Went to his house to clean up his 梳妆台.
cleared trillions of rubbish. these are inclusive of his ex girlfriend's photos, his letters from his penpals(?!) and some receipts which you could date back from year 2005. imagine.
indefinitely, dust and particles have set on whatever was on the table.

but then again, felt pretty happy that i could at least do something for him. :)

Went to watch Shrek 3 as well. i was pretty disappointed as it was not as good as Shrek and Shrek 2. Pirates of the caribbean 3 was not as good too. :(

Big Green Eye Monster

Green Eye Monster.

went bonkers yesterday night.
i guessed i murdered myself with the green in me. shouldnt have did that, but then, i did.

hanwei, dear's fren, added me in friendster. browsed his page, saw his pictures, and it was all with his wife-to-be. felt envious of the girl, and thought why dear hadnt have yet to add our pictures in his profile. digress starts, and the green-eye monster kicked in. hecalled, asking what happened as i was acting strange already. i did not want to speak to him on the phone already as i was starting to assume and presume.

after hanging up the phone with him, i started to feel even angrier. "Why did dear not put our pictures in friendster?!". also, i was angry with him for not having to forget me while he's out, and that he's angrier when i did not message him when i'm out. i did not feel it was exactly fair to me.

today, i decided to be the "punisher". instead of the usual morning wake-up calls, i ignored the alarm which sounded for me to call him. i snoozed it, and went ahead with my make-up. he started calling, and i refused to pick it up.

he tried a lot of ways to contact me, but i still reject to answer his calls. reached the office, and he started to call my office. charlotte answered and i asked her to help with screening of calls. dear then called priscy. priscy called to my extension and asked me whatwas happening. from this moment, i burst out crying. i started to realise that i was being too much into ignoring him. but being the egoistic me, i didnt want to stop. i continued ignoring him, and i told the situation to Lois, my manager. she started to brainwash me, and told me that i shouldnt have done this to him. she said that i should give him a message and tell him i'm sorry for being this ridiculous. i did what she said.

he did not reply to that message of mine. this time, it was me who's like 热锅上的蚂蚁. called him, but he rejected my call. after that, i went for lunch with priscy. he called while i was on my way to meet her. he asked me what happened this morning, but i still (goondu) told him that i am not ready to tell him the reason. his turn to go bonkers.

met priscy and she chided me for being stupid. she said i should've told him what happened and that i shouldnt have ignored him further after my sorry message. he messaged priscy and said that he did not want to have a relationship that does not communicate. and he said i was ridiculous.

haiz. then i sent him a message again, telling him that i was sorry for what i did and that i still love him. i mean, of cuz i DO love him, it's just that, prolly after so much assumptions that he might not like me, i start to act like a goner. thus it explains so much into avoiding his calls, and etc.

it was late at night when the both of us reach home. cried even more worse while i was on the phone with him. am grateful that he forgived me, and gave me a chance to prove that i could still be his girlfriend. who could stand a daffy girlfriend who always tries to pick a fight just to attain attention? no one could really do that.

except for him. for that, i love him even more.

i hope in the future, things wont be the same anymore.

i hope i'll be able to care and shower him love and concern even more than what i did to my previous relationships.

and i hope this one will last.

Reunion

Met up with lijun and joyln. they're my poly mates. it was a good feeling, had seen them after so long, especially lijun... :)

i love them! :) went marina square, joyjoy treated us with KFC (my favourite!)

miss them. hope can see them more often.

Driving Test: I PASSED!!! :)

i passed i passed i passed!!!

i'd passed my freaking driving test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOHHOOOOOOOO!!!!!

update (17.05.07): he got me an iPod nano as promised as i've passed my test. Yay!

Confusion

i do not know why, but i should feel happy that i'm going on a trip with him.

i wonder what is wrong with me. promised him that i'll tell him whatever is in my mind, but what is happening to me now?


i want to tell him, but, me myself have no idea what i'm going through.


am i thinking a tad toooo much?



i wonder high and low. after this post, i shall compare the similarities and differences between an aquarius from the scorpio.


but nevertheless, dear i still love you. :)