Monster day!

man. today was really hell for me.

woke up at 6 to wake him up and slept for another effective 0.5hr or so. and had to get up to get dressed for work. and this terrible headache struck me and i also felt like killing myself.

had to practically drag my feet to work; they seemed like they were on iron balls. and jl too. tired like hell. it wasnt as if we were still boozed out today, but i just think that we had insufficient sleep.

and man, work starts and 9 and it's still hell for us. though it's our last day of work today, i still feel like gettin' it over and done with cuz my headache is really taking the toll outta me.

and went bugis village for lunch. had laksa and jl had rice. and i bought my sexy man's disc. man. he's got me droolin' babeh!

and he's got such soulful voice, i believe i'm still swooning over him w/o listening or seeing him. lemme show u his pic!

and den, i went home and slept for like, 1.5hrs before meeting bf. went to watch monster-in-law and man! the male lead is a hunk too! and he's damn romantic in it, i wish i can b jLo in that shoW! i'd grade the show A- as it showed the process of how jLo met her man and how his mom tortured her. man. good show though i have some grudges against jLo.

and after the show, went to makan at amk hawker. had western food and headed home next. and my headaache disappeared after seeing him. =)

Wonder-woman.

wondering who's the wonder woman here? it's me.

i'm the wonder-woman. the woman who wonders whenever she can. and after wondering, she wonders.

i wonder what it would be like if i can be with a guy of my dreams, caring, gentle, not an mcp.

i dun really like one of my gal pal's bf; he's too much of an MCP and is not acting like himself. u noe, putting up a front to others. very showy, but has got nothing to boast abt. lol.

i wonder if there's ever the story of an happy ending, even though tiny upsets do help to a blissful couple sometime. but den again, too much of something aint good. too much of happiness is bad, and too much of quarrels are even worse.

went cb yesterday, with jinling and catharine. cat's a sec sch fren of mine and we hadnt meet up for a very long time already. bt she's still very keen on coming with us although she has to work at 10 this morning. kudos to her. yesterday night was great. reach cb at ard 12 and man. it's got to be groovin', baby! had a drink before hittin' the dance floor, and it was, man, hot. bodies were touching one another, but none bothered to give another a look. they were too absorbed in their own dancing.

wwent toilet after 45 mins, and had another drink. it can be really gruelsome w/o the liquid man. went to the dance floor again, but this time, slightly tired. i'm not sure if i'm worn out by the dance and my energy level's lowered drastically, or the alcohol in me is playing a part. went to the washroomm again, and back to the floor. man. that was the time i really felt the fatigue coming through, and by that time, there wasnt good music left. so, we decided to leave the place.

jl stayed over, and we reached home at ard 4. washed up and we chatted, till about 5.45 this morning. talked abt lots of things, till i discovered that i really had no energy left. and so we slept. and i got up at 11 this morning. but had already realised that jl had already woke up... and she said she's heading home, so i dint persuade her, as she said she hadnt slept well over my place..

after she left, i went str8 back to sleep. and i had the most absurd dream, ever. i dreamt of my sec sch teacher, whom i had a crush on. he taught me pe and english lang the time and in my dreams, he was sweatty and wearing the sports attire. he told me that his mom just passed away, and i consoled him and we HUGGED. den we stood up and went ard, holding hands. i asked what'll happen to his wife and toddler, he told me he was tired. man, this dream is damn weird! wasnt any kinda wet dreams, i'm certain of. and i had absolutely NO idea why this dream came abt. prolly like what they say, dreams are always the opposite of reality.

but i have had dreams which are so sweet, i really feel like sleeping and be absorbed in the candy times.

well, i'm ending abruptly here. cuz i need to pursue my dreams(literally) now. so long! =)

Jars of Misses..

Hmmm, it's been quite a time since i last updated this blog.

nothing much's happened, and not much updating to do.

went out with jinling for more than a couple of times a week; other than working, that is. and i've added quite a number of entries to my wardrobe. and yes, i've got myself a bargain when i've got a Guess wallet at less 20%! i bought it at OG, as it's having this hol sales.... there aint other sales for Guess other than OG ya noe. nono, there is. one at Taka Square. but, those designs there are quite out, so... check 'em out at OG instead. . . the sales is ending tmr! so move fast!

and while cleaning up my wardrobe this afternoon, i'd realised that i'd bought clothes which they cant really fit me anymore and looks really gross. and it just incurred to me that i bought them outta impulse. and, they look really off-fashion now. damn. waste my money! mah stupid brains. toot.

i bought a cleo yesterday, and it had an article abt saving up. yeah, i discovered that saving is the best alternative if i want to shop. i cant depend on my parents anymore. yaya, i mean allowance is a neccessity, but, other than that, they dun really provide me with extra blings. so, that's why, i noe that i have to scrimp and save especially i have nights to hit next week. have dinner with jinling and co., meet up with my darliing girlfwens, prolly go clubbing(i desire!), and hit the ktv.

i'm weak financially now, and hope that when my dad gives me my weekly allowance tmr, i'll be able to do those things listed abv. and get them DONE.

so much for now. tata...!

Dissin' Off.

i dunno why. but after i've read up a novel, i've been realising that i'm snapping so much often like the lead female in the story.

i snap up at the smallest irritating molecule, killing the happiness i had in me before.
the happiness is always short-lived and i really have a low tolerance threshold to start with.

i just couldnt think that my parents can be sooooo biased over their kids, and this is driving me crazy. mayb u dun like reading my posts cuz they're always filled with anger and sorrow, and never happy. but this is my life. i ought to search for a new one, drive up my patience level and tolerance, if not, i'll always be the unhappy one.

they say that parents WILL be biased. like the fingers on our hands? they're not equal. some short, some long. just like parents treating kids. some with high respect, but some with really low-loving ratings.

my parents expect me to do the chores in the house, claiming that they're tired and that they should take a rest. i know that working is a chore, and tiring event. but then again, why do they expect me to do it, but not my siblings? i wonder if they want me to tag along with them wherever they go is cuz they cant get my brothers to go with them?

should i not caare abt them? should i ignore them? i feel so stuffed in this house, i need a breather sometimes. but my mom is constantly breathing down my neck by what i should do to the house to contribute the least.

and that IS really getting on my nerves. why do they even not ask my brothers to do it? why do they go out and party and my parents feel it's okay for them? why do i go out and yet they think i'm wasting the limited resources, in this case, it's the money.

i dun see the reason why i'm being treated so indifferently here.
just because imma girl, that doesnt explain anything. i DO help out, yet they expect more than just that.

i dunno what to do else, i need to seek refuge from one. i need a brain-reader, and see what they really want. do they not want me? or do they just want to have a free maid in the house?

this is childish, but that's how i feel. regardless of what u feel, that's how i feel.

tell me that my parents love me. cuz i dont feel so.

Dragged.

dont be mistaken. it's just that i'm weary. not so much now, cuz i've just napped for say, 30mins just now?

and "surprised, surprised!", how surprised that we're back together again. everything's okie b/w us.

and i've started working as a telemarketer, and it seriously starts to stress me out. it's the stress which will carry itself out when one's managed to clinch an appointment, and u can only look at urself and blame it on ur ill-fate and downfall and zero-appointment list.

our in-charge, has over manpowered. the whole office of PhillipCapital, has been invaded of it's half by us, the TM. telemarketers in short. and we got noticed today that we will only we working for 3 days a week instead of 4/5 days per week.

i'm more than happy to be not able to work more than 3 days in a row. but the thought of reduced pay, i'm more than sorrow.

and now, i got to realise that, no matter where i go, there'd always be this person who'd suck up to those in higher position than we do. i cant hate them, in fact, i do admire what their doing.

what these suckers are doing, are actually smth which i cant even start. i dun even noe how to start a decent conversation, needless to say, to get groovy-savvy with the other party. so, i really do admire what suckers do for life, and i only have to blame myself for being so very stupid.

now my comp seems to be in a weird position. the same time i'm typing this shit, it sortta like, lags?

dunno if i typed too fast, so much faster than how the computer can react to.

lol.

not possible lar. i'm just sick in the head. PSYCHED. (this is a new word which i've picked up from, Eye for a Guy2, which were telecast earlier. i dunno it's meaning, but heck. lol_)

so much for today.

read up the next post! =) -bleahss-