I'm a worm.

i'm a worm, digging away from my studies. in fact, i'm gonna be dead soon as someone's gonna step rite on me when i'm scriggling my ass away from the books.

earlier on, baby and i have agreed to study at 2330. but in the end... i guess he's dating the pretty moon lady rite now. =) *say chheeeeze!*
hmm, and that leaves me moodless to even study. i dunno. this semester i've been seriously slacked out. but i still just dun wanna push my ass to study.and tmr i have lessons starting from 8. on fir, i've c++ quiz to work on. "at least i dint fuck ard." muahahaha. i hate myself. i tell myself to study, but instead, i come online, eat tidbits, bite on earthworms and etc.

this is me.
this is my life.
completely screwed up.

*shy shy*

when baby came today, i let him read the whole of my blog. i dunno what he feels but, i dunno. i hope he knows what i feel for him. =)

it had been kinda dramatic, but, long story. wanted to break up, but finally i've decided to stop my folly and we've kissed and got back. =)

i love him, i realli do. i'm half-waiting for his call, half-waiting for myself to feel sleepy. =p
*yawns-not* lol.

i realli yearn for his huggies. i love his huggies cuz he gave me lil of it. i'm deprived of hugs. =(

Grrrr...

met up with Emily and Jasmine this afternoon. we talked cock for like, 3 hrs plus, sitting outside Coffee Bean and co,. I've spent 8.10bucks on just a slice of carrot cake and a kids-sized pure choc. I havent seen emily in like, prob, a year or a half? But she's still the same old her, trotting her way with her legs never-gonna-hit-one-another, and the way her hands swing so high up into the air. lol. ET, if u read this, dun humtump me. ty. =)

Hung up the phone with baby. damn, our happiness' gonna end, pretty much very soon. but most prob he's tired.

he believes so much into the lot he's picked over at "si ma lu"; i forgot the name of the street in english. arghs. i dunno, i'm confused. and he has such a HUUUGGGEEE ego. realli. i think he's ego is much bigger than what i've spelt. i dunno. mayb i should apologise to him tmr. whatever lah. i'm having mixed feelings now. i dunno what to say, i dunno what's not to say.

another thing, i dunno why i hate picking up calls nowadays. i'm sick and tired of matters which concerns the use of my heart. i dun want to be heart-broken again. like what i've said to joyln before, i dun even care even if it does sacrifice my so-called friends. or rather, aqquaintances.

and to surayah, i dint mean what i did last fri. i admitted that i was kinda fed-up when we keep asking u guys to accompany us to eat out at KFC when we noe that u dint want to. i noe u dint feel like going there cuz of the distance and etc. and not cuz of another person. but i was fed-up at why we're so sticky to each other.

well, i suppose the green-eyed monster killed me.

I've got a bloated finger.

Hey, it's me(ok, ok. it's lame.)!
i've just updated my blog into a more colourful page, i hope u guys will like it.
now i'll try adding audio into the blog, pix and hopefully, more.

back to my blog. i went out with baby today. i dun think i wanna say things out cuz it's gonna be "pantang" u noe, language in malay. hee. i ate lots of food and am damn sticky and smelly rite at this moment. baby's working, and i'm waiting for his call.(just like always. =) )

oh yah, i think i wanna upload the smileys to my blog also.
see u tmr.

my grp leader, ym, is quite pissed with my grp's slackiness. =x but, we deserved it.
*lol*
we're realli slack.

The Life Of Mrs Chong

The life of Mrs Chong aint easy to lead. i'm waiting for baby's calls constantly, and he invades ever so much in my mind, it just makes my brain not want to study.

okie, okie. i wont push ALL the blame to that. i wont give no more reasons. lol. i just dun feel like studying. not to mention mommy's wish will go down to drain. she wished that i could be in the forces, serving sg, or finishing my studies at a local university. but i noe my limits. i cant do that.

Nothing much has been troubling me so far. Not friendships, not family ties, not LOve. it's the stress i get from studying. but seriously, i dunno why i complain so much, either. cuz i DONT even study. i hate myself. i noe myself yet i cant do nothing to myself. WHY's that so? i realli dunno. *ponders hard*

and i noe i'm being a "female dog" (i noe u noe what it means, i just cant scold myself THAT word. =p), it's been unfair to someone. i shouldnt have did it, but i've had. and are continuing doing it. i really shouldnt. it'll spoil the whole thing we have together. but i just cant control myself. i hope someone realli understands. and i wont give lame excuses for what i've did. sukaya, joyjoy, u noe what i'm talking abt rite? *winkswinks*

finally, hopes that
-i can get over it as soon as possible;
-my studies can pick up;
-sharon gets what she's been wishing for;
-all my frens' happiness will be in their hands;
-my love for baby will nv subside. =)

damn, i've missed yet another episode of "Zhen xin mi yu". =(

Hi, the bored me again.

i'm feeling damn vexed rite now; reason being, i dun even noe how to do my basic c++ hands-on..

i'm feeling useless. called baby for the trillionth time until he answered the damn phone. wants me to wake him up at 4.30 again. and here i am, waiting for the time to pass while others are working on their damn work.

saw toro just now, with sharon. he was with his gf. he looked at us(both of us denied that he was looking at either of us)as if he's trying to say"i've got a gf. so, piss off."

i dunno. i feel that the earth is not doing its job anymore. it's stopped revolving.
=(

Ex-blogger

It's been a superbly long time since i last blogged. mayb a week ago? that's considered long already okie...

but anywayz, Life has been wandering abt in the theme park, and it's got itself settled on the roller coaster. me and baby had quarrelled a few days ago, which brought me agony and irritation. next came my parents, whom completely pissed me off.

i'm trying my best not to talk to them anymore. i dun owe them anything, neither do they. i dun think i am anything to them, particularly, him. whatever. and i will have 3 frigging icas next week. DBMS, OOAD, IP. sucks like hell.

it hadnt been a wonderful week; i've had quarrels with the most beloved ppl in my life. why am i such a person? but i dun think i can be any sick-er than some ppl i've aquaintanceship with them. Fu*k my life.