Summary:

Feb 22nd: First time to dine at KuishinBo, and with him! :)

Feb 24th: Day to meet his dad. Nervous! =S

Feb 25th:
We've met each for 11 days consecutively.


and i've never did anything like this with any of my previous r/s before.

he brought me to meet his frens and family. and i dunno why i agreed so readily, when i've never did with anyone previously before. it's just... different.

i am really in lurve.



ouch. i'm falling hard. i'm loving it!

Valentine

SHE Concert

Hi ppl.

going to wwatch SHE concert later, in hope that i can catch wu zun right in front of my face! niahahaha.


just by thinking of the thought makes my heart race faster.


anywayz, a side note apart from the concert, it's been some time since i last updated on you. the last time i updated was telling u that my bf just broke up with me on christmas day.

but i'm recovering well, thank you very much. :)


but now i'm wondering if an equlibrium should be placed nearer to friends or family. haiz.


maybe love. ahhaha.

whatever.

My Birthday :)

jeannie and jinling gave me a door hanging which reads "LT ROOM" in pink (totally match my new purplish walls! :)), my colleagues gave me an angbao of 60bucks, a set of clothes and a cake, my bro gave me 2 raoul shirts. love 'em. hehe.

but i dint have an extremely happy birthday cuz jasmine teow's prepared a list of to-do list before she went on leave ON MY BIRTHDAY.

:(

i really am appalled upon seeing her. arrrghs.

and now i'm gonna skive and prolly watch the news. good bye!

Fantastic 4 is simply fantastic

it's even better than Pirates of the Carribean and Shrek. i swear to God i'm telling the truth!

watched it with dear at AMK Hub. it was pretty cool except for the few black monkeys behind us. they were REALLY irritating, cuz they were swearing and talking like they're watching the show at home. mf. regardless of how racist i sound, i'm sorry, but i really do despise those who sat behind us the other time.

Mr. Fukuda's Bdae

Met up with jasmine teow together with mr fukuda after work today.


we're gonna give mr fukuda a treat as he always do the paying. and we went to the grand hyatt hotel to dine. it's a local cuisine buffet. the food's not exactly fantastic to me cuz they're all a tad cold...


i like local foods which make me go slurping! ;(

but nevertheless, i still enjoyed myself very much. :)


we've had cheese prata, chicken murtabak, rojak, fish, abalone mushroom, chilli crabs, egg tarts, pineapple tarts, mutton curry, chicken curry, you2 ji1 (loose translation: oil chicken, haha!) and lots more!


and now my stomach looks like this ----> O !!!


haha. and i just realised today that it's mr fukuda's birthday tmr, and we're gonna surprise him with a cake! :) hope he's gonna have a enjoyable birthday as i suppose he does not have exactly three thousand friends in singapore as he's from japan. he'll be 51 tmr! *giggles


and last point to note, i miss dear dear even though i just last saw him on monday.

it's a pretty weird feeling, you know???

Went to his house to clean up his 梳妆台.
cleared trillions of rubbish. these are inclusive of his ex girlfriend's photos, his letters from his penpals(?!) and some receipts which you could date back from year 2005. imagine.
indefinitely, dust and particles have set on whatever was on the table.

but then again, felt pretty happy that i could at least do something for him. :)

Went to watch Shrek 3 as well. i was pretty disappointed as it was not as good as Shrek and Shrek 2. Pirates of the caribbean 3 was not as good too. :(

Big Green Eye Monster

Green Eye Monster.

went bonkers yesterday night.
i guessed i murdered myself with the green in me. shouldnt have did that, but then, i did.

hanwei, dear's fren, added me in friendster. browsed his page, saw his pictures, and it was all with his wife-to-be. felt envious of the girl, and thought why dear hadnt have yet to add our pictures in his profile. digress starts, and the green-eye monster kicked in. hecalled, asking what happened as i was acting strange already. i did not want to speak to him on the phone already as i was starting to assume and presume.

after hanging up the phone with him, i started to feel even angrier. "Why did dear not put our pictures in friendster?!". also, i was angry with him for not having to forget me while he's out, and that he's angrier when i did not message him when i'm out. i did not feel it was exactly fair to me.

today, i decided to be the "punisher". instead of the usual morning wake-up calls, i ignored the alarm which sounded for me to call him. i snoozed it, and went ahead with my make-up. he started calling, and i refused to pick it up.

he tried a lot of ways to contact me, but i still reject to answer his calls. reached the office, and he started to call my office. charlotte answered and i asked her to help with screening of calls. dear then called priscy. priscy called to my extension and asked me whatwas happening. from this moment, i burst out crying. i started to realise that i was being too much into ignoring him. but being the egoistic me, i didnt want to stop. i continued ignoring him, and i told the situation to Lois, my manager. she started to brainwash me, and told me that i shouldnt have done this to him. she said that i should give him a message and tell him i'm sorry for being this ridiculous. i did what she said.

he did not reply to that message of mine. this time, it was me who's like 热锅上的蚂蚁. called him, but he rejected my call. after that, i went for lunch with priscy. he called while i was on my way to meet her. he asked me what happened this morning, but i still (goondu) told him that i am not ready to tell him the reason. his turn to go bonkers.

met priscy and she chided me for being stupid. she said i should've told him what happened and that i shouldnt have ignored him further after my sorry message. he messaged priscy and said that he did not want to have a relationship that does not communicate. and he said i was ridiculous.

haiz. then i sent him a message again, telling him that i was sorry for what i did and that i still love him. i mean, of cuz i DO love him, it's just that, prolly after so much assumptions that he might not like me, i start to act like a goner. thus it explains so much into avoiding his calls, and etc.

it was late at night when the both of us reach home. cried even more worse while i was on the phone with him. am grateful that he forgived me, and gave me a chance to prove that i could still be his girlfriend. who could stand a daffy girlfriend who always tries to pick a fight just to attain attention? no one could really do that.

except for him. for that, i love him even more.

i hope in the future, things wont be the same anymore.

i hope i'll be able to care and shower him love and concern even more than what i did to my previous relationships.

and i hope this one will last.

Reunion

Met up with lijun and joyln. they're my poly mates. it was a good feeling, had seen them after so long, especially lijun... :)

i love them! :) went marina square, joyjoy treated us with KFC (my favourite!)

miss them. hope can see them more often.

Driving Test: I PASSED!!! :)

i passed i passed i passed!!!

i'd passed my freaking driving test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOHHOOOOOOOO!!!!!

update (17.05.07): he got me an iPod nano as promised as i've passed my test. Yay!

Confusion

i do not know why, but i should feel happy that i'm going on a trip with him.

i wonder what is wrong with me. promised him that i'll tell him whatever is in my mind, but what is happening to me now?


i want to tell him, but, me myself have no idea what i'm going through.


am i thinking a tad toooo much?



i wonder high and low. after this post, i shall compare the similarities and differences between an aquarius from the scorpio.


but nevertheless, dear i still love you. :)

200 Pounds Beauty :)

managed to finsh with our invoices despite the fact that i had to run about up and down for more than half of the day. could have finished it faster, but...arghs.


priscy spoilt the market lor; she's already done with the invoices ystd. :(


helped cecilia moved suite together with dear dear. went to have dinner and amk macdonald's after that... i think conflicts are starting to rise these days.. just what is happening to us? :( i certainly do not wish for that!

but anywayz! good news, my computer's revived and i've managed to dl the song i like! it's cupid's chokehold. it's damn good. :)


anywayz, 5 more mins and i need to turn to sleep.


my eyelids are freaking heavy now!


went to watch this show on wed, 25th. it's a damn good show. portrays how materialistic girls are these days. and i'm gonna say i'm any different. it's just that i'm still not able to really accept the fact if someone wants to do a plastic on her nose/cheeks/chin, etc.


this show drills my eyes. they teared.

i must admit, it's good.yawns. it's the middle of the night.

General

work has been keeping me busy ever since lois came to our centre. but i'm not really complaining.

lois is very competent, to say the very least. she's transformed the office into a much "workable" and productive place. was shocked that both angie and charlotte is on MC today. damn. must they leave me alone in the lurch on a monday morning??? :(


i realised that work has also prevented dear and myself from sms-ing and calling each other.


i wonder if this will pose as a problem in the later stage of our r/s.
God, please help us.
cuz i DO NOT want that to happen. but we're really busy with our work during the day!!! and at night we'll be too exhausted to talk. but dear had been keeping it a point tat no mattter what he'll still call me, regardless of how short or long the conversation is. hmmm, i really appreciate that. :)



Jasmine teow came round at near 6pm today to collect her jacket. she's permed her hair! :)

Call me the sleeping Goddess.

Went to dear's place... slept again, and he bought me my favourite tidbit for the time being: Caramel Corn.

tell you, that tidbit was so damn good!

after i woke up, his dad had already cooked dinner and we ate it together. then, we watched "The first Emperor". it was a pretty interesting show when i had to leave for home. :(


tmr gotta start work again. :(

Hanwei's bdae

Was supposed to meet dear at 5.30pm at Orchard. reached there on time, but he was late.


so he told me to walk around the area and look for possible presents for Hanwei (his fren) first. however, i went to the toilet and spent most of my time there. cuz having to relief yourself is a hassle in Orchard during peak hours cuz you'll have to queue like MAD first before you're able to clinch a toilet bowl to yourself.

so then, he reached at 6...we went to eat at KFC, and i showered him with lots of dirty words, cuz i was really angry! but i PROMISE that i'll change and stop verbal abusing him. the thought of it just makes me feel so guilty. i'm sorry dear dear. i dint mean to scold all those things on you. :( i promise i'll change.

then we went Zara to shop for a knit wear for Hanwei.. shopped around M)phosis then he realised that there was a HOLE in my tee. embarassed, he suggested that we go mango and take a look at some clothes to change.


found one at quite a pricy rate, $50 at it. with bling bling and all.

and he paid. i seriously dint look out for that, cuz i did not want him to spend so much on me. but then again, he insisted, and i was touched. somehow or rather.


then we went to Breworkz to meet them. saw huifeng's injury, was pretty convinced that she'll recover well with Hanwei around.
food tasted pretty sucky there. dint really enjoy my dinner there.
and huifeng also told me that hanwei and herself might be getting married soon. they're looking at HDB flat now.
was pretty bemused at why dear did not tell me. i wonder if i'm his gf at all. he said he dint tell his other frens, and kept from me too cuz the issue was not finalised. but i was thinking "hello! am i one of your guy frens too? you dont trust me or what?"

so then, i confronted him. i know it's just a small issue. but you know how sensitive i can be. i hate to be lied to and be kept in the dark. and hate ppl to be late too (albeit i'm always the late comer)

but anywayz, i wont blame the hyper-sensitivity on PMS.


i just hope that the communication is there.

ARrrggggh

i dont understand why i'm so very slow at work. argghs.

Double Date + Celia's bdae

went to meet dear dear, clarence and sherry. had dinner at the german restaurant at vivocity which dear dear took me to during Vday.

we parted with clarence and sherry and we met up with jasmine, my pri school fren.

we headed down to my other pri school fren, celia's 21st bday at pasir ris park. hung around for a while and went back home.

went supper with dear dear at our "favourite" amk central. hahas.

and it was end of story. =p

Sigh. my baby's fallen sick

Today dear dear asked if we could meet up, but since i've already promised my parents that i'll be home after work, i told him that i couldnt meet him.

so in the afternoon, dear told me that he was having a fever then, and he'll be going home and seeing a doctor.
then when i reached home, he told me that he's having high fever. of 39.7, i dont quite remember the temperature.

i was feeling so guilty, stuck in between my family and him, and i eventually chosed to go and visit him, as he was having a fever. if it was a normal request, i wouldnt have done that.

then i hurried and took a cab there, and while in the cab, we chatted. he was feeling nostalgic and was saying that how his mom used to take care of him while he was sick, and he cried. i teared too, but without him knowing it. then i reached his place at around 8+, and touched his forehead. it was boiling hot.

placed a wet towel over his forehead and wanted him to rest, but apparently, he dint. i mean, of cuz i understand the discomfort of having someone watch you sleep.


was pretty reluctant to go back home. the truth.

Imma cook for da day! :)

Went to dear's place early morning. reached there at around 1045... then after awhile we got down to serious business: cooked sphgetti!

yummy! :) though he kept complaining that this should be that and etc, i dont really care.. cuz at the end of the day, i know he still likes what i do. =p


after lunch, played with his ps3. haha.. won him quite a lot of times! but he did win me as well. :)


the game ended after one and a half hour and i went to sleep on his bed.. his pillow got a bit of his saliva smell.. yeeee.. haha. and i slept from 1430 till almost 1900. i think i'm turning innto a Goddess of sleeping.. haa...


then later he surprised me with Jolin's concert tickets!!! i was really very shocked and surprised! he told me tat his cousin gave it to him and that he dint get the tix himself. but whichever the case, i'm happy to be able to watch it! and watch it with him!


muacks, baby! i love you! :)

i Wish upon a starr...

dear dear came to my house to look for me today cuz i wasnt feeling too well.

he surprised me with a box of strawberry pocky! muacks!


he came at around 3 and left at 10+.

man.


so soon and i'm starting to miss him!

To learn to save is a Virtue...

we went to create a savings account toggether, in hope that i'm able to save better.


went orchard to catch two movies as well.

first it was Teenage mutant ninja turtles. thought it will be a pretty good movie, albeit me sleeping during the first half of it.

then we went to watch Mr. Bean's holidays. it's just his usual antics, but it got me thinking that he kinda age quite a bit since i last see his old tv mads. well, i read from the papers that he might be retiring. think his joints cant perform as well as compared to before.


after that, we went home early. i wasnt feeling too well; flu and a tad of cough and headache. :(

So in Love <3

Today i took leave cuz i reached home so late ystd.

he took leave as well to accompany me. :)


we went sentosa and had rolling good time there... pix are all uploaded... check them out if you want! :)


but dear... i promise that i'll try my best to save.

Back to SG

landed on the singapore grounds from Thailand...

dear dear set off when i was at the airport of thai and went to look for me and waited for me under my void deck!!! so very touched so very happy! :)


after missing him for so long, the nostalgic kinda feeling has been gone! it's just different.

we went to Macdonald's when he gave me a photoframe with the picture of an ambiguous background.

after eating, we went back home, and he told me to look at the pic carefully. i saw that it's the one which we took at bintan, and at the back of the pic were the pix of both of us! i then remembered there was once when we went out and i told him that i wanna develop the pix of ours when he stopped me. i'm soooo touched!!

with him,
i do not feel like working
i do not feel like playing
i do not feel like reading
i do not feel like chilling

but i do like playing, read with him, and chill out with him.


ouch. i wonder how i'm gonna do without him.

Before i head for Bangkok... Nostalgic

met up with dear dear for the last time before i head for bangkok.

damn. the feeling's damn nostalgic. felt as though i can skip the trip and stay in sg with him.


and guess what, i actually cried, cuz i'm missing him so much.


:( help me! i'm too deeply in love! :((((((

Bonker's honkers

So far so good.


just that i was hyperbly temperamental this afternoon and went bonkers on cecilia and priscy. i shouldnt have done that.


guess i was not in the right of mind.


or did my mind act how i had imagined it to be ?


i'm confused.


but all's well. just that work is piling up everyday.

Valentine's 07

Was in office whole day on the 14th of Feb, Valentine's day.

and he told me that he's busy when i thick-skinnedly asked for my vday present. :(


however, a lady came by after lunch time with a bouquet of sunflowers and asked if Kelly is around. Angie and i went bewildered, and i could really see angie's eyes grow as of a goldfish's eyes. "kelly! it may be yours!". of course i was hoping that it was for me.


i then plucked up the courage (albeit eagerly) and asked which kelly it was for (even though there's only one kelly in the centre). haha.


it was for me!!! for me! :)


i took over the bouquet from the lady and seearched frantically for any sign of love letter or card. Geez.


"To Dear Kelly,
Hope this will surprise you
G****"


boy. am i surprised.


he came to my workplace to fetch me and he brought me to vivocity to dine at paulaner's. then he gave me another gift and told me to remember to wear it to bintan when we're there. i had thought what he'd bought for me, and in the end when i reached home and opened the gift, i see that it was a Giogio armani's parfume! love! :)


hao-lianess aside, we had pig's trotters and some cheese pasta for dinner.


after that, having the glutton in me, i requested for deserts. bougght him a cuppa coffee, i had hot choc, and we shared a slice of strawberry cheesecake (i had almost 80% of it).


the feeling was so sweet. it was like never before.


and i wont forget how i spent my first Vday with my loved one. :)



i want and need him to be in my life.

- Random Thought -

Dear all,

all the rubbish about living without a men is bullshit from me.


i need love to survive.




oh. i'm so awaiting my trip to bintan! -chuckles-