Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Day of Dudes. *Sluurrrps!*

Was out with baby last night with him and his colleagues... They organised a "Departure celebration" for him and his boss, Jeffery, who are going to leave for SengKang... He asked me to wait at Compass Point at 1745 for them to fetch me over but they couldnt make it cuz their boss sorta like, stalled their time...

So he asked me to walk ard CP.. and i got my ass stuck in "Popular" and began to read a book named "Why men lie and Why women cry". it was a hilariously farnie book, and it tot me quite a lot of stuff... but i assume that the author's a guy, cuz the content was rated quite 'sexist'. Baby called me and instructed me to the taxi stand... it was already 1820.

so, i trotted my way to the taxi stand and waited for another 7 mins before they reached. soon, we're on our way to the hotel. but, quite unexpectedly, we got lost. we were going round and round singapore and to imagine, we actually got to the Harbour Front! baby decided to call david, but that blur sotong wasnt able to give any usable directions.

phone calls were flooding in, and confusing directions were given. we finally reached that place at 1945 or so, and we were all starving. we entered the lobby, and i saw david standing next to a handsome prince. he was Hisham. He was having this "i've-got-white-teeth" smile and he looked really dashing. the best thing is, he dint look a single bit like a Malay. baby was greeting everyone and they teased that he looked like some insurance-agent.

The food was bad, extremely spicy and so not-my-taste. we took several pix before leaving... i hope it turns out fine. saw yixia, daren's gf yesterday... she looked bettter, her skin. LOL. i'm not trying to say anything, dun think wrong. i just think this way. Then after the dinner, we walked all the way back to the Raffles MRT station. we were like, walking for 5km man...

it was realli long. but i enjoyed the scnery nevertheless. we were walking along the stretch of the pier, from the end to the front. and i enjoyed every single moment of it. it was fun, and Hisham was crazy. lol. oh yah, forgot to tell u who walked with us: Darren and his gf, Me and Baby, hisham and imran, and david. poor david, he was quiet all the way man... felt quite sorry for him.

then on the train, Hisham asked me a couple of times who i'd choose if i werent with baby. i dunno what to say. i wanted to say it was david, but i dint. i dint noe what baby would react. i meant nothing, anywayz. cuz hisham definitely dint want me to say baby, so decided to say david. but i kept my mouth shut. lol. joyln is looking now. i'm blushing. continue at home ya? bye...

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Happy

oooooooooooo!
i'm so happy! though this new skin of mine aint very pwetty and i dint do it completely by myself, but i hope u guys will try and like it! i had a hard time finding and editing the pix! =) so for the time being, ciao!

Friday, September 24, 2004

Sick

the past couple of days had been hell for me. i was down with fever, with a temp of 39deg. i tot i was going to die, but hell, no. i know that lao tian ye is good to me.

went to see doc today, he gave me some antibiotics and cough syrup. 4 types of medicine!!! i can still feel the bitterness in my throat. yuck! i hate cough syrup. he gave me an MC, which i think i'll be grateful to him. lol. was supposed to go to meihui's chalet today, but dint cuz i was feeling realli sick. and i'd spent the two days alone at home, how lonely i feel. called baby but he was too busy that he cant pick up my call. =(

he's spending a lot of time on his work, he even went back home at midnite yesterday. to think he started work at 8 in the morning!!! i suppose his boss wanted him dead. lol.
but i dun care lar. i'm quite used to him not being ard me. it doesnt matter anymore.

for now, i'm' gonna help him with his proj which is due on mon. but i cant help on my c++. =(

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Sad.

waiting for baby's call rite at this very moment... will be going out with him for dinner later.. but dunno what time he's off work... i'm hungry... =(

anywayz, i got called by my C++ lecturer. sucks like hell, it's the third time he's called my name. damn, i feel so f-up by him. not that i dun like him or anything, but , mayb i should only blame myself..

joy, me, grace and sharon went shopping today. BUgis. yah, again, again. lol. What to do? i'm so rigid. bought 3 bras and a bag. i'm not realli satisfied with what i've bot, though. and we'd shopped so fast, that when me and joy saw our watch, we couldnt believe it. lol.

and we bot surayah sweety's pressie. *winks winks* we hope she'll like it...
feeling a bit of a headache. u think shall i go to sleep? i slept at 4 last nite, cuz i napped in the afternoon. damn, my life's so disrupted. =(

i'm gonna end here. tired.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

=)

(note: scroll down till u see another note)
LT: not because i need to, but it's because i want to.
LT: i think it's very true for what xiaoLangZi said.. i think that's prob y i have to stick with him
xiaoLangZi: it's ez to find another one..but not ez to find one u love..
Applegal: BE Happy k?not happy will older faster
Applegal: condition i mean
Applegal: you can find better guy with ur condiotn lor
: lying too much is not healthy la ..esp to a relationship ....
: tink u shld haf a nice tok wif him (not quarrel huh)..and try to find out y he lies lor ..
xiaoLangZi: hmm...how lame..he lied abt even such a thing ?..no comments

(note: read them upwards from here.)

watched the "Singapore Idol" earlier on(i adore Sylvester! he's cuuuuute!), tot nana was good, but agreed with what one of the judge commented. "U're a good singer, but u lack of the X-factor."

it's just like describing love. u can be a fantastic lover, yet ur partner might mistake you and thinks that u're just another average lover.
and after so many turmoils' happened in my life, i got to realise several things:
1.) Never take one for granted;
2.)Never take love for granted;
3.) Praise ppl as often as you can;

4.) Dont be upset by small little things;
5.) Love those whom you think you deserve them to love you back.


1. & 2.) I used to take my ex-boyfriend for granted; yell at him, chase him outta the house, verbal abuse him, and all sortta things u cant imagine(i dun do rhyming).
Now, things are sortta like taking a turn-back and these make me understand why we should never take one/things for granted.

i'm NOT trying to imply that i miss those days ard with my ex-bf, but what i'm driving here is, if u feel that he/it is worth your love, just go ahead and shower him with your TLC. never stop loving him/it and never try to compare. u'll only learn from your mistakes, not make worse of them.

I used to think that i love baby too much. and that he doesnt love me AS much. but now, i realise that i'm comparing. and it's pointless. i guess you know it. when u want someone so much, they become a need in your life. and it's time u know that he's the one for you.

it's insatiable; human always ask for more.

3.) it doesnt matter if he/she is putting on too much mascara, a lil tad too much wrinkles, or a lil not too kawaii. (ps.:and grace, i'm not referring to u okie? =) they're just examples!)
just add a lil compliment and it'll fly them to paris!

it doesnt realli matter, it's a white lie. as long as the person is happi rite?

just like earlier on, i told baby he looked purrrfect today, and seriously, it flew him to korea(his favourite country). but i realli tot he's good looking today. =p
but obviously, u have to say the rite thing at the rite time... tell him that he's looking untidy, etc.

it's good to always praise ppl for that lil happiness; to think it's created by you.

4.) this is the point which i'm trying to keep up with... i get upset for the slightest thing, and i think i mite be a bit too petty. yes, i admit, so baby, for my sake, pls change. OOOPPSs. lol. i mean, for your sake, i'll change.

it's bad for me to change; it's for the better.

5.) basically, i'm tired to type anymore. LOL. just love whoever u think they deserve your love and u deserve their love. =) *muacks*

it's love which brought everyone closer; love fills the world.

Monday, September 13, 2004

LOL.

we had a superbly crazy day today. kept luffing and luffing like no one's business. talked crap and luffed at the shit. lol.

but prob that's the way i handle things. when i dun feel happy with something, i'll try and pretend to luff my ass out. but in actual fact, i only want to divert my attention from my sadness. had a quarrel with him last nite, he said he went out to la kopi with his frens, but in the end, he ended up playing mahjong with his pals. i dunno if i should trust him. i called him, he dint answer the phone, and he told me he was playing at that time and so he dint hear the phone ring. our romance is seriously short-lived.

previously the same thing happened to us, i called him for like, a million times, he dint answer, and he told me he cant hear the phone ring. in the end, when we met up the other day, i found out that he was out clubbing (i saw the stupid chope on the back of his hand). and i was real upset. i realli hate liars. no liars in my life.

i condemn liars! anyone but liars

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Thank God.

Previously what i'd written was cut off by my freaking fat feet as i accidentally tripped over the plug of this comp. so here's what i've written(quite long, though) :

Went out with baby to city hall area yesterday. we went to suntec's carrefour to hunt for the things which we wanted to buy; he eyed 3 l/s shirts for his work and me, i'd been eyeing on the white pair of slips for quite some time already. after that, we went to see the timings for "Anacondas". it was 7.15 at suntec. and he suggested that we go check out the timings over at shaw tower instead. okie, 5.15. set. so, we walked back to suntec. i suppose the shop vendors recognized us by then. lol. he bot his shirts and my white slips. =) i'm realli happy. =) seriously. not because he bot me the slips. but, i'm just gay.

Again, we went back to shaw tower. i mean, yah, it's just a bridge and few steps away from suntec. lol. but my legs sorta sored. he asked if they(my legs) are soring, but i lied. it's a white lie, anyway. and so, "Anacondas" started. we bot nachos and before the show starts, we'd already gobbled down like, 3/4 of it. the cheeszsze, OH SO GOOD. lol. hmm, i'd grade the show, A-. it's good, but just a lil too short. it's miraculously thrilling and sent my heart pounding for several times. i suggest those of u guys who havent watch the show to catch it SOON.

as for our dinner, we went millenia walk to have our favourite "niu rou mian" aka beef noodles. it's still as amazing. *slurrrps* i asked if he wanted to go over to marina bay, but he wanted to stay in city hall(waste money) and so i suggested the esplanade - marina promenade. but before that, we sneaked into Pan Pacific hotel(for me, yes, again = )... to the 22nd floor. he wanted me to stand near the glass of the lift, but i had a tiny gut. lol. so i dint. but before we left, we took a few pix. and oh, one SERIOUSLY angmoh shared the lift with us. he's dead-good looking. ya noe, i tot he was the famous rugby player who came over to coach like few months/weeks ago. i couldnt remember.
ps.: i saw the friendster's alston guy and his angie gf. he was goddamn short, and his girl was goddamn skinny. i think she had a waist of 12.

and soooo, we trotted our way to the promenade. the whole stretch of it was filled with smooching couples, and so we decided to stop at a place which we could sit and have a tad of privacy. lol. we copied them and oh, the feeling was so good. it was fantastic. lol. then, we decided to leave. oh yes, and i bot a brownie from RockyMaster. it was, alright lah, not very nice. i think it wasnt as good as CoffeeBeans'.

on the train, i commented that i was thirsty, he took out the bottle of tea from our shopping bags and fed me. HE FED ME!!! omg. i'm feeling damn high and exhilarated lor. u dunno the feeling de lar. lol.

okie, we hurried a lil and i guess it's cuz he wanted to catch the last train home; not very good to practice catching the cab back. waste of money. so, i reached home at ard 2330 yesterday.
we blabbed for half an hour on the phone before he met up with the moon-pretty and me, star-handsome.

i realli felt like his pPrRiInNcCeEsSsS yesterday. and i gravely want to relive the romance for ever. if possible.

so i guess, my life wasnt very much screwed up, or is it?

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Thank You

to all ma frens who've been loyally reading my blog, i have to say a big THANK YOU to ALL of you.

and i'm alrite already... things are beginning to surface as soon as i typed in my last blog....
this blog is sorta created to let ppl hear my sorrows, my happiness as well as my anger. sometimes i do say a lot of crap and swear a couple of times, but, nevertheless, i'm still the same old me...

i've just went out with him yesterday evening and we'd had dinner over at amk central... he ordered satay-beehoon and i ordered fish and chips and extra fries... *YUM* oh, and i saw Li boon there... my pri school classmate. lol.
it was fun yesterday; sorta like i was crazy rumbling trou my head, telling myself to be happy as he wanted to meet me for dinner... wanted to ask him over my house, but mom was at home, so wasnt able to...
but nevermind, at least we did meet up and had some quality time together. i'm a happy worm. =)

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Watashi wa okotte imasu.

i'm just plain sick of things between u and me. i just simply hate u.

have u got any idea how many nights i spent waiting for your call and sacrificed my sleep just for a few mins conversing on the phone? have u got any idea that i wanted so much to meet you but u cant cuz u have to accompany your frens as u feel that u mite have neglected them? what abt me?

now that ur fucking-fucked-up-smelling-balls' boss had transfered u over to sengkang, do u noe how much lesser blardy time we have with each other? u dunno. REALLy, all i want is a bit of time to spend with me. that's just a little request, but u cant read that. that's all so fucked up. i just hate the way u handle things. and i hate myself for being so cheap. DARN IT.

i've spent the past 7 months going out with you, heck my frens, and this is what i get. i've lost all whom i wanted to be with, find happiness in them, and with you, i've lost all. blame it everything on me. i'm just such a cheapo wanting to see you so much. i'm cheap. i'm blardy CHEAP. my name, my body, my mind, my actions, my behaviour, my character, my everything spells C.H.E.A.P to u.

"Its undeniable
that we should be together
Its unbelievable
how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know
if you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time

time will reveal

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see

that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...

It's so Incredible
the way things work themselves out
And all emotional

once you know that what its all about
And undesirable
for us to be apart
Never would've made it very far
Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart
Cause...

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see

that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...

Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun

I feel like a little child
whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
just in the nick of time...

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see

that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one..."

Friday, September 03, 2004

Fatigue- Reported By Worm Ong

Had a few sucky quarrels with baby. and they realli sucked like hell. i apologiesd, cuz i noe it was me at fault. since last mon, we've had a week without meeting each other. and then met again on this mon.
until now, i guess it's pretty hopeless to be pinning that we would meet up again this week. His tests are taking up too much of his attention, draining time and energy from him. all i want was just a lil bit of attention from him as well, can i puhlease have that? =(

Went out with Shiyun, Bohlat, Jeannie and Sharon today... we went to suntec to watch "A Cinderella Story". i'd rate the movie...B-.
The plot was OK. only the cast intrests me. CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY. *slurrrps* it's weird to see ppl flocking to see the show when they've already sorta know the story. but still, prob ppl has too much money to spare. hahs.

it was kinda exciting today; we actually took the lift of Pan Pacific Hotel and, whoosh. it got us high up. high high high up. okie. mayb not that high up there. but i'm paranoid. it's 37/35 floor. i cant remember. it's like, more than 5 times of what i'm presently typing this shit at. and i could see ppl down on earth like they were. sesame. Did i spell sesame rite? whatever. and i was damn scared. REALLI. no joke. it's realli hiiiiiiiiiigh up there.

then i bot a normal gio pink tee. a white colour belt, and a brown coloured long-sleeves whatever-you-call-it blouse. and altogether, i spent a whoishing 60 bucks just today. and the money was originally saved-up to pay my blardy bills. DAMN me. i'm thoroughly broke. i'm penniless. penisless, too. =x

i shall update my wishlist. =)