he was on his way. arrrghs. he came at around 2136. i was 68% pissed. realli. and he snapped at me too. he asked me whether i'm being unreasonable as he's apologised and i could actually get angry over such a small matter. it's true. i bite easily nowadays. dunno why, though. but eventually, we got back together and went to the park infront of my house. even though it was raining pigs and elephants, i enjoyed the walk as it was tranquil and serene. and cold, of course.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
i'm just gay.
had a couple of tiffs with baby last few nights. i'd been acting like i was damn depressed, and i dint noe what's got into me. we even quarrelled yesterday afternoon. i told him what i was feeling and i knew i was wrong to say that. but that's really how i felt. and he said what i told him was pretty insulting, and that i'm the first to say that to him.
i dunno. i guess i'm just eccentric. den, i went out with jinling and jeannie. and jeannie went home earlier as she wasnt feeling verry good. think she's had a headache. den, jl accompanied me to cut my hair. i was having a headache before that, and was actually hesitating if i should cut my hair. i feel that i shouldnt, cuz it fits my face pretty well. but in the end, as i wanan get rid of the few strands of disturbing and disgusting hair, i decided that a har cut was essential.
we trotted our ways to orchard far east, and settled in a shop with ugly decorations as i opted for a cheap haircut. the lady proceeded to gimme a hair wash and i felt that i was revived from the killer headache. den, a guy came over and asked what kinda hairstyle i wanted. i explained him, and he was like "huh?". and i tot to myself "am i gonna let him ruin my hairstyle?" i was totally freaked out. in the end, the hairstyle he gave me made me look even more like a freak. it was damn short. and i felt like killing myself.
after which, jl and i got our asses at long john's and we ate a meal and at the same time, i asked if baby wanna meet. he agreed. anywayz, the meal was filling but i still managed to topple my cup of coke over with my clumsiness. damn. den, we went around far east to shop shop. i bot a pair of big-pearl-earrings. it was kinda damn big for my ears. but den, i still bot it. jl told me to buy the other one which was slightly smaller, but i was stubborn, what to do. and it realli was big. and so, we walked all the way to heerens. jl bot lip gloss for herself and i decided that it was time to meet baby.
when i saw him at amk hawker, he was with darren. and he looked at me as though he has hatred in his eyes. i was scared and dint really dare go near him. darren left shortly after and we went to check out the showtimes of movies at the jubilee. we decided on "the exorcist" at 2120.
den trotted our ways to ntuc. he asked me to treat him to the drinks and the tix and so i agreed. well, i was kinda reluctant, but i scolded myself. he's my bf, and i shouldnt be so calculative. afterall, he's always been the one who's forking out cash for our every outing. okie, we bot our food, den went to buy tix. after that, went to play arcade as we've still had some time. i won him in car racing but he won me in 2 other games.
it was the first time that we went in together but i was gay. it was fun playing with him. it was den time for the movvie. and the show was. damn. just like my hair. outta point. further more, it was damn cold inside the cinema... and i went out shivering. he asked for a hug and i agreed. den we walked all the way back home... =) and after i got home, he dint msg me or anything, so i suppose he was asleep already. i msged him and told him that he neednt call me anymore, so that he can go back to sleep. he replied "ok. u sleep early too. u go check your bag, i left smth inside." argghs...i tot he really forgot to take something back and when i went to see, OMG. there was 2 ten-dollar notes in there. i was shocked. i called him and asked him when he placed it in, he dint wanna say. den i asked him issit when we hugged? he admitted and said that he couldnt bear to lemme do the paying. damn, he can be such a sweetie at times. =) salutes.
i dunno. i guess i'm just eccentric. den, i went out with jinling and jeannie. and jeannie went home earlier as she wasnt feeling verry good. think she's had a headache. den, jl accompanied me to cut my hair. i was having a headache before that, and was actually hesitating if i should cut my hair. i feel that i shouldnt, cuz it fits my face pretty well. but in the end, as i wanan get rid of the few strands of disturbing and disgusting hair, i decided that a har cut was essential.
we trotted our ways to orchard far east, and settled in a shop with ugly decorations as i opted for a cheap haircut. the lady proceeded to gimme a hair wash and i felt that i was revived from the killer headache. den, a guy came over and asked what kinda hairstyle i wanted. i explained him, and he was like "huh?". and i tot to myself "am i gonna let him ruin my hairstyle?" i was totally freaked out. in the end, the hairstyle he gave me made me look even more like a freak. it was damn short. and i felt like killing myself.
after which, jl and i got our asses at long john's and we ate a meal and at the same time, i asked if baby wanna meet. he agreed. anywayz, the meal was filling but i still managed to topple my cup of coke over with my clumsiness. damn. den, we went around far east to shop shop. i bot a pair of big-pearl-earrings. it was kinda damn big for my ears. but den, i still bot it. jl told me to buy the other one which was slightly smaller, but i was stubborn, what to do. and it realli was big. and so, we walked all the way to heerens. jl bot lip gloss for herself and i decided that it was time to meet baby.
when i saw him at amk hawker, he was with darren. and he looked at me as though he has hatred in his eyes. i was scared and dint really dare go near him. darren left shortly after and we went to check out the showtimes of movies at the jubilee. we decided on "the exorcist" at 2120.
den trotted our ways to ntuc. he asked me to treat him to the drinks and the tix and so i agreed. well, i was kinda reluctant, but i scolded myself. he's my bf, and i shouldnt be so calculative. afterall, he's always been the one who's forking out cash for our every outing. okie, we bot our food, den went to buy tix. after that, went to play arcade as we've still had some time. i won him in car racing but he won me in 2 other games.
it was the first time that we went in together but i was gay. it was fun playing with him. it was den time for the movvie. and the show was. damn. just like my hair. outta point. further more, it was damn cold inside the cinema... and i went out shivering. he asked for a hug and i agreed. den we walked all the way back home... =) and after i got home, he dint msg me or anything, so i suppose he was asleep already. i msged him and told him that he neednt call me anymore, so that he can go back to sleep. he replied "ok. u sleep early too. u go check your bag, i left smth inside." argghs...i tot he really forgot to take something back and when i went to see, OMG. there was 2 ten-dollar notes in there. i was shocked. i called him and asked him when he placed it in, he dint wanna say. den i asked him issit when we hugged? he admitted and said that he couldnt bear to lemme do the paying. damn, he can be such a sweetie at times. =) salutes.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Good Morning!
hihi... blogging to kill time, meeting joy at 10.50, so there's still quite some time away from that...
anywayz, told u that sleeping cuttie dint call rite? in the end he called me at 1.30 later in the night. lol. i was half pissed that he woke me up but quite glee as well, as at least he wanted to talk to me... heee... he told me that he'd fell asleep after he'd reached home and had a bit of his dinner... and he complained that he was feeling unwell; body warm, and throat hurt like hell. but he returned to work today... poor thing, i hope he's okie...
dad is like dear. he's transversing in so many places... to work, to send me to skool, to visit my grandparents. and mom, likewise. but her working time is too long, she cant visit them. i salute them. i love you.
anywayz, told u that sleeping cuttie dint call rite? in the end he called me at 1.30 later in the night. lol. i was half pissed that he woke me up but quite glee as well, as at least he wanted to talk to me... heee... he told me that he'd fell asleep after he'd reached home and had a bit of his dinner... and he complained that he was feeling unwell; body warm, and throat hurt like hell. but he returned to work today... poor thing, i hope he's okie...
dad is like dear. he's transversing in so many places... to work, to send me to skool, to visit my grandparents. and mom, likewise. but her working time is too long, she cant visit them. i salute them. i love you.
Arghs.
damn angry with this webbie. i wanna upload some pix onto my page also cannot. argghs...
anywayz, i was trying to do my use cases for OOAD and meantime, watiing for his call. but until now, seems like almost impossible for the call. duh. i'll go sleep.
i'm darn tired. but what to do? the stupid me came back again. and the stupid me actually waited for the sleeping cuttie to call. anywayz, he was quite satisfied for what i've did for his proj when he came over on sat. and i'm satisfied by his satisfication. lol. realli.
i want more love. i want more energy. i want more time. i want more more smartasses!!!
anywayz, i was trying to do my use cases for OOAD and meantime, watiing for his call. but until now, seems like almost impossible for the call. duh. i'll go sleep.
i'm darn tired. but what to do? the stupid me came back again. and the stupid me actually waited for the sleeping cuttie to call. anywayz, he was quite satisfied for what i've did for his proj when he came over on sat. and i'm satisfied by his satisfication. lol. realli.
i want more love. i want more energy. i want more time. i want more more smartasses!!!
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Sumptuous.
Hmm, had my cousin's wedding dinner yesterday over at Raffles the Plaza... I was shocked when i entered the ballroom, cuz it was dimly lit with blue lazer lights on each and every of the 50-odd tables. The ambience was good, and there were quite a lot of great lookers ard... i was sitted with my family and most of my younger cousins...
before the dinner, we sent my grandfather to Alexandra Hosp., he was diagnosed with probable streak of cancer. but the doctor said an operation is not needed as the cancer cells might not be able to survive in my granddad's body as he's too under-nuitrition. LOL. as for my grandma, she's had complains that bolts of pains were sending trou her body before my uncle sent her in. she was stubborn and reluctant to go there, but my 2nd uncle managed to persuade the adamantine grandma of mine to visit the doc's.
the doc decided to check on her kidneys and lungs. but she's still stubborn. she's afraid that she mite live in pain forever after she'd operated and she'd rather live with the illness from now. haiz. why? i had times when my tears wanted to drop when i saw them, but i held it back. i cant influence my mother. she's far too better at crying than me. so, we head off to the dinner. dad was pissed with the traffic, though i'm not very sure why. i dun understand why he can get so pissed with the other drivers, and just keeps swearing his way. weird dad i have. but i love him still. im very much involved with my family, i've finally found love from every of my family since my 17 years of life.
as for dear, i guess he might be busy again with his exams coming up. he complained that he's damn stressed, and i know it. he worked night shift last nite, came home for like, 3 hrs and spent 2 hours napping i suppose. after which, he left home to do project with his group. he gotta wake up at 0545 tmr morning. sometimes, i felt sympathy for him... he's got too little time for himself. he gave time for me, his work, and his studies. i wish we'd have more time in a day, so he can rest more. and i'm realli used to it already... i realli dun mind and can understand what he's going through. mayb i'm too selfish in the past. but i'm still a lil bit upset that he cant spend more time with me. haiz. why am i like that?
but anywayz, i wanna go to geylang serai at this very moment. i wanna go get the influence from surayah tmr. lol. i want cookiiieeesss annnnddd cccrrreeeaaammm!! mmmmuuuummmmmmmmyyy!!!
before the dinner, we sent my grandfather to Alexandra Hosp., he was diagnosed with probable streak of cancer. but the doctor said an operation is not needed as the cancer cells might not be able to survive in my granddad's body as he's too under-nuitrition. LOL. as for my grandma, she's had complains that bolts of pains were sending trou her body before my uncle sent her in. she was stubborn and reluctant to go there, but my 2nd uncle managed to persuade the adamantine grandma of mine to visit the doc's.
the doc decided to check on her kidneys and lungs. but she's still stubborn. she's afraid that she mite live in pain forever after she'd operated and she'd rather live with the illness from now. haiz. why? i had times when my tears wanted to drop when i saw them, but i held it back. i cant influence my mother. she's far too better at crying than me. so, we head off to the dinner. dad was pissed with the traffic, though i'm not very sure why. i dun understand why he can get so pissed with the other drivers, and just keeps swearing his way. weird dad i have. but i love him still. im very much involved with my family, i've finally found love from every of my family since my 17 years of life.
as for dear, i guess he might be busy again with his exams coming up. he complained that he's damn stressed, and i know it. he worked night shift last nite, came home for like, 3 hrs and spent 2 hours napping i suppose. after which, he left home to do project with his group. he gotta wake up at 0545 tmr morning. sometimes, i felt sympathy for him... he's got too little time for himself. he gave time for me, his work, and his studies. i wish we'd have more time in a day, so he can rest more. and i'm realli used to it already... i realli dun mind and can understand what he's going through. mayb i'm too selfish in the past. but i'm still a lil bit upset that he cant spend more time with me. haiz. why am i like that?
but anywayz, i wanna go to geylang serai at this very moment. i wanna go get the influence from surayah tmr. lol. i want cookiiieeesss annnnddd cccrrreeeaaammm!! mmmmuuuummmmmmmmyyy!!!
Friday, October 08, 2004
I SCREAM INJUSTICE!
Jerry, sly, maia, leandra, and daphne were in group A. david, taufiq, olinda, chris were in group B. "who's gonna go out?" i tot group A was going out cuz of daphne and JERRY. but, group B were in the danger zone. okay, doesnt matter, it mite be chris who's going out. but HELL! it was david! not that i'm some kinda fan of his, but!!! WHAT?! i think singaporeans are still voting for the better lookers and not those talents!!! DAMN.
i think JERRY might not be out as he praised and thanked GOD in front of everyone. not that i dislike GOD or anything, but, i think the christians out there might be helping him out with the voting! i dun condemn christians, but hell! do they have foresight! DAMN. i think jerry should be OUT OUT OUT! PUI! i despice him!
Jerry sings like SHIT! worse than constipating!!! HE'S JUST SHIT!
yucks. seeing him on the tv set actually dirties my screen. yuck! *pui!*
i think JERRY might not be out as he praised and thanked GOD in front of everyone. not that i dislike GOD or anything, but, i think the christians out there might be helping him out with the voting! i dun condemn christians, but hell! do they have foresight! DAMN. i think jerry should be OUT OUT OUT! PUI! i despice him!
Jerry sings like SHIT! worse than constipating!!! HE'S JUST SHIT!
yucks. seeing him on the tv set actually dirties my screen. yuck! *pui!*
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Life of a boreder
Hi. yup, i think u've guessed it correct. i got called up by the Cpp lect this wed again. duhs. it's normal, dei. he informed the whole lot of us that there's a re-test on next wed. sheesh. it sucks. realli. but still after skool that day, my girlfrens and i went out to causeway point to dine at delifrance's. i ate the chicken sandwich, and oh, damn, i'm drooling now thinking back.
lol. suresh tot of the idea of dining there and we all agreed as we wanted to celebrate hers and gracie's bdae... and after the meal, we went to john little to buy gracie's bdae pressie.. we bot her a perfume and handed it over to her today cuz we mite not be able to see her tmr... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! *muacks*" i dunno if she's happi with the gift or not, but i hope she is... lol. i bot a edt for baby too. and i hope he likes it. but i dun think he's put on yet.
i've been working on his proj from 7 till now. and i finished part of what he wanted. he's gonna pass me somemore tmr. damn, i dun think i that hardworking on my own project. *luffs*
sat, i've got to attend my cousin's wedding. another one at the end of this month, and another one at the end of this year. wow. guess my parents' going broke. and i'm following their footsteps. i'm broke too. hee. i'm left with...wait! i tot i still have 5 bucks left, but im wrong. i'm left with nothing. i have to pay back suresh and sarong tmr. damn. damn. damn.
and all of a sudden, i dread going to wedding dinners. it's messing up mah brain. i'm confused does not know what to wear cuz my body's bulging. skirt? blouse? heels? damn. it's taking my life away.
it's slowly draining life away from me.
and it's not gonna end until end of the year.
lol. suresh tot of the idea of dining there and we all agreed as we wanted to celebrate hers and gracie's bdae... and after the meal, we went to john little to buy gracie's bdae pressie.. we bot her a perfume and handed it over to her today cuz we mite not be able to see her tmr... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! *muacks*" i dunno if she's happi with the gift or not, but i hope she is... lol. i bot a edt for baby too. and i hope he likes it. but i dun think he's put on yet.
i've been working on his proj from 7 till now. and i finished part of what he wanted. he's gonna pass me somemore tmr. damn, i dun think i that hardworking on my own project. *luffs*
sat, i've got to attend my cousin's wedding. another one at the end of this month, and another one at the end of this year. wow. guess my parents' going broke. and i'm following their footsteps. i'm broke too. hee. i'm left with...wait! i tot i still have 5 bucks left, but im wrong. i'm left with nothing. i have to pay back suresh and sarong tmr. damn. damn. damn.
and all of a sudden, i dread going to wedding dinners. it's messing up mah brain. i'm confused does not know what to wear cuz my body's bulging. skirt? blouse? heels? damn. it's taking my life away.
it's slowly draining life away from me.
and it's not gonna end until end of the year.
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Hi.
i'm been at home the whole day. it's a saturday alrite, and i'm at home. i dun blame anyone, but myself, for dedicating everything of mine to him. he asked if we wanted to meet, but i rejected him cuz he mite be doing it as he felt that i wanted it. but hell, i told him that i want to meet him tmr instead as we can have the whole day to ourselves tmr.
whatever. i've read this article abt horoscopes, and it's oh-so-true. abt gemini, that is. it's quite long, though. wanted to put it up as a file, but u guys may have to dl it, so i decided that i paste the article up. only abt gemini. i'll highlight whatever i think it's true abt him.
GEMINI MAN
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he starts talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly calls "Hyperactive".
He has long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type, who will write or scribble on paper, he never stays still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths, cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?
He changes his mind as fast as he changes a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hates to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and makes a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always searches for truth and constantly studies himself. He never satisfies about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepared to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his day everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hates your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he is in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.
He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.
it's so damn true. he's been working and working so hard for the opening on mon, that he forgot me. i'm quite sad, but in fact, i'm quite getting used to the fact that i'm 65 percent alone nowadays. but i cant blame him. cuz he's such a workaholic. working his ass trou the day and into the nite, and me, submitting my brain cells into bottles of misses.
whatever. i've read this article abt horoscopes, and it's oh-so-true. abt gemini, that is. it's quite long, though. wanted to put it up as a file, but u guys may have to dl it, so i decided that i paste the article up. only abt gemini. i'll highlight whatever i think it's true abt him.
GEMINI MAN
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he starts talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly calls "Hyperactive".
He has long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type, who will write or scribble on paper, he never stays still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths, cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?
He changes his mind as fast as he changes a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hates to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and makes a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always searches for truth and constantly studies himself. He never satisfies about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepared to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his day everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hates your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he is in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.
He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.
it's so damn true. he's been working and working so hard for the opening on mon, that he forgot me. i'm quite sad, but in fact, i'm quite getting used to the fact that i'm 65 percent alone nowadays. but i cant blame him. cuz he's such a workaholic. working his ass trou the day and into the nite, and me, submitting my brain cells into bottles of misses.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Day of Dudes. *Sluurrrps!*
Was out with baby last night with him and his colleagues... They organised a "Departure celebration" for him and his boss, Jeffery, who are going to leave for SengKang... He asked me to wait at Compass Point at 1745 for them to fetch me over but they couldnt make it cuz their boss sorta like, stalled their time...
So he asked me to walk ard CP.. and i got my ass stuck in "Popular" and began to read a book named "Why men lie and Why women cry". it was a hilariously farnie book, and it tot me quite a lot of stuff... but i assume that the author's a guy, cuz the content was rated quite 'sexist'. Baby called me and instructed me to the taxi stand... it was already 1820.
so, i trotted my way to the taxi stand and waited for another 7 mins before they reached. soon, we're on our way to the hotel. but, quite unexpectedly, we got lost. we were going round and round singapore and to imagine, we actually got to the Harbour Front! baby decided to call david, but that blur sotong wasnt able to give any usable directions.
phone calls were flooding in, and confusing directions were given. we finally reached that place at 1945 or so, and we were all starving. we entered the lobby, and i saw david standing next to a handsome prince. he was Hisham. He was having this "i've-got-white-teeth" smile and he looked really dashing. the best thing is, he dint look a single bit like a Malay. baby was greeting everyone and they teased that he looked like some insurance-agent.
The food was bad, extremely spicy and so not-my-taste. we took several pix before leaving... i hope it turns out fine. saw yixia, daren's gf yesterday... she looked bettter, her skin. LOL. i'm not trying to say anything, dun think wrong. i just think this way. Then after the dinner, we walked all the way back to the Raffles MRT station. we were like, walking for 5km man...
it was realli long. but i enjoyed the scnery nevertheless. we were walking along the stretch of the pier, from the end to the front. and i enjoyed every single moment of it. it was fun, and Hisham was crazy. lol. oh yah, forgot to tell u who walked with us: Darren and his gf, Me and Baby, hisham and imran, and david. poor david, he was quiet all the way man... felt quite sorry for him.
then on the train, Hisham asked me a couple of times who i'd choose if i werent with baby. i dunno what to say. i wanted to say it was david, but i dint. i dint noe what baby would react. i meant nothing, anywayz. cuz hisham definitely dint want me to say baby, so decided to say david. but i kept my mouth shut. lol. joyln is looking now. i'm blushing. continue at home ya? bye...
So he asked me to walk ard CP.. and i got my ass stuck in "Popular" and began to read a book named "Why men lie and Why women cry". it was a hilariously farnie book, and it tot me quite a lot of stuff... but i assume that the author's a guy, cuz the content was rated quite 'sexist'. Baby called me and instructed me to the taxi stand... it was already 1820.
so, i trotted my way to the taxi stand and waited for another 7 mins before they reached. soon, we're on our way to the hotel. but, quite unexpectedly, we got lost. we were going round and round singapore and to imagine, we actually got to the Harbour Front! baby decided to call david, but that blur sotong wasnt able to give any usable directions.
phone calls were flooding in, and confusing directions were given. we finally reached that place at 1945 or so, and we were all starving. we entered the lobby, and i saw david standing next to a handsome prince. he was Hisham. He was having this "i've-got-white-teeth" smile and he looked really dashing. the best thing is, he dint look a single bit like a Malay. baby was greeting everyone and they teased that he looked like some insurance-agent.
The food was bad, extremely spicy and so not-my-taste. we took several pix before leaving... i hope it turns out fine. saw yixia, daren's gf yesterday... she looked bettter, her skin. LOL. i'm not trying to say anything, dun think wrong. i just think this way. Then after the dinner, we walked all the way back to the Raffles MRT station. we were like, walking for 5km man...
it was realli long. but i enjoyed the scnery nevertheless. we were walking along the stretch of the pier, from the end to the front. and i enjoyed every single moment of it. it was fun, and Hisham was crazy. lol. oh yah, forgot to tell u who walked with us: Darren and his gf, Me and Baby, hisham and imran, and david. poor david, he was quiet all the way man... felt quite sorry for him.
then on the train, Hisham asked me a couple of times who i'd choose if i werent with baby. i dunno what to say. i wanted to say it was david, but i dint. i dint noe what baby would react. i meant nothing, anywayz. cuz hisham definitely dint want me to say baby, so decided to say david. but i kept my mouth shut. lol. joyln is looking now. i'm blushing. continue at home ya? bye...
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Happy
oooooooooooo!
i'm so happy! though this new skin of mine aint very pwetty and i dint do it completely by myself, but i hope u guys will try and like it! i had a hard time finding and editing the pix! =) so for the time being, ciao!
i'm so happy! though this new skin of mine aint very pwetty and i dint do it completely by myself, but i hope u guys will try and like it! i had a hard time finding and editing the pix! =) so for the time being, ciao!
Friday, September 24, 2004
Sick
the past couple of days had been hell for me. i was down with fever, with a temp of 39deg. i tot i was going to die, but hell, no. i know that lao tian ye is good to me.
went to see doc today, he gave me some antibiotics and cough syrup. 4 types of medicine!!! i can still feel the bitterness in my throat. yuck! i hate cough syrup. he gave me an MC, which i think i'll be grateful to him. lol. was supposed to go to meihui's chalet today, but dint cuz i was feeling realli sick. and i'd spent the two days alone at home, how lonely i feel. called baby but he was too busy that he cant pick up my call. =(
he's spending a lot of time on his work, he even went back home at midnite yesterday. to think he started work at 8 in the morning!!! i suppose his boss wanted him dead. lol.
but i dun care lar. i'm quite used to him not being ard me. it doesnt matter anymore.
for now, i'm' gonna help him with his proj which is due on mon. but i cant help on my c++. =(
went to see doc today, he gave me some antibiotics and cough syrup. 4 types of medicine!!! i can still feel the bitterness in my throat. yuck! i hate cough syrup. he gave me an MC, which i think i'll be grateful to him. lol. was supposed to go to meihui's chalet today, but dint cuz i was feeling realli sick. and i'd spent the two days alone at home, how lonely i feel. called baby but he was too busy that he cant pick up my call. =(
he's spending a lot of time on his work, he even went back home at midnite yesterday. to think he started work at 8 in the morning!!! i suppose his boss wanted him dead. lol.
but i dun care lar. i'm quite used to him not being ard me. it doesnt matter anymore.
for now, i'm' gonna help him with his proj which is due on mon. but i cant help on my c++. =(
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Sad.
waiting for baby's call rite at this very moment... will be going out with him for dinner later.. but dunno what time he's off work... i'm hungry... =(
anywayz, i got called by my C++ lecturer. sucks like hell, it's the third time he's called my name. damn, i feel so f-up by him. not that i dun like him or anything, but , mayb i should only blame myself..
joy, me, grace and sharon went shopping today. BUgis. yah, again, again. lol. What to do? i'm so rigid. bought 3 bras and a bag. i'm not realli satisfied with what i've bot, though. and we'd shopped so fast, that when me and joy saw our watch, we couldnt believe it. lol.
and we bot surayah sweety's pressie. *winks winks* we hope she'll like it...
feeling a bit of a headache. u think shall i go to sleep? i slept at 4 last nite, cuz i napped in the afternoon. damn, my life's so disrupted. =(
i'm gonna end here. tired.
anywayz, i got called by my C++ lecturer. sucks like hell, it's the third time he's called my name. damn, i feel so f-up by him. not that i dun like him or anything, but , mayb i should only blame myself..
joy, me, grace and sharon went shopping today. BUgis. yah, again, again. lol. What to do? i'm so rigid. bought 3 bras and a bag. i'm not realli satisfied with what i've bot, though. and we'd shopped so fast, that when me and joy saw our watch, we couldnt believe it. lol.
and we bot surayah sweety's pressie. *winks winks* we hope she'll like it...
feeling a bit of a headache. u think shall i go to sleep? i slept at 4 last nite, cuz i napped in the afternoon. damn, my life's so disrupted. =(
i'm gonna end here. tired.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
=)
(note: scroll down till u see another note)
LT: not because i need to, but it's because i want to.
LT: i think it's very true for what xiaoLangZi said.. i think that's prob y i have to stick with him
xiaoLangZi: it's ez to find another one..but not ez to find one u love..
Applegal: BE Happy k?not happy will older faster
Applegal: condition i mean
Applegal: you can find better guy with ur condiotn lor
: lying too much is not healthy la ..esp to a relationship ....
: tink u shld haf a nice tok wif him (not quarrel huh)..and try to find out y he lies lor ..
xiaoLangZi: hmm...how lame..he lied abt even such a thing ?..no comments
(note: read them upwards from here.)
watched the "Singapore Idol" earlier on(i adore Sylvester! he's cuuuuute!), tot nana was good, but agreed with what one of the judge commented. "U're a good singer, but u lack of the X-factor."
it's just like describing love. u can be a fantastic lover, yet ur partner might mistake you and thinks that u're just another average lover.
and after so many turmoils' happened in my life, i got to realise several things:
1.) Never take one for granted;
2.)Never take love for granted;
3.) Praise ppl as often as you can;
4.) Dont be upset by small little things;
5.) Love those whom you think you deserve them to love you back.
1. & 2.) I used to take my ex-boyfriend for granted; yell at him, chase him outta the house, verbal abuse him, and all sortta things u cant imagine(i dun do rhyming).
Now, things are sortta like taking a turn-back and these make me understand why we should never take one/things for granted.
i'm NOT trying to imply that i miss those days ard with my ex-bf, but what i'm driving here is, if u feel that he/it is worth your love, just go ahead and shower him with your TLC. never stop loving him/it and never try to compare. u'll only learn from your mistakes, not make worse of them.
I used to think that i love baby too much. and that he doesnt love me AS much. but now, i realise that i'm comparing. and it's pointless. i guess you know it. when u want someone so much, they become a need in your life. and it's time u know that he's the one for you.
it's insatiable; human always ask for more.
3.) it doesnt matter if he/she is putting on too much mascara, a lil tad too much wrinkles, or a lil not too kawaii. (ps.:and grace, i'm not referring to u okie? =) they're just examples!)
just add a lil compliment and it'll fly them to paris!
it doesnt realli matter, it's a white lie. as long as the person is happi rite?
just like earlier on, i told baby he looked purrrfect today, and seriously, it flew him to korea(his favourite country). but i realli tot he's good looking today. =p
but obviously, u have to say the rite thing at the rite time... tell him that he's looking untidy, etc.
it's good to always praise ppl for that lil happiness; to think it's created by you.
4.) this is the point which i'm trying to keep up with... i get upset for the slightest thing, and i think i mite be a bit too petty. yes, i admit, so baby, for my sake, pls change. OOOPPSs. lol. i mean, for your sake, i'll change.
it's bad for me to change; it's for the better.
5.) basically, i'm tired to type anymore. LOL. just love whoever u think they deserve your love and u deserve their love. =) *muacks*
it's love which brought everyone closer; love fills the world.
LT: not because i need to, but it's because i want to.
LT: i think it's very true for what xiaoLangZi said.. i think that's prob y i have to stick with him
xiaoLangZi: it's ez to find another one..but not ez to find one u love..
Applegal: BE Happy k?not happy will older faster
Applegal: condition i mean
Applegal: you can find better guy with ur condiotn lor
: lying too much is not healthy la ..esp to a relationship ....
: tink u shld haf a nice tok wif him (not quarrel huh)..and try to find out y he lies lor ..
xiaoLangZi: hmm...how lame..he lied abt even such a thing ?..no comments
(note: read them upwards from here.)
watched the "Singapore Idol" earlier on(i adore Sylvester! he's cuuuuute!), tot nana was good, but agreed with what one of the judge commented. "U're a good singer, but u lack of the X-factor."
it's just like describing love. u can be a fantastic lover, yet ur partner might mistake you and thinks that u're just another average lover.
and after so many turmoils' happened in my life, i got to realise several things:
1.) Never take one for granted;
2.)Never take love for granted;
3.) Praise ppl as often as you can;
4.) Dont be upset by small little things;
5.) Love those whom you think you deserve them to love you back.
1. & 2.) I used to take my ex-boyfriend for granted; yell at him, chase him outta the house, verbal abuse him, and all sortta things u cant imagine(i dun do rhyming).
Now, things are sortta like taking a turn-back and these make me understand why we should never take one/things for granted.
i'm NOT trying to imply that i miss those days ard with my ex-bf, but what i'm driving here is, if u feel that he/it is worth your love, just go ahead and shower him with your TLC. never stop loving him/it and never try to compare. u'll only learn from your mistakes, not make worse of them.
I used to think that i love baby too much. and that he doesnt love me AS much. but now, i realise that i'm comparing. and it's pointless. i guess you know it. when u want someone so much, they become a need in your life. and it's time u know that he's the one for you.
it's insatiable; human always ask for more.
3.) it doesnt matter if he/she is putting on too much mascara, a lil tad too much wrinkles, or a lil not too kawaii. (ps.:and grace, i'm not referring to u okie? =) they're just examples!)
just add a lil compliment and it'll fly them to paris!
it doesnt realli matter, it's a white lie. as long as the person is happi rite?
just like earlier on, i told baby he looked purrrfect today, and seriously, it flew him to korea(his favourite country). but i realli tot he's good looking today. =p
but obviously, u have to say the rite thing at the rite time... tell him that he's looking untidy, etc.
it's good to always praise ppl for that lil happiness; to think it's created by you.
4.) this is the point which i'm trying to keep up with... i get upset for the slightest thing, and i think i mite be a bit too petty. yes, i admit, so baby, for my sake, pls change. OOOPPSs. lol. i mean, for your sake, i'll change.
it's bad for me to change; it's for the better.
5.) basically, i'm tired to type anymore. LOL. just love whoever u think they deserve your love and u deserve their love. =) *muacks*
it's love which brought everyone closer; love fills the world.
Monday, September 13, 2004
LOL.
we had a superbly crazy day today. kept luffing and luffing like no one's business. talked crap and luffed at the shit. lol.
but prob that's the way i handle things. when i dun feel happy with something, i'll try and pretend to luff my ass out. but in actual fact, i only want to divert my attention from my sadness. had a quarrel with him last nite, he said he went out to la kopi with his frens, but in the end, he ended up playing mahjong with his pals. i dunno if i should trust him. i called him, he dint answer the phone, and he told me he was playing at that time and so he dint hear the phone ring. our romance is seriously short-lived.
previously the same thing happened to us, i called him for like, a million times, he dint answer, and he told me he cant hear the phone ring. in the end, when we met up the other day, i found out that he was out clubbing (i saw the stupid chope on the back of his hand). and i was real upset. i realli hate liars. no liars in my life.
i condemn liars! anyone but liars
but prob that's the way i handle things. when i dun feel happy with something, i'll try and pretend to luff my ass out. but in actual fact, i only want to divert my attention from my sadness. had a quarrel with him last nite, he said he went out to la kopi with his frens, but in the end, he ended up playing mahjong with his pals. i dunno if i should trust him. i called him, he dint answer the phone, and he told me he was playing at that time and so he dint hear the phone ring. our romance is seriously short-lived.
previously the same thing happened to us, i called him for like, a million times, he dint answer, and he told me he cant hear the phone ring. in the end, when we met up the other day, i found out that he was out clubbing (i saw the stupid chope on the back of his hand). and i was real upset. i realli hate liars. no liars in my life.
i condemn liars! anyone but liars
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Thank God.
Previously what i'd written was cut off by my freaking fat feet as i accidentally tripped over the plug of this comp. so here's what i've written(quite long, though) :
Went out with baby to city hall area yesterday. we went to suntec's carrefour to hunt for the things which we wanted to buy; he eyed 3 l/s shirts for his work and me, i'd been eyeing on the white pair of slips for quite some time already. after that, we went to see the timings for "Anacondas". it was 7.15 at suntec. and he suggested that we go check out the timings over at shaw tower instead. okie, 5.15. set. so, we walked back to suntec. i suppose the shop vendors recognized us by then. lol. he bot his shirts and my white slips. =) i'm realli happy. =) seriously. not because he bot me the slips. but, i'm just gay.
Again, we went back to shaw tower. i mean, yah, it's just a bridge and few steps away from suntec. lol. but my legs sorta sored. he asked if they(my legs) are soring, but i lied. it's a white lie, anyway. and so, "Anacondas" started. we bot nachos and before the show starts, we'd already gobbled down like, 3/4 of it. the cheeszsze, OH SO GOOD. lol. hmm, i'd grade the show, A-. it's good, but just a lil too short. it's miraculously thrilling and sent my heart pounding for several times. i suggest those of u guys who havent watch the show to catch it SOON.
as for our dinner, we went millenia walk to have our favourite "niu rou mian" aka beef noodles. it's still as amazing. *slurrrps* i asked if he wanted to go over to marina bay, but he wanted to stay in city hall(waste money) and so i suggested the esplanade - marina promenade. but before that, we sneaked into Pan Pacific hotel(for me, yes, again = )... to the 22nd floor. he wanted me to stand near the glass of the lift, but i had a tiny gut. lol. so i dint. but before we left, we took a few pix. and oh, one SERIOUSLY angmoh shared the lift with us. he's dead-good looking. ya noe, i tot he was the famous rugby player who came over to coach like few months/weeks ago. i couldnt remember.
ps.: i saw the friendster's alston guy and his angie gf. he was goddamn short, and his girl was goddamn skinny. i think she had a waist of 12.
and soooo, we trotted our way to the promenade. the whole stretch of it was filled with smooching couples, and so we decided to stop at a place which we could sit and have a tad of privacy. lol. we copied them and oh, the feeling was so good. it was fantastic. lol. then, we decided to leave. oh yes, and i bot a brownie from RockyMaster. it was, alright lah, not very nice. i think it wasnt as good as CoffeeBeans'.
on the train, i commented that i was thirsty, he took out the bottle of tea from our shopping bags and fed me. HE FED ME!!! omg. i'm feeling damn high and exhilarated lor. u dunno the feeling de lar. lol.
okie, we hurried a lil and i guess it's cuz he wanted to catch the last train home; not very good to practice catching the cab back. waste of money. so, i reached home at ard 2330 yesterday.
we blabbed for half an hour on the phone before he met up with the moon-pretty and me, star-handsome.
i realli felt like his pPrRiInNcCeEsSsS yesterday. and i gravely want to relive the romance for ever. if possible.
so i guess, my life wasnt very much screwed up, or is it?
Went out with baby to city hall area yesterday. we went to suntec's carrefour to hunt for the things which we wanted to buy; he eyed 3 l/s shirts for his work and me, i'd been eyeing on the white pair of slips for quite some time already. after that, we went to see the timings for "Anacondas". it was 7.15 at suntec. and he suggested that we go check out the timings over at shaw tower instead. okie, 5.15. set. so, we walked back to suntec. i suppose the shop vendors recognized us by then. lol. he bot his shirts and my white slips. =) i'm realli happy. =) seriously. not because he bot me the slips. but, i'm just gay.
Again, we went back to shaw tower. i mean, yah, it's just a bridge and few steps away from suntec. lol. but my legs sorta sored. he asked if they(my legs) are soring, but i lied. it's a white lie, anyway. and so, "Anacondas" started. we bot nachos and before the show starts, we'd already gobbled down like, 3/4 of it. the cheeszsze, OH SO GOOD. lol. hmm, i'd grade the show, A-. it's good, but just a lil too short. it's miraculously thrilling and sent my heart pounding for several times. i suggest those of u guys who havent watch the show to catch it SOON.
as for our dinner, we went millenia walk to have our favourite "niu rou mian" aka beef noodles. it's still as amazing. *slurrrps* i asked if he wanted to go over to marina bay, but he wanted to stay in city hall(waste money) and so i suggested the esplanade - marina promenade. but before that, we sneaked into Pan Pacific hotel(for me, yes, again = )... to the 22nd floor. he wanted me to stand near the glass of the lift, but i had a tiny gut. lol. so i dint. but before we left, we took a few pix. and oh, one SERIOUSLY angmoh shared the lift with us. he's dead-good looking. ya noe, i tot he was the famous rugby player who came over to coach like few months/weeks ago. i couldnt remember.
ps.: i saw the friendster's alston guy and his angie gf. he was goddamn short, and his girl was goddamn skinny. i think she had a waist of 12.
and soooo, we trotted our way to the promenade. the whole stretch of it was filled with smooching couples, and so we decided to stop at a place which we could sit and have a tad of privacy. lol. we copied them and oh, the feeling was so good. it was fantastic. lol. then, we decided to leave. oh yes, and i bot a brownie from RockyMaster. it was, alright lah, not very nice. i think it wasnt as good as CoffeeBeans'.
on the train, i commented that i was thirsty, he took out the bottle of tea from our shopping bags and fed me. HE FED ME!!! omg. i'm feeling damn high and exhilarated lor. u dunno the feeling de lar. lol.
okie, we hurried a lil and i guess it's cuz he wanted to catch the last train home; not very good to practice catching the cab back. waste of money. so, i reached home at ard 2330 yesterday.
we blabbed for half an hour on the phone before he met up with the moon-pretty and me, star-handsome.
i realli felt like his pPrRiInNcCeEsSsS yesterday. and i gravely want to relive the romance for ever. if possible.
so i guess, my life wasnt very much screwed up, or is it?
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Thank You
to all ma frens who've been loyally reading my blog, i have to say a big THANK YOU to ALL of you.
and i'm alrite already... things are beginning to surface as soon as i typed in my last blog....
this blog is sorta created to let ppl hear my sorrows, my happiness as well as my anger. sometimes i do say a lot of crap and swear a couple of times, but, nevertheless, i'm still the same old me...
i've just went out with him yesterday evening and we'd had dinner over at amk central... he ordered satay-beehoon and i ordered fish and chips and extra fries... *YUM* oh, and i saw Li boon there... my pri school classmate. lol.
it was fun yesterday; sorta like i was crazy rumbling trou my head, telling myself to be happy as he wanted to meet me for dinner... wanted to ask him over my house, but mom was at home, so wasnt able to...
but nevermind, at least we did meet up and had some quality time together. i'm a happy worm. =)
and i'm alrite already... things are beginning to surface as soon as i typed in my last blog....
this blog is sorta created to let ppl hear my sorrows, my happiness as well as my anger. sometimes i do say a lot of crap and swear a couple of times, but, nevertheless, i'm still the same old me...
i've just went out with him yesterday evening and we'd had dinner over at amk central... he ordered satay-beehoon and i ordered fish and chips and extra fries... *YUM* oh, and i saw Li boon there... my pri school classmate. lol.
it was fun yesterday; sorta like i was crazy rumbling trou my head, telling myself to be happy as he wanted to meet me for dinner... wanted to ask him over my house, but mom was at home, so wasnt able to...
but nevermind, at least we did meet up and had some quality time together. i'm a happy worm. =)
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Watashi wa okotte imasu.
i'm just plain sick of things between u and me. i just simply hate u.
have u got any idea how many nights i spent waiting for your call and sacrificed my sleep just for a few mins conversing on the phone? have u got any idea that i wanted so much to meet you but u cant cuz u have to accompany your frens as u feel that u mite have neglected them? what abt me?
now that ur fucking-fucked-up-smelling-balls' boss had transfered u over to sengkang, do u noe how much lesser blardy time we have with each other? u dunno. REALLy, all i want is a bit of time to spend with me. that's just a little request, but u cant read that. that's all so fucked up. i just hate the way u handle things. and i hate myself for being so cheap. DARN IT.
i've spent the past 7 months going out with you, heck my frens, and this is what i get. i've lost all whom i wanted to be with, find happiness in them, and with you, i've lost all. blame it everything on me. i'm just such a cheapo wanting to see you so much. i'm cheap. i'm blardy CHEAP. my name, my body, my mind, my actions, my behaviour, my character, my everything spells C.H.E.A.P to u.
"Its undeniable
that we should be together
Its unbelievable
how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know
if you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time
time will reveal
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...
It's so Incredible
the way things work themselves out
And all emotional
once you know that what its all about
And undesirable
for us to be apart
Never would've made it very far
Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart
Cause...
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...
Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
just in the nick of time...
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one..."
have u got any idea how many nights i spent waiting for your call and sacrificed my sleep just for a few mins conversing on the phone? have u got any idea that i wanted so much to meet you but u cant cuz u have to accompany your frens as u feel that u mite have neglected them? what abt me?
now that ur fucking-fucked-up-smelling-balls' boss had transfered u over to sengkang, do u noe how much lesser blardy time we have with each other? u dunno. REALLy, all i want is a bit of time to spend with me. that's just a little request, but u cant read that. that's all so fucked up. i just hate the way u handle things. and i hate myself for being so cheap. DARN IT.
i've spent the past 7 months going out with you, heck my frens, and this is what i get. i've lost all whom i wanted to be with, find happiness in them, and with you, i've lost all. blame it everything on me. i'm just such a cheapo wanting to see you so much. i'm cheap. i'm blardy CHEAP. my name, my body, my mind, my actions, my behaviour, my character, my everything spells C.H.E.A.P to u.
"Its undeniable
that we should be together
Its unbelievable
how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know
if you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time
time will reveal
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...
It's so Incredible
the way things work themselves out
And all emotional
once you know that what its all about
And undesirable
for us to be apart
Never would've made it very far
Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart
Cause...
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...
Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
just in the nick of time...
One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one..."
Friday, September 03, 2004
Fatigue- Reported By Worm Ong
Had a few sucky quarrels with baby. and they realli sucked like hell. i apologiesd, cuz i noe it was me at fault. since last mon, we've had a week without meeting each other. and then met again on this mon.
until now, i guess it's pretty hopeless to be pinning that we would meet up again this week. His tests are taking up too much of his attention, draining time and energy from him. all i want was just a lil bit of attention from him as well, can i puhlease have that? =(
Went out with Shiyun, Bohlat, Jeannie and Sharon today... we went to suntec to watch "A Cinderella Story". i'd rate the movie...B-.
The plot was OK. only the cast intrests me. CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY. *slurrrps* it's weird to see ppl flocking to see the show when they've already sorta know the story. but still, prob ppl has too much money to spare. hahs.
it was kinda exciting today; we actually took the lift of Pan Pacific Hotel and, whoosh. it got us high up. high high high up. okie. mayb not that high up there. but i'm paranoid. it's 37/35 floor. i cant remember. it's like, more than 5 times of what i'm presently typing this shit at. and i could see ppl down on earth like they were. sesame. Did i spell sesame rite? whatever. and i was damn scared. REALLI. no joke. it's realli hiiiiiiiiiigh up there.
then i bot a normal gio pink tee. a white colour belt, and a brown coloured long-sleeves whatever-you-call-it blouse. and altogether, i spent a whoishing 60 bucks just today. and the money was originally saved-up to pay my blardy bills. DAMN me. i'm thoroughly broke. i'm penniless. penisless, too. =x
i shall update my wishlist. =)
until now, i guess it's pretty hopeless to be pinning that we would meet up again this week. His tests are taking up too much of his attention, draining time and energy from him. all i want was just a lil bit of attention from him as well, can i puhlease have that? =(
Went out with Shiyun, Bohlat, Jeannie and Sharon today... we went to suntec to watch "A Cinderella Story". i'd rate the movie...B-.
The plot was OK. only the cast intrests me. CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY. *slurrrps* it's weird to see ppl flocking to see the show when they've already sorta know the story. but still, prob ppl has too much money to spare. hahs.
it was kinda exciting today; we actually took the lift of Pan Pacific Hotel and, whoosh. it got us high up. high high high up. okie. mayb not that high up there. but i'm paranoid. it's 37/35 floor. i cant remember. it's like, more than 5 times of what i'm presently typing this shit at. and i could see ppl down on earth like they were. sesame. Did i spell sesame rite? whatever. and i was damn scared. REALLI. no joke. it's realli hiiiiiiiiiigh up there.
then i bot a normal gio pink tee. a white colour belt, and a brown coloured long-sleeves whatever-you-call-it blouse. and altogether, i spent a whoishing 60 bucks just today. and the money was originally saved-up to pay my blardy bills. DAMN me. i'm thoroughly broke. i'm penniless. penisless, too. =x
i shall update my wishlist. =)
Thursday, August 26, 2004
I'm a worm.
i'm a worm, digging away from my studies. in fact, i'm gonna be dead soon as someone's gonna step rite on me when i'm scriggling my ass away from the books.
earlier on, baby and i have agreed to study at 2330. but in the end... i guess he's dating the pretty moon lady rite now. =) *say chheeeeze!*
hmm, and that leaves me moodless to even study. i dunno. this semester i've been seriously slacked out. but i still just dun wanna push my ass to study.and tmr i have lessons starting from 8. on fir, i've c++ quiz to work on. "at least i dint fuck ard." muahahaha. i hate myself. i tell myself to study, but instead, i come online, eat tidbits, bite on earthworms and etc.
this is me.
this is my life.
completely screwed up.
earlier on, baby and i have agreed to study at 2330. but in the end... i guess he's dating the pretty moon lady rite now. =) *say chheeeeze!*
hmm, and that leaves me moodless to even study. i dunno. this semester i've been seriously slacked out. but i still just dun wanna push my ass to study.and tmr i have lessons starting from 8. on fir, i've c++ quiz to work on. "at least i dint fuck ard." muahahaha. i hate myself. i tell myself to study, but instead, i come online, eat tidbits, bite on earthworms and etc.
this is me.
this is my life.
completely screwed up.
Monday, August 23, 2004
*shy shy*
when baby came today, i let him read the whole of my blog. i dunno what he feels but, i dunno. i hope he knows what i feel for him. =)
it had been kinda dramatic, but, long story. wanted to break up, but finally i've decided to stop my folly and we've kissed and got back. =)
i love him, i realli do. i'm half-waiting for his call, half-waiting for myself to feel sleepy. =p
*yawns-not* lol.
i realli yearn for his huggies. i love his huggies cuz he gave me lil of it. i'm deprived of hugs. =(
it had been kinda dramatic, but, long story. wanted to break up, but finally i've decided to stop my folly and we've kissed and got back. =)
i love him, i realli do. i'm half-waiting for his call, half-waiting for myself to feel sleepy. =p
*yawns-not* lol.
i realli yearn for his huggies. i love his huggies cuz he gave me lil of it. i'm deprived of hugs. =(
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Grrrr...
met up with Emily and Jasmine this afternoon. we talked cock for like, 3 hrs plus, sitting outside Coffee Bean and co,. I've spent 8.10bucks on just a slice of carrot cake and a kids-sized pure choc. I havent seen emily in like, prob, a year or a half? But she's still the same old her, trotting her way with her legs never-gonna-hit-one-another, and the way her hands swing so high up into the air. lol. ET, if u read this, dun humtump me. ty. =)
Hung up the phone with baby. damn, our happiness' gonna end, pretty much very soon. but most prob he's tired.
he believes so much into the lot he's picked over at "si ma lu"; i forgot the name of the street in english. arghs. i dunno, i'm confused. and he has such a HUUUGGGEEE ego. realli. i think he's ego is much bigger than what i've spelt. i dunno. mayb i should apologise to him tmr. whatever lah. i'm having mixed feelings now. i dunno what to say, i dunno what's not to say.
another thing, i dunno why i hate picking up calls nowadays. i'm sick and tired of matters which concerns the use of my heart. i dun want to be heart-broken again. like what i've said to joyln before, i dun even care even if it does sacrifice my so-called friends. or rather, aqquaintances.
and to surayah, i dint mean what i did last fri. i admitted that i was kinda fed-up when we keep asking u guys to accompany us to eat out at KFC when we noe that u dint want to. i noe u dint feel like going there cuz of the distance and etc. and not cuz of another person. but i was fed-up at why we're so sticky to each other.
well, i suppose the green-eyed monster killed me.
Hung up the phone with baby. damn, our happiness' gonna end, pretty much very soon. but most prob he's tired.
he believes so much into the lot he's picked over at "si ma lu"; i forgot the name of the street in english. arghs. i dunno, i'm confused. and he has such a HUUUGGGEEE ego. realli. i think he's ego is much bigger than what i've spelt. i dunno. mayb i should apologise to him tmr. whatever lah. i'm having mixed feelings now. i dunno what to say, i dunno what's not to say.
another thing, i dunno why i hate picking up calls nowadays. i'm sick and tired of matters which concerns the use of my heart. i dun want to be heart-broken again. like what i've said to joyln before, i dun even care even if it does sacrifice my so-called friends. or rather, aqquaintances.
and to surayah, i dint mean what i did last fri. i admitted that i was kinda fed-up when we keep asking u guys to accompany us to eat out at KFC when we noe that u dint want to. i noe u dint feel like going there cuz of the distance and etc. and not cuz of another person. but i was fed-up at why we're so sticky to each other.
well, i suppose the green-eyed monster killed me.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
I've got a bloated finger.
Hey, it's me(ok, ok. it's lame.)!
i've just updated my blog into a more colourful page, i hope u guys will like it.
now i'll try adding audio into the blog, pix and hopefully, more.
back to my blog. i went out with baby today. i dun think i wanna say things out cuz it's gonna be "pantang" u noe, language in malay. hee. i ate lots of food and am damn sticky and smelly rite at this moment. baby's working, and i'm waiting for his call.(just like always. =) )
oh yah, i think i wanna upload the smileys to my blog also.
see u tmr.
my grp leader, ym, is quite pissed with my grp's slackiness. =x but, we deserved it.
*lol*
we're realli slack.
i've just updated my blog into a more colourful page, i hope u guys will like it.
now i'll try adding audio into the blog, pix and hopefully, more.
back to my blog. i went out with baby today. i dun think i wanna say things out cuz it's gonna be "pantang" u noe, language in malay. hee. i ate lots of food and am damn sticky and smelly rite at this moment. baby's working, and i'm waiting for his call.(just like always. =) )
oh yah, i think i wanna upload the smileys to my blog also.
see u tmr.
my grp leader, ym, is quite pissed with my grp's slackiness. =x but, we deserved it.
*lol*
we're realli slack.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
The Life Of Mrs Chong
The life of Mrs Chong aint easy to lead. i'm waiting for baby's calls constantly, and he invades ever so much in my mind, it just makes my brain not want to study.
okie, okie. i wont push ALL the blame to that. i wont give no more reasons. lol. i just dun feel like studying. not to mention mommy's wish will go down to drain. she wished that i could be in the forces, serving sg, or finishing my studies at a local university. but i noe my limits. i cant do that.
Nothing much has been troubling me so far. Not friendships, not family ties, not LOve. it's the stress i get from studying. but seriously, i dunno why i complain so much, either. cuz i DONT even study. i hate myself. i noe myself yet i cant do nothing to myself. WHY's that so? i realli dunno. *ponders hard*
and i noe i'm being a "female dog" (i noe u noe what it means, i just cant scold myself THAT word. =p), it's been unfair to someone. i shouldnt have did it, but i've had. and are continuing doing it. i really shouldnt. it'll spoil the whole thing we have together. but i just cant control myself. i hope someone realli understands. and i wont give lame excuses for what i've did. sukaya, joyjoy, u noe what i'm talking abt rite? *winkswinks*
finally, hopes that
-i can get over it as soon as possible;
-my studies can pick up;
-sharon gets what she's been wishing for;
-all my frens' happiness will be in their hands;
-my love for baby will nv subside. =)
damn, i've missed yet another episode of "Zhen xin mi yu". =(
okie, okie. i wont push ALL the blame to that. i wont give no more reasons. lol. i just dun feel like studying. not to mention mommy's wish will go down to drain. she wished that i could be in the forces, serving sg, or finishing my studies at a local university. but i noe my limits. i cant do that.
Nothing much has been troubling me so far. Not friendships, not family ties, not LOve. it's the stress i get from studying. but seriously, i dunno why i complain so much, either. cuz i DONT even study. i hate myself. i noe myself yet i cant do nothing to myself. WHY's that so? i realli dunno. *ponders hard*
and i noe i'm being a "female dog" (i noe u noe what it means, i just cant scold myself THAT word. =p), it's been unfair to someone. i shouldnt have did it, but i've had. and are continuing doing it. i really shouldnt. it'll spoil the whole thing we have together. but i just cant control myself. i hope someone realli understands. and i wont give lame excuses for what i've did. sukaya, joyjoy, u noe what i'm talking abt rite? *winkswinks*
finally, hopes that
-i can get over it as soon as possible;
-my studies can pick up;
-sharon gets what she's been wishing for;
-all my frens' happiness will be in their hands;
-my love for baby will nv subside. =)
damn, i've missed yet another episode of "Zhen xin mi yu". =(
Friday, August 06, 2004
Hi, the bored me again.
i'm feeling damn vexed rite now; reason being, i dun even noe how to do my basic c++ hands-on..
i'm feeling useless. called baby for the trillionth time until he answered the damn phone. wants me to wake him up at 4.30 again. and here i am, waiting for the time to pass while others are working on their damn work.
saw toro just now, with sharon. he was with his gf. he looked at us(both of us denied that he was looking at either of us)as if he's trying to say"i've got a gf. so, piss off."
i dunno. i feel that the earth is not doing its job anymore. it's stopped revolving.
=(
i'm feeling useless. called baby for the trillionth time until he answered the damn phone. wants me to wake him up at 4.30 again. and here i am, waiting for the time to pass while others are working on their damn work.
saw toro just now, with sharon. he was with his gf. he looked at us(both of us denied that he was looking at either of us)as if he's trying to say"i've got a gf. so, piss off."
i dunno. i feel that the earth is not doing its job anymore. it's stopped revolving.
=(
Monday, August 02, 2004
Ex-blogger
It's been a superbly long time since i last blogged. mayb a week ago? that's considered long already okie...
but anywayz, Life has been wandering abt in the theme park, and it's got itself settled on the roller coaster. me and baby had quarrelled a few days ago, which brought me agony and irritation. next came my parents, whom completely pissed me off.
i'm trying my best not to talk to them anymore. i dun owe them anything, neither do they. i dun think i am anything to them, particularly, him. whatever. and i will have 3 frigging icas next week. DBMS, OOAD, IP. sucks like hell.
it hadnt been a wonderful week; i've had quarrels with the most beloved ppl in my life. why am i such a person? but i dun think i can be any sick-er than some ppl i've aquaintanceship with them. Fu*k my life.
but anywayz, Life has been wandering abt in the theme park, and it's got itself settled on the roller coaster. me and baby had quarrelled a few days ago, which brought me agony and irritation. next came my parents, whom completely pissed me off.
i'm trying my best not to talk to them anymore. i dun owe them anything, neither do they. i dun think i am anything to them, particularly, him. whatever. and i will have 3 frigging icas next week. DBMS, OOAD, IP. sucks like hell.
it hadnt been a wonderful week; i've had quarrels with the most beloved ppl in my life. why am i such a person? but i dun think i can be any sick-er than some ppl i've aquaintanceship with them. Fu*k my life.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Bored.
damn. nothing to do. i'm damn damn bored.
hmm i wonder if anyone still frequents my webbie? doubt so, though. ppl are just as bored as they are peering into my webbie. aights. gtgs. watch teebee.
gd nitez to y'all. 'cept for some friggin' arseholes. but i dun mention names okie... =x
btw, i love you baby. it's been long since i hear u say u love me too. =(
hmm i wonder if anyone still frequents my webbie? doubt so, though. ppl are just as bored as they are peering into my webbie. aights. gtgs. watch teebee.
gd nitez to y'all. 'cept for some friggin' arseholes. but i dun mention names okie... =x
btw, i love you baby. it's been long since i hear u say u love me too. =(
Sunday, July 18, 2004
Boring, boring and boring.
Does "boring" sounds fun to u? it certainly doesnt, to me.
i'm stuck at home rite at this very moment, when i have the least things to do. so decided to blog in u since it's been like, 5 days since i last blogged.
went out with baby and his teammates on fri; they celebrated a colleague's ORD. we went to changi V to makan, reached there ard 11pm. darren and his gf sent us there though, they rented a car and we vroomed all the way to CV. had several rounds trou the carpark b4 we left the place.. lotsa tranvesittes were spotted. and that sent david, darren and baby drooling all the way. some had half-exposed breasts, some wore superbly short skirts but only a particular one were more recognised(by me and the rest of the drooling parties). "it" was superbly elegant, and looked as if it's gonna make u drill a hole into the grd cuz u cant stand the glamour in it. it's like, so damn chio lor. the most chio IT there. she wore a sphag top and a skirt, unlike those others who wore super-skimpy clothes. well, i think i shall stop abt it. i'm going crazy.
hmmm, i've just changed the template of my blog, how does it look now? had this piece of codes in blogskins.com. well, i hadnt had the mood to change anything yet, so for the time being, 0-originallity for me. *snores*
well, i'm gonna do some household chores to kill time. wish me best of luck to the casualties.
i'm stuck at home rite at this very moment, when i have the least things to do. so decided to blog in u since it's been like, 5 days since i last blogged.
went out with baby and his teammates on fri; they celebrated a colleague's ORD. we went to changi V to makan, reached there ard 11pm. darren and his gf sent us there though, they rented a car and we vroomed all the way to CV. had several rounds trou the carpark b4 we left the place.. lotsa tranvesittes were spotted. and that sent david, darren and baby drooling all the way. some had half-exposed breasts, some wore superbly short skirts but only a particular one were more recognised(by me and the rest of the drooling parties). "it" was superbly elegant, and looked as if it's gonna make u drill a hole into the grd cuz u cant stand the glamour in it. it's like, so damn chio lor. the most chio IT there. she wore a sphag top and a skirt, unlike those others who wore super-skimpy clothes. well, i think i shall stop abt it. i'm going crazy.
hmmm, i've just changed the template of my blog, how does it look now? had this piece of codes in blogskins.com. well, i hadnt had the mood to change anything yet, so for the time being, 0-originallity for me. *snores*
well, i'm gonna do some household chores to kill time. wish me best of luck to the casualties.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
my new-found comp
right. i'm currently working on my new-revived pent2 comp which da kor saved it from entering hell. this set of comp has been stagnant for... 3 yrs? also the reason behind that "pent2" thing.
hmmmmmmmmm...i'm gonna depent on my new-revived comp...and be independent to that laptop. but mayb i cant resist the temptation of using it to dl songs, upload pix, etc. i mean, laptop's def a betta option than a p2 comp rite? =x
anywayz. i dunno how come i feel fatigue even though i'd napped for like, an hour just now. realli weird. but nvm.
i'll just turn in early. =)
hmmmmmmmmm...i'm gonna depent on my new-revived comp...and be independent to that laptop. but mayb i cant resist the temptation of using it to dl songs, upload pix, etc. i mean, laptop's def a betta option than a p2 comp rite? =x
anywayz. i dunno how come i feel fatigue even though i'd napped for like, an hour just now. realli weird. but nvm.
i'll just turn in early. =)
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Life of a slacker(cont'd)
i'm currently in school taking IT2201... it is realli damn boring and thus i've decided to blog here..
sitting beside me is joyln.. she's looking at me type at this very moment. and she told me that she wasnt looking. =x
everyone of us is doing every diff work instead of working hard on his own 2201. but anyways. we still have like 10 mins b4 the lesson ends and we'll be heading to another lecture.. which i dunno which sub is tht..
he asked me a few sensitive questions which left me pondering... HARD. very diff to apprehend whatever he's trying to say/haev said. i dunno. mayb i dun understand him well..
i gtg pack up my bag already. blog in u when i'm free again.
sitting beside me is joyln.. she's looking at me type at this very moment. and she told me that she wasnt looking. =x
everyone of us is doing every diff work instead of working hard on his own 2201. but anyways. we still have like 10 mins b4 the lesson ends and we'll be heading to another lecture.. which i dunno which sub is tht..
he asked me a few sensitive questions which left me pondering... HARD. very diff to apprehend whatever he's trying to say/haev said. i dunno. mayb i dun understand him well..
i gtg pack up my bag already. blog in u when i'm free again.
Sunday, July 04, 2004
Bad Mood
haiz. i apologised to him and felt bad after that.
i tot apologising would help things between us, but i guess, for sure, his ego must be up... however, even after i'd apologised, it seems that there's some kinda gap in us already. he dun seem to..love me that much anymore. and i hate that. *sobs*
tmr gonna start skool and i dread it... i hate skool. i hate studying. i hate being penniless. everything.
blog some time u in when i'm free again. baibai
i tot apologising would help things between us, but i guess, for sure, his ego must be up... however, even after i'd apologised, it seems that there's some kinda gap in us already. he dun seem to..love me that much anymore. and i hate that. *sobs*
tmr gonna start skool and i dread it... i hate skool. i hate studying. i hate being penniless. everything.
blog some time u in when i'm free again. baibai
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Slacker.
yo..
it's been two days since i last blogged i think... went out yesterday with my bunch of frens...shiyun, bohlat, jeannie, meihui, and wendy.. we went to makan sakae over at bugis..
the waitress there were quite sucky.. we played with a couple of leftovers and she actually came and asked if the food's quality had problems. and i'm like, problems? well, heck, no. okie, sure. she's informed us abt the restaurant not encouraging food wastage but, hell, do we care? but i've had plenty of salmon sushi-s nevertheless.. =p *slurrps* ...lalalalaa...i'm a glutton..
den we walked from bugis to suntec..bot a mini housephone for like, 5 bucks...hees. it was damn cheap.. bot a set of lingerie too...the panty was...Whoa. revealing. hahas. =x
den, i think i bot..wait..lemme think. i bot a pair of beach slip-ons too.. for 2 bucks..damn nice. keke
and today, i rotted at home. the girls jioed me to sentosa tmr, but i dun think i wanna go.. u noe, the budget thing killed the curious pig. hahaa...
it's been two days since i last blogged i think... went out yesterday with my bunch of frens...shiyun, bohlat, jeannie, meihui, and wendy.. we went to makan sakae over at bugis..
the waitress there were quite sucky.. we played with a couple of leftovers and she actually came and asked if the food's quality had problems. and i'm like, problems? well, heck, no. okie, sure. she's informed us abt the restaurant not encouraging food wastage but, hell, do we care? but i've had plenty of salmon sushi-s nevertheless.. =p *slurrps* ...lalalalaa...i'm a glutton..
den we walked from bugis to suntec..bot a mini housephone for like, 5 bucks...hees. it was damn cheap.. bot a set of lingerie too...the panty was...Whoa. revealing. hahas. =x
den, i think i bot..wait..lemme think. i bot a pair of beach slip-ons too.. for 2 bucks..damn nice. keke
and today, i rotted at home. the girls jioed me to sentosa tmr, but i dun think i wanna go.. u noe, the budget thing killed the curious pig. hahaa...
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
i'm still staying aloof.
i'm godddamn bored at home rite now. he's out to play billiard with his pals and i'm stuck at home.. wanted to go see doc to treat my tyco legs.. but in the end he called like, 1pm..and i asked him to accompany me go see doc at 1 yesterday. but it was okie, i havent woke up until he called me. =x den he asked if i wanted to go see doc but i dint want to... i saw my legs. it was gettin' better, so i rejected the offer.. we hung up the phone. i called him again. i wanted to ask him to accompany me see doc again... but the next thing i noe, he told me he's gonna play billiard with his pals. damn. whatever. i dint telll him i want his companion. in case i rob him of his freedom.
haiz. *ponders* what is happening to me? my parents are sleeping rite now and i'm holy-sick,bored and tired.he's out to play too. haiz. i'm broke too. i nid more CASH~!
i want play, too. the whole blardy day i'll stay at home and watch the clock tick and the plants photosynthesis. yes, these shall be my plans den.
haiz. *ponders* what is happening to me? my parents are sleeping rite now and i'm holy-sick,bored and tired.he's out to play too. haiz. i'm broke too. i nid more CASH~!
i want play, too. the whole blardy day i'll stay at home and watch the clock tick and the plants photosynthesis. yes, these shall be my plans den.
Monday, June 28, 2004
i love my phone!
Dun think i wanna get one digi-cam le.
i'm satisfied with what my phone produces..
hees.
here's a preview : click here and and here.
gentle reminder: pix are deceiving!
yeps, im gonna sleep le... later i'm meeting sharon and joy 1430 over at somerset.. joy needs to collect tix... and i think i prob wants to go shopping.. blog in u tmr... nitez!
i'm satisfied with what my phone produces..
hees.
here's a preview : click here and and here.
gentle reminder: pix are deceiving!
yeps, im gonna sleep le... later i'm meeting sharon and joy 1430 over at somerset.. joy needs to collect tix... and i think i prob wants to go shopping.. blog in u tmr... nitez!
Sunday, June 27, 2004
My Needs...=p
okie, i'm super yearning for a digi-cam now... for one obvious reason, i can shoot myself and baby like crazy, and can even bring it out with me when i see fancy things which catches my sight...
and! best part is, joyln thinks of buying a digi-cam too! and prob my bro have lobang for digi-cams and then, more discount! =p
wah.. my target period to buy digi-cam is this september, hopefully i(we) can do it! keke..
i want a digi-cam so much... sobs. den i can also post nice nice pix in here... i want i want!!!!!!
and! best part is, joyln thinks of buying a digi-cam too! and prob my bro have lobang for digi-cams and then, more discount! =p
wah.. my target period to buy digi-cam is this september, hopefully i(we) can do it! keke..
i want a digi-cam so much... sobs. den i can also post nice nice pix in here... i want i want!!!!!!
Saturday, June 26, 2004
bored.
i'm gonna stay at home for the whole blardy day today...
bleaching my hair rite at the very moment, wondering how it'll turn out like...
he's working and i'm so bored.. i finished almost all my housework already..
oh yah, i woke up at 1 today..hee.=x
watched "my sassy girl" on ch U midnite... it was not a bad show, drove my tears several times to the eyes but it just couldnt come out... just a bit of the feelings i guess..
hmmm, i gotta surf friendster liaoz.. nothing to do.. probably gonna go gb later.
see ya.
bleaching my hair rite at the very moment, wondering how it'll turn out like...
he's working and i'm so bored.. i finished almost all my housework already..
oh yah, i woke up at 1 today..hee.=x
watched "my sassy girl" on ch U midnite... it was not a bad show, drove my tears several times to the eyes but it just couldnt come out... just a bit of the feelings i guess..
hmmm, i gotta surf friendster liaoz.. nothing to do.. probably gonna go gb later.
see ya.
Friday, June 25, 2004
Lallaland
i'm going to sleep now...
good nitez.
*winkz*
btw, ariff just told me the match btween eng and port:1-0.
BAD.
good nitez.
*winkz*
btw, ariff just told me the match btween eng and port:1-0.
BAD.
My (pathetic) Life
hmmm..
went to watch the match just now over at Bishan Stadium. damn, u dunno how dulan my and baby were. HUFC scored one ard 30mins after kick-off, and den another during somewhere in the sec half..
den ard the 80th min, we went to the toilet, and he was smoking outside... he asked me how long before the time end and i told him 5 mins... i went back into the stadium and saw the timer:84:37. shit. more than 5 more mins... who knows! blardy hell, TPFC scored a goal during the last 5 mins. and baby placed bet on 0,1 or 2 goals.
there goes my treat frm him again. =x
oh, and i ate Mc's instead.
went to watch the match just now over at Bishan Stadium. damn, u dunno how dulan my and baby were. HUFC scored one ard 30mins after kick-off, and den another during somewhere in the sec half..
den ard the 80th min, we went to the toilet, and he was smoking outside... he asked me how long before the time end and i told him 5 mins... i went back into the stadium and saw the timer:84:37. shit. more than 5 more mins... who knows! blardy hell, TPFC scored a goal during the last 5 mins. and baby placed bet on 0,1 or 2 goals.
there goes my treat frm him again. =x
oh, and i ate Mc's instead.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
Pig.
hmmm.. nothing to do now, so blog to kill time..
later i'm gonna meet baby and watch the S-League over at Bishan Stadium together...
wonder if who'll win this time... the last time we watched, HUFC lost to SAF, score was 0-1..
sad. but anywayz, i hope HUFC will win this time round. he told me that the last third match, the score was 6-0 or 6-1, i couldnt remember. HUFC won it.
hmmm... gotta wake him up like, ten mins later..
after waking him up, i'll go bath and get prepared to meet him!!!
ps.: i'm hungry. i ate a ba-zhang this afternoon. i want KFC!!! *slurps*
later i'm gonna meet baby and watch the S-League over at Bishan Stadium together...
wonder if who'll win this time... the last time we watched, HUFC lost to SAF, score was 0-1..
sad. but anywayz, i hope HUFC will win this time round. he told me that the last third match, the score was 6-0 or 6-1, i couldnt remember. HUFC won it.
hmmm... gotta wake him up like, ten mins later..
after waking him up, i'll go bath and get prepared to meet him!!!
ps.: i'm hungry. i ate a ba-zhang this afternoon. i want KFC!!! *slurps*
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Thank You!!!
i've just asked accela aka moon heng aka the comp whiz to help me with the uploading of the audio and pic. i'm a klutz.
haha
thanks, moon heng!
haha
thanks, moon heng!
Monday, June 21, 2004
Problem: Find out the difference between guys and girls.
®boy(pun intended), why human beings just cant understand the opposite sex?
why does most girls start to assume when the guys keep mum abt smth?
girls prefer guys to share problems with her better half, but guys will shut their lips tight and think they can handle it alone. girls understand that guys cant handle things(i'm a sexist here);guys dun understand why girls have to probe at every little thing they do.
Maybe GOd made beings so indiferrent here;He wants both the sexes to understand how each sex works. They ARE absolutely different. a guy isnt a girl. a girl isnt a guy either. girl should not assume that they understand guys, and guys should try to understand girls more by paying more attention to their life partners and quit saying that girls are difficult to apprehend.
girls like conflicts to be thrashed out;guys STILL prefer keeping hushed to mitigate tension.
me and baby is going through a bicker now. the situation suggests the old saying, "Abscence makes the heart fonder".
we're meeting everyday now, and it seems that we also have rows everytime we meet up. it realli sucks. i also dunno what exactly happened to me, cant say it's PMS(for guys who dun noe what PMS means, go find out from some girls. u wont get a slap from asking that.),neither can i say he's at fault.
i think, when we see each often, i'll tend to think that he will defintely understand what i feels, but actualli, he doesnt. and he doesnt understand why i flare up so easily nowadays. when both parties dun understand each other, they tend to assume and thus, conflicts arise.
i cant say i'm completely at fault, neither can i say i'm not in the wrong.
mayb we can thrash things out. but if he wants to keep his adamantine character, i cant expect much either. cuz that's the way God expects human to react.
but i still love you.
so much.
i wont leave u.
neither can u leave me.
(NB:Whatever i've said is copyright reserved. those caught copy and paste-ing it somewhere will be harshly dealt with.)®
why does most girls start to assume when the guys keep mum abt smth?
girls prefer guys to share problems with her better half, but guys will shut their lips tight and think they can handle it alone. girls understand that guys cant handle things(i'm a sexist here);guys dun understand why girls have to probe at every little thing they do.
Maybe GOd made beings so indiferrent here;He wants both the sexes to understand how each sex works. They ARE absolutely different. a guy isnt a girl. a girl isnt a guy either. girl should not assume that they understand guys, and guys should try to understand girls more by paying more attention to their life partners and quit saying that girls are difficult to apprehend.
girls like conflicts to be thrashed out;guys STILL prefer keeping hushed to mitigate tension.
me and baby is going through a bicker now. the situation suggests the old saying, "Abscence makes the heart fonder".
we're meeting everyday now, and it seems that we also have rows everytime we meet up. it realli sucks. i also dunno what exactly happened to me, cant say it's PMS(for guys who dun noe what PMS means, go find out from some girls. u wont get a slap from asking that.),neither can i say he's at fault.
i think, when we see each often, i'll tend to think that he will defintely understand what i feels, but actualli, he doesnt. and he doesnt understand why i flare up so easily nowadays. when both parties dun understand each other, they tend to assume and thus, conflicts arise.
i cant say i'm completely at fault, neither can i say i'm not in the wrong.
mayb we can thrash things out. but if he wants to keep his adamantine character, i cant expect much either. cuz that's the way God expects human to react.
but i still love you.
so much.
i wont leave u.
neither can u leave me.
(NB:Whatever i've said is copyright reserved. those caught copy and paste-ing it somewhere will be harshly dealt with.)®
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Thoroughly-Pissed-Off
time check: 23.47
aww. my legs are sore-ing like hell now. my butts felt as if they're sitting on a bed of scintillating needles. my brain is in a whirlpool state of mind. and i'm blardy physically tired. esp my eyes.
went to pulau ubin today, sat on the bumboat and it was rather fun... den when we reached, we settled down at darren(baby's fren)'s granny shophouse..placed our stuff there, sat for a while, den got down to cycle. that explains why my legs and butt sore. they REALLY sore like ****. it was super adventurous cycling ard pulau ubin, cuz the trails were rather remote. there were lotsa abandoned houses too, guess it must have been the gov's doing. =x
there were five of us, darren and his gf, me and baby, and david... even though much verbal wasnt exchanged, it was still a nice journey as there were scenery and the fresh air to enjoy..
after which, we got back to mainland,and ate seafood over at the changi hawker. it was damn spicy lor...
later, we went to Tampines Mall and Century Square.by then, my legs were so tired, they threatened to break anytime if i walk further. still, i walked, and that's why, now my legs are in a state of "semi-breaking".
finally, we're reaching home... i asked if he not want to send me home as i saw that his eyes were blood-shot looking, and i'm afraid that we mite bump into my parents. oh yah, i set the bikini-clad babe pic as his wallpaper in his phone and he got upset abt it too... (think it was because darren's gf, yixia, said that there was nothing nice abt that bikini xiaojie)
apparently, he mistook me that it was because i dint want him to see my parents that's why i said that... but what i realli meant was, that i'm afraid that he would feel awkward if he saw my dad, and obviously, he cant act at ease.
That's what i realli meant, baby.
and when he was sending me home, he told me that he deleted all the bikini clad babes... he was looking pissed and walked far away from me, too.
who noes, when we were reaching the lift, we realli saw my parents, he called them and den left...we did bade our goodbyes...
when i got home and called him and asked what happened, he said, nothing..i said, u better say,if not i very fan one leh...
den he said,"what are u fan abt? i more fan okie... i dint want to tell u what happened cuz i dint want to start another quarrel. u're not sian of the quarrels but i am."
and i broke down into tears. what he said was damn hurtful. DAMN IT.
i'm going to sleep. heck if he's gonna call or not.
i hate u.
aww. my legs are sore-ing like hell now. my butts felt as if they're sitting on a bed of scintillating needles. my brain is in a whirlpool state of mind. and i'm blardy physically tired. esp my eyes.
went to pulau ubin today, sat on the bumboat and it was rather fun... den when we reached, we settled down at darren(baby's fren)'s granny shophouse..placed our stuff there, sat for a while, den got down to cycle. that explains why my legs and butt sore. they REALLY sore like ****. it was super adventurous cycling ard pulau ubin, cuz the trails were rather remote. there were lotsa abandoned houses too, guess it must have been the gov's doing. =x
there were five of us, darren and his gf, me and baby, and david... even though much verbal wasnt exchanged, it was still a nice journey as there were scenery and the fresh air to enjoy..
after which, we got back to mainland,and ate seafood over at the changi hawker. it was damn spicy lor...
later, we went to Tampines Mall and Century Square.by then, my legs were so tired, they threatened to break anytime if i walk further. still, i walked, and that's why, now my legs are in a state of "semi-breaking".
finally, we're reaching home... i asked if he not want to send me home as i saw that his eyes were blood-shot looking, and i'm afraid that we mite bump into my parents. oh yah, i set the bikini-clad babe pic as his wallpaper in his phone and he got upset abt it too... (think it was because darren's gf, yixia, said that there was nothing nice abt that bikini xiaojie)
apparently, he mistook me that it was because i dint want him to see my parents that's why i said that... but what i realli meant was, that i'm afraid that he would feel awkward if he saw my dad, and obviously, he cant act at ease.
That's what i realli meant, baby.
and when he was sending me home, he told me that he deleted all the bikini clad babes... he was looking pissed and walked far away from me, too.
who noes, when we were reaching the lift, we realli saw my parents, he called them and den left...we did bade our goodbyes...
when i got home and called him and asked what happened, he said, nothing..i said, u better say,if not i very fan one leh...
den he said,"what are u fan abt? i more fan okie... i dint want to tell u what happened cuz i dint want to start another quarrel. u're not sian of the quarrels but i am."
and i broke down into tears. what he said was damn hurtful. DAMN IT.
i'm going to sleep. heck if he's gonna call or not.
i hate u.
Happy Birthday, BaBy...!
time check: 2:30am,19th June 2004
yoz, it's me.. still bloggin at this ungodly hour...
okie, to some, it may be still early..but to others, it may b a damn late nite for them already..
anywayz, went out yesterday(18th) afternoon.. went to sembawang beach with baby, den toa payoh KBox and kboxed until 1am(19th)..that Kbox-thingy cost us a blardy 60 bucks. should have went to dine over at jack's place instead...it mite cost cheaper as well. shucks..
also, when i took a cab back, the cabbie was driving at a speed of 5km/h and it billed 8.40. realli sucks. i'm broke.thoroughly penniless. later this morning i still have to go pulau ubin with his mates.
but i dunno. sometimes i feel that i aint giving him enuff freedom. everywhere he goes and see will be either be with me, or me. mayb i should ask if he wants to enjoy da day with just his mates? i wish to give him more time alone and with his frens;we're like super glue stuck together..siamese twins? u've guessed it right.
and yes, i still cant post my photo up. wus with the webbie? issit defying what i want?
today is his birthday, and i wanna wish him a happy birthday. i realli wish that we can last. and he's gonna be my husband. i'm gonna bear him 2 kids. and stop his smoking and gambling asap. cuz those two habits are bad. and i mean, BAD.
yoz, it's me.. still bloggin at this ungodly hour...
okie, to some, it may be still early..but to others, it may b a damn late nite for them already..
anywayz, went out yesterday(18th) afternoon.. went to sembawang beach with baby, den toa payoh KBox and kboxed until 1am(19th)..that Kbox-thingy cost us a blardy 60 bucks. should have went to dine over at jack's place instead...it mite cost cheaper as well. shucks..
also, when i took a cab back, the cabbie was driving at a speed of 5km/h and it billed 8.40. realli sucks. i'm broke.thoroughly penniless. later this morning i still have to go pulau ubin with his mates.
but i dunno. sometimes i feel that i aint giving him enuff freedom. everywhere he goes and see will be either be with me, or me. mayb i should ask if he wants to enjoy da day with just his mates? i wish to give him more time alone and with his frens;we're like super glue stuck together..siamese twins? u've guessed it right.
and yes, i still cant post my photo up. wus with the webbie? issit defying what i want?
today is his birthday, and i wanna wish him a happy birthday. i realli wish that we can last. and he's gonna be my husband. i'm gonna bear him 2 kids. and stop his smoking and gambling asap. cuz those two habits are bad. and i mean, BAD.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Yum Yum...
hmm... just finished mummum-ing... ate porridge with peanuts, fish, and veggie...
pathetic two of us at home.. me and yipee...
sobs..too bad he's having his in-service...if not i'll be enjoying the sunshine out there with him...
well, so much for a day... i'm gonna explore more in here..
I'LL BE BACK.
pathetic two of us at home.. me and yipee...
sobs..too bad he's having his in-service...if not i'll be enjoying the sunshine out there with him...
well, so much for a day... i'm gonna explore more in here..
I'LL BE BACK.
i'm a nooooobbbbiieee!!
okay. i'm following the trend of setting an online diary.
reason being, i got all excited after reading my senior's bloggings.
i'm gonna try and explore ard this site...
see u guys soon. okie, so far, i'm talking to only myself...
can i add frens in here? or what?
reason being, i got all excited after reading my senior's bloggings.
i'm gonna try and explore ard this site...
see u guys soon. okie, so far, i'm talking to only myself...
can i add frens in here? or what?
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