nowadays, i'm really wondering if heaven is making fun of us. it can be sunny and all of a sudden, be so dark and cloudy. well, i'm gonna stay at home today, and am planning to start mugging prolly tmr. issit too late? i hope not. =) anywayz, went over to granny's place yesterday night to have dinner.

when we reach there, granddad was watching soccer on the tv, and grandma was sleeping. and my lil cousin, bryan, asked for my phone and played with its cam and game. lol. and he was such a vain pot, he asked me to take several pix of him. lol. my phone has a mini album of him now.
He's the cuttie.
hees. how's it? is he cute? or is he just a poser? lol.

btw, i went to meet dee after my dinner... i wanted to go over to semb park with him, and i called him at 1930, but he said it was kinda late... so i decided to just go over to ahma's place... but when i was there, he msged me and asked if i wanted to meet him at yio chu kang station. of course i do. so he arranged 2115 and i agreed. i reached there earlier, cuz dad sent me. i reached at 2100 so i waited.

until 2115, he wasnt here, so i called him, and he told me he was on his way. arrrghs. he came at around 2136. i was 68% pissed. realli. and he snapped at me too. he asked me whether i'm being unreasonable as he's apologised and i could actually get angry over such a small matter. it's true. i bite easily nowadays. dunno why, though. but eventually, we got back together and went to the park infront of my house. even though it was raining pigs and elephants, i enjoyed the walk as it was tranquil and serene. and cold, of course. 

i kinda love this pic.  

i'm just gay.

had a couple of tiffs with baby last few nights. i'd been acting like i was damn depressed, and i dint noe what's got into me. we even quarrelled yesterday afternoon. i told him what i was feeling and i knew i was wrong to say that. but that's really how i felt. and he said what i told him was pretty insulting, and that i'm the first to say that to him.

i dunno. i guess i'm just eccentric. den, i went out with jinling and jeannie. and jeannie went home earlier as she wasnt feeling verry good. think she's had a headache. den, jl accompanied me to cut my hair. i was having a headache before that, and was actually hesitating if i should cut my hair. i feel that i shouldnt, cuz it fits my face pretty well. but in the end, as i wanan get rid of the few strands of disturbing and disgusting hair, i decided that a har cut was essential.

we trotted our ways to orchard far east, and settled in a shop with ugly decorations as i opted for a cheap haircut. the lady proceeded to gimme a hair wash and i felt that i was revived from the killer headache. den, a guy came over and asked what kinda hairstyle i wanted. i explained him, and he was like "huh?". and i tot to myself "am i gonna let him ruin my hairstyle?" i was totally freaked out. in the end, the hairstyle he gave me made me look even more like a freak. it was damn short. and i felt like killing myself.

after which, jl and i got our asses at long john's and we ate a meal and at the same time, i asked if baby wanna meet. he agreed. anywayz, the meal was filling but i still managed to topple my cup of coke over with my clumsiness. damn. den, we went around far east to shop shop. i bot a pair of big-pearl-earrings. it was kinda damn big for my ears. but den, i still bot it. jl told me to buy the other one which was slightly smaller, but i was stubborn, what to do. and it realli was big. and so, we walked all the way to heerens. jl bot lip gloss for herself and i decided that it was time to meet baby.

when i saw him at amk hawker, he was with darren. and he looked at me as though he has hatred in his eyes. i was scared and dint really dare go near him. darren left shortly after and we went to check out the showtimes of movies at the jubilee. we decided on "the exorcist" at 2120.

den trotted our ways to ntuc. he asked me to treat him to the drinks and the tix and so i agreed. well, i was kinda reluctant, but i scolded myself. he's my bf, and i shouldnt be so calculative. afterall, he's always been the one who's forking out cash for our every outing. okie, we bot our food, den went to buy tix. after that, went to play arcade as we've still had some time. i won him in car racing but he won me in 2 other games.

it was the first time that we went in together but i was gay. it was fun playing with him. it was den time for the movvie. and the show was. damn. just like my hair. outta point. further more, it was damn cold inside the cinema... and i went out shivering. he asked for a hug and i agreed. den we walked all the way back home... =) and after i got home, he dint msg me or anything, so i suppose he was asleep already. i msged him and told him that he neednt call me anymore, so that he can go back to sleep. he replied "ok. u sleep early too. u go check your bag, i left smth inside." argghs...i tot he really forgot to take something back and when i went to see, OMG. there was 2 ten-dollar notes in there. i was shocked. i called him and asked him when he placed it in, he dint wanna say. den i asked him issit when we hugged? he admitted and said that he couldnt bear to lemme do the paying. damn, he can be such a sweetie at times. =) salutes.

Good Morning!

hihi... blogging to kill time, meeting joy at 10.50, so there's still quite some time away from that...

anywayz, told u that sleeping cuttie dint call rite? in the end he called me at 1.30 later in the night. lol. i was half pissed that he woke me up but quite glee as well, as at least he wanted to talk to me... heee... he told me that he'd fell asleep after he'd reached home and had a bit of his dinner... and he complained that he was feeling unwell; body warm, and throat hurt like hell. but he returned to work today... poor thing, i hope he's okie...

dad is like dear. he's transversing in so many places... to work, to send me to skool, to visit my grandparents. and mom, likewise. but her working time is too long, she cant visit them. i salute them. i love you.

Arghs.

damn angry with this webbie. i wanna upload some pix onto my page also cannot. argghs...

anywayz, i was trying to do my use cases for OOAD and meantime, watiing for his call. but until now, seems like almost impossible for the call. duh. i'll go sleep.

i'm darn tired. but what to do? the stupid me came back again. and the stupid me actually waited for the sleeping cuttie to call. anywayz, he was quite satisfied for what i've did for his proj when he came over on sat. and i'm satisfied by his satisfication. lol. realli.

i want more love. i want more energy. i want more time. i want more more smartasses!!!

Sumptuous.

Hmm, had my cousin's wedding dinner yesterday over at Raffles the Plaza... I was shocked when i entered the ballroom, cuz it was dimly lit with blue lazer lights on each and every of the 50-odd tables. The ambience was good, and there were quite a lot of great lookers ard... i was sitted with my family and most of my younger cousins...

before the dinner, we sent my grandfather to Alexandra Hosp., he was diagnosed with probable streak of cancer. but the doctor said an operation is not needed as the cancer cells might not be able to survive in my granddad's body as he's too under-nuitrition. LOL. as for my grandma, she's had complains that bolts of pains were sending trou her body before my uncle sent her in. she was stubborn and reluctant to go there, but my 2nd uncle managed to persuade the adamantine grandma of mine to visit the doc's.

the doc decided to check on her kidneys and lungs. but she's still stubborn. she's afraid that she mite live in pain forever after she'd operated and she'd rather live with the illness from now. haiz. why? i had times when my tears wanted to drop when i saw them, but i held it back. i cant influence my mother. she's far too better at crying than me. so, we head off to the dinner. dad was pissed with the traffic, though i'm not very sure why. i dun understand why he can get so pissed with the other drivers, and just keeps swearing his way. weird dad i have. but i love him still. im very much involved with my family, i've finally found love from every of my family since my 17 years of life.

as for dear, i guess he might be busy again with his exams coming up. he complained that he's damn stressed, and i know it. he worked night shift last nite, came home for like, 3 hrs and spent 2 hours napping i suppose. after which, he left home to do project with his group. he gotta wake up at 0545 tmr morning. sometimes, i felt sympathy for him... he's got too little time for himself. he gave time for me, his work, and his studies. i wish we'd have more time in a day, so he can rest more. and i'm realli used to it already... i realli dun mind and can understand what he's going through. mayb i'm too selfish in the past. but i'm still a lil bit upset that he cant spend more time with me. haiz. why am i like that?

but anywayz, i wanna go to geylang serai at this very moment. i wanna go get the influence from surayah tmr. lol. i want cookiiieeesss annnnddd cccrrreeeaaammm!! mmmmuuuummmmmmmmyyy!!!

I SCREAM INJUSTICE!

Jerry, sly, maia, leandra, and daphne were in group A. david, taufiq, olinda, chris were in group B. "who's gonna go out?" i tot group A was going out cuz of daphne and JERRY. but, group B were in the danger zone. okay, doesnt matter, it mite be chris who's going out. but HELL! it was david! not that i'm some kinda fan of his, but!!! WHAT?! i think singaporeans are still voting for the better lookers and not those talents!!! DAMN.

i think JERRY might not be out as he praised and thanked GOD in front of everyone. not that i dislike GOD or anything, but, i think the christians out there might be helping him out with the voting! i dun condemn christians, but hell! do they have foresight! DAMN. i think jerry should be OUT OUT OUT! PUI! i despice him!

Jerry sings like SHIT! worse than constipating!!! HE'S JUST SHIT!

yucks. seeing him on the tv set actually dirties my screen. yuck! *pui!*

I SCREAM INJUSTICE!

Life of a boreder

Hi. yup, i think u've guessed it correct. i got called up by the Cpp lect this wed again. duhs. it's normal, dei. he informed the whole lot of us that there's a re-test on next wed. sheesh. it sucks. realli. but still after skool that day, my girlfrens and i went out to causeway point to dine at delifrance's. i ate the chicken sandwich, and oh, damn, i'm drooling now thinking back.

lol. suresh tot of the idea of dining there and we all agreed as we wanted to celebrate hers and gracie's bdae... and after the meal, we went to john little to buy gracie's bdae pressie.. we bot her a perfume and handed it over to her today cuz we mite not be able to see her tmr... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! *muacks*" i dunno if she's happi with the gift or not, but i hope she is... lol. i bot a edt for baby too. and i hope he likes it. but i dun think he's put on yet.

i've been working on his proj from 7 till now. and i finished part of what he wanted. he's gonna pass me somemore tmr. damn, i dun think i that hardworking on my own project. *luffs*

sat, i've got to attend my cousin's wedding. another one at the end of this month, and another one at the end of this year. wow. guess my parents' going broke. and i'm following their footsteps. i'm broke too. hee. i'm left with...wait! i tot i still have 5 bucks left, but im wrong. i'm left with nothing. i have to pay back suresh and sarong tmr. damn. damn. damn.

and all of a sudden, i dread going to wedding dinners. it's messing up mah brain. i'm confused does not know what to wear cuz my body's bulging. skirt? blouse? heels? damn. it's taking my life away.

it's slowly draining life away from me.
and it's not gonna end until end of the year.

Hi.

i'm been at home the whole day. it's a saturday alrite, and i'm at home. i dun blame anyone, but myself, for dedicating everything of mine to him. he asked if we wanted to meet, but i rejected him cuz he mite be doing it as he felt that i wanted it. but hell, i told him that i want to meet him tmr instead as we can have the whole day to ourselves tmr.

whatever. i've read this article abt horoscopes, and it's oh-so-true. abt gemini, that is. it's quite long, though. wanted to put it up as a file, but u guys may have to dl it, so i decided that i paste the article up. only abt gemini. i'll highlight whatever i think it's true abt him.

GEMINI MAN
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he starts talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly calls "Hyperactive".
He has long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type, who will write or scribble on paper, he never stays still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths, cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?
He changes his mind as fast as he changes a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hates to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and makes a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always searches for truth and constantly studies himself. He never satisfies about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepared to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his day everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hates your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he is in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.
He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.

it's so damn true. he's been working and working so hard for the opening on mon, that he forgot me. i'm quite sad, but in fact, i'm quite getting used to the fact that i'm 65 percent alone nowadays. but i cant blame him. cuz he's such a workaholic. working his ass trou the day and into the nite, and me, submitting my brain cells into bottles of misses.