Angst is almost over. =)

I tell u, evening primrose oil capsules does help. in a way.

it sorta like, pushes my pms to the bottom of the pit.

which is a good thing.

learning how to curb my anger, anxiety, and angst is a very difficult task for me. and i realised that, once i keep my mouth shut, i suppose it can stop any inevitables to being evitable.

tmr i'm going to bf's house. he's sick. feverish. and i'll prolly study there tmr. well, what's there to do in his house, just staring at his mom and prolly the four faces of wall. shoot me.

=)

oh yeah, me and jinling went out on 14.09.2005, and we took a plenty of pix! well, this is the scenario:

we underwent this secret passage way that led us to the early 40-50's... and before we swooshed over, we quickly leashed out our phones and took these pix...




we finally reached the place, and damn! it was smelly! the coolie whom we chanced upon was carrying this heavy bag in his hands, and from his expressions, i noe he found it smelly too! look at his frowning eyebrows!



i den went to demand the "dirty matter" to the ang moh in charge. seems like i'm not the only one who's unhappy bt that matter. looks who's with me:


well, i guess the ang moh just wouldnt take it in his stride. i tried to use my "beauty tricks" this time...


but he still wouldnt budge! well, it's jinling's turn to use her tricks...
luckily, this malay man was convinced that jl could make the ang moh turn soft, and seemed pretty happy of his decision, and requested that jl take a pic before helping us tell the ang moh abt the "dirty matter".


and then, he even asked for jl's hands for a dance!

and look! that coolie on the extreme left seemed pretty happy now that the vicinity is perfume nice now! isnt that cool?

since our moods were so uplifted as we'd helped the poor fellow "clear the air", we leashed out our phones again, and took this pic:


and we'd realised a small ball of spectrum of light is heading behind us... and it's getting bigger...


and this is the last pic that we took before boarding onto that big machine(behind us) and came back into reality. hahas. shoot me.

I'm dissing!

I dunno why. but i'm angry. this belated pms hits me at the wrong time.

my period is gone, yet my pms is back. it's trying to stay, i realise. i ignored it a few times, but to no avail. it seems to me that it's even stronger than my will-power.

i'm angry with my "fren", i'm angry with my dearest, i'm angry with my family, i'm angry with myself. what am i supposed to do, to get rid of the demon from me?

oh, and btw, i saw Kelvin that time near my sch! he's... erm, shorter than most of us thought he'd be(okay, mayb only i thought he was quite tall)... and he was having this walking stick in his hand, and mind u, he's alone. i'm wondering if he could partially see things, or issit that his 23 years has led him to be used to what he has. i'm not doubting what he has, but i'm just curious. cuz if he's partially blind, i suppose he could do more things, like, dance? arhs. shag me.

and finally, the project and comm skills' common test are over. it's so passe now to mention "Communication Skills" or "oh no... our project still cant work... how?"!

i'm glad everything is over. and i wish, that my pms will be gone as well.

and it seems like, it's not. cuz, i'm still not very over with the thought of my "fren". every thought of her disses me off. and i'm sick of it, cuz i keep thinking bout it. arrghs.

and i'll try not to cuss online. lol.

but a little caution to you guys reading this, fuck off from me.

i said i'll TRY.

You're my superstar. =)

i admire the smoothness your vocal sounds, i admire your courage, i admire the way ur eyes "light" up with sparks. and all in all, i admire u. you're my superstar, kelvin tan wei lian.

if u happen to realise, i've been starting to root for kelvin tan since the day Project Superstar had begin showing. he's managed, without fail, to make me cry for every episodes he's in.

"It would be degrading him if it's said that we vote for him because we sympathise him" - one tv source.

it's very true. think abt it. he has a normal family, with fully-abled kins, yet, he's the only misfortunate one, with one disability - he's lost the ability to see. and it's definitely not his fault. the path he took was a long and narrow one. he had went through massive obstacles before coming to this road name "Stardom". it wasnt fair for him, when ppl said that his votes are all sympathy votes, even if he doesnt sing as well as the other contestants.

he has no teacher. no special trainings. nothing.

he started with zero. but bagged a million.

he wept. and i did too.

i'm just so proud that he won, and i'll definitely support him, by purchasing his cd.

and i'm happy for Kelly Poon, too. for, she's also a winner in my heart.

Kelvin Tan Wei Lian, You're The One.