an angry woman is a angry woman.

An angry woman is an angry woman.

Big F***! me and his romance are really short-lived. i dunno why, i kept dissing off at such minor matters, yet, he's leaving me to isolate. big F***. i'm realli angry. why doesnt he shower me love? why??? why is it that his fren fell "outta love" and he needs to accompany him? why does his gf need his love yet he gives none?

why is he not beside me whenever i nid him? why issit that i have to stick to him like f***? why cant i have some self-esteem? do i have no shame at all? do i even need him to be ard me when he's not? do i have to question myself whether i love him at all? i dun understand why i'm feeling like this rite now.

thing is that: I DONT NEED YOU TO BE RIGHT BESIDE ME.
but i need u to be there with me, mentally. cant i just have that? it feels just as if i'm alone, stranded, dead. why am i still with u? i dunnoe. frens, do not ask me what's happening(though i "want" u to ask), cuz u will noe. but why is he not even asking me? why is he always thinking that i'm kicking a big fuss outta nothing? i throw my temper ard cuz i need attention from u, u blardy idiot! cant u read me? i know we're together for a very long time already, but u still dun understand me.

"You need to shower women love; not understand her. You need to understand men, and not love 'em."

right, right. and so the saying goes. u dun have to understand me. just love me. but u realli gave me none.

jl said smth last night that woke me up. but i dun care. "maybe he's had his time shared b/w u and his frens, it's just that u cant see. and u thought he's not." big fark. but why did i devote all my time to him?! why is he leaving me alone?! why am i being such a bitch to him?!

i realli ponder sometimes, if we dint get together at the very beginning... ... ...

I'll miss and still love you.

Hi, it's me...

many things happened when i dint blog for like the trillionth year. my beloved grandma passed on, i got scolded by wilful customers, etc. it's a relieve for granny that she passed away, but it's pain to all of us whom loved her so dearly. she's battled the illness since last oct, if u'd followed up my blog and if u're a faithful reader of mine. she's so nice to everyone; amiable and friendly. it's really a waste not to have her ard. i will always remember vividly how she'll chuck wads of cash into my small hands everytime she'd see me... and she'll always be the one fitting the bill whenever we go out.

but i guess, she's living great in her piece of heaven, i'd dreamt of her. with a rainbow ard her. my parents said this is good omen.

as for my job, it's a relieve as well, that i've finished the contract and got my pay. i wouldnt want to deal with more unreasonable parents who're damn hard-up for some photo-taking shit. i've wiped my ass off it, and wouldnt want to touch that kinda job for a miserable pay anymore.

and for studies wise, i've been lagged by a week as i've skipped skool for my grandma's funeral, but luckily for me, i think that tutorials helped a hell lot. but sadly, i'm with 2 of my present classmate for the project, which sucks like hell. am thankful for the both of them, but hates it when i cant get paired up with my gal frens. arrgh.

things have been running quite smoothly('cept for my grandma's death)...
i spent my new year with my baby, and i enjoyed it. well, i'm dreading to say those, but still, i seldom share my happiness but i'm gonna give it a try now. i used to think whenever i share my happiness, it's always short-lived and cursed. but hell. i'm trying it now. i'm not showing-off, btw, if u THOUGHT i was. no, i'm not. lol.

the Tsunami's hit the shores of many asian beaches, sending tens of thousands of innocent ppl to their lil piece of heaven. i hope they get the best up there, and hopefully, there would be no more of such disasters anymore. it's just so saddening to hear the news everyday from now, the presenter's telling us the number of those whom passed away from the fatallic waves. and i hope that families of the deceased will grow stronger and independent, which are partly what i'm trying to achieve now.

still, i wanna be thankful that everyone else is still with me, and i'll try to grow up and out.
Taufiq's quote, as of what i wanna say to end these off : i love you all!

Tired.

hey, long time no blog. has been working for the couple of days since the 17th nov, which sadly, is my birthday.

anywayz, i'm working as a "usher" to help facilitate queues and give out freebies for the kids who are attending the disney and frens' show. sometimes it's nice to see them smile after they receive the freebies and they'll jump ard with tigger... but when they cant get into the show, their sad faces shows all and it makes our hearts melt, but we cant do anything...

haiz... i'm ending now.. too tired. tmr may go to reg getting the car license... good nitez. =(

nowadays, i'm really wondering if heaven is making fun of us. it can be sunny and all of a sudden, be so dark and cloudy. well, i'm gonna stay at home today, and am planning to start mugging prolly tmr. issit too late? i hope not. =) anywayz, went over to granny's place yesterday night to have dinner.

when we reach there, granddad was watching soccer on the tv, and grandma was sleeping. and my lil cousin, bryan, asked for my phone and played with its cam and game. lol. and he was such a vain pot, he asked me to take several pix of him. lol. my phone has a mini album of him now.
He's the cuttie.
hees. how's it? is he cute? or is he just a poser? lol.

btw, i went to meet dee after my dinner... i wanted to go over to semb park with him, and i called him at 1930, but he said it was kinda late... so i decided to just go over to ahma's place... but when i was there, he msged me and asked if i wanted to meet him at yio chu kang station. of course i do. so he arranged 2115 and i agreed. i reached there earlier, cuz dad sent me. i reached at 2100 so i waited.

until 2115, he wasnt here, so i called him, and he told me he was on his way. arrrghs. he came at around 2136. i was 68% pissed. realli. and he snapped at me too. he asked me whether i'm being unreasonable as he's apologised and i could actually get angry over such a small matter. it's true. i bite easily nowadays. dunno why, though. but eventually, we got back together and went to the park infront of my house. even though it was raining pigs and elephants, i enjoyed the walk as it was tranquil and serene. and cold, of course. 

i kinda love this pic.  

i'm just gay.

had a couple of tiffs with baby last few nights. i'd been acting like i was damn depressed, and i dint noe what's got into me. we even quarrelled yesterday afternoon. i told him what i was feeling and i knew i was wrong to say that. but that's really how i felt. and he said what i told him was pretty insulting, and that i'm the first to say that to him.

i dunno. i guess i'm just eccentric. den, i went out with jinling and jeannie. and jeannie went home earlier as she wasnt feeling verry good. think she's had a headache. den, jl accompanied me to cut my hair. i was having a headache before that, and was actually hesitating if i should cut my hair. i feel that i shouldnt, cuz it fits my face pretty well. but in the end, as i wanan get rid of the few strands of disturbing and disgusting hair, i decided that a har cut was essential.

we trotted our ways to orchard far east, and settled in a shop with ugly decorations as i opted for a cheap haircut. the lady proceeded to gimme a hair wash and i felt that i was revived from the killer headache. den, a guy came over and asked what kinda hairstyle i wanted. i explained him, and he was like "huh?". and i tot to myself "am i gonna let him ruin my hairstyle?" i was totally freaked out. in the end, the hairstyle he gave me made me look even more like a freak. it was damn short. and i felt like killing myself.

after which, jl and i got our asses at long john's and we ate a meal and at the same time, i asked if baby wanna meet. he agreed. anywayz, the meal was filling but i still managed to topple my cup of coke over with my clumsiness. damn. den, we went around far east to shop shop. i bot a pair of big-pearl-earrings. it was kinda damn big for my ears. but den, i still bot it. jl told me to buy the other one which was slightly smaller, but i was stubborn, what to do. and it realli was big. and so, we walked all the way to heerens. jl bot lip gloss for herself and i decided that it was time to meet baby.

when i saw him at amk hawker, he was with darren. and he looked at me as though he has hatred in his eyes. i was scared and dint really dare go near him. darren left shortly after and we went to check out the showtimes of movies at the jubilee. we decided on "the exorcist" at 2120.

den trotted our ways to ntuc. he asked me to treat him to the drinks and the tix and so i agreed. well, i was kinda reluctant, but i scolded myself. he's my bf, and i shouldnt be so calculative. afterall, he's always been the one who's forking out cash for our every outing. okie, we bot our food, den went to buy tix. after that, went to play arcade as we've still had some time. i won him in car racing but he won me in 2 other games.

it was the first time that we went in together but i was gay. it was fun playing with him. it was den time for the movvie. and the show was. damn. just like my hair. outta point. further more, it was damn cold inside the cinema... and i went out shivering. he asked for a hug and i agreed. den we walked all the way back home... =) and after i got home, he dint msg me or anything, so i suppose he was asleep already. i msged him and told him that he neednt call me anymore, so that he can go back to sleep. he replied "ok. u sleep early too. u go check your bag, i left smth inside." argghs...i tot he really forgot to take something back and when i went to see, OMG. there was 2 ten-dollar notes in there. i was shocked. i called him and asked him when he placed it in, he dint wanna say. den i asked him issit when we hugged? he admitted and said that he couldnt bear to lemme do the paying. damn, he can be such a sweetie at times. =) salutes.

Good Morning!

hihi... blogging to kill time, meeting joy at 10.50, so there's still quite some time away from that...

anywayz, told u that sleeping cuttie dint call rite? in the end he called me at 1.30 later in the night. lol. i was half pissed that he woke me up but quite glee as well, as at least he wanted to talk to me... heee... he told me that he'd fell asleep after he'd reached home and had a bit of his dinner... and he complained that he was feeling unwell; body warm, and throat hurt like hell. but he returned to work today... poor thing, i hope he's okie...

dad is like dear. he's transversing in so many places... to work, to send me to skool, to visit my grandparents. and mom, likewise. but her working time is too long, she cant visit them. i salute them. i love you.

Arghs.

damn angry with this webbie. i wanna upload some pix onto my page also cannot. argghs...

anywayz, i was trying to do my use cases for OOAD and meantime, watiing for his call. but until now, seems like almost impossible for the call. duh. i'll go sleep.

i'm darn tired. but what to do? the stupid me came back again. and the stupid me actually waited for the sleeping cuttie to call. anywayz, he was quite satisfied for what i've did for his proj when he came over on sat. and i'm satisfied by his satisfication. lol. realli.

i want more love. i want more energy. i want more time. i want more more smartasses!!!

Sumptuous.

Hmm, had my cousin's wedding dinner yesterday over at Raffles the Plaza... I was shocked when i entered the ballroom, cuz it was dimly lit with blue lazer lights on each and every of the 50-odd tables. The ambience was good, and there were quite a lot of great lookers ard... i was sitted with my family and most of my younger cousins...

before the dinner, we sent my grandfather to Alexandra Hosp., he was diagnosed with probable streak of cancer. but the doctor said an operation is not needed as the cancer cells might not be able to survive in my granddad's body as he's too under-nuitrition. LOL. as for my grandma, she's had complains that bolts of pains were sending trou her body before my uncle sent her in. she was stubborn and reluctant to go there, but my 2nd uncle managed to persuade the adamantine grandma of mine to visit the doc's.

the doc decided to check on her kidneys and lungs. but she's still stubborn. she's afraid that she mite live in pain forever after she'd operated and she'd rather live with the illness from now. haiz. why? i had times when my tears wanted to drop when i saw them, but i held it back. i cant influence my mother. she's far too better at crying than me. so, we head off to the dinner. dad was pissed with the traffic, though i'm not very sure why. i dun understand why he can get so pissed with the other drivers, and just keeps swearing his way. weird dad i have. but i love him still. im very much involved with my family, i've finally found love from every of my family since my 17 years of life.

as for dear, i guess he might be busy again with his exams coming up. he complained that he's damn stressed, and i know it. he worked night shift last nite, came home for like, 3 hrs and spent 2 hours napping i suppose. after which, he left home to do project with his group. he gotta wake up at 0545 tmr morning. sometimes, i felt sympathy for him... he's got too little time for himself. he gave time for me, his work, and his studies. i wish we'd have more time in a day, so he can rest more. and i'm realli used to it already... i realli dun mind and can understand what he's going through. mayb i'm too selfish in the past. but i'm still a lil bit upset that he cant spend more time with me. haiz. why am i like that?

but anywayz, i wanna go to geylang serai at this very moment. i wanna go get the influence from surayah tmr. lol. i want cookiiieeesss annnnddd cccrrreeeaaammm!! mmmmuuuummmmmmmmyyy!!!

I SCREAM INJUSTICE!

Jerry, sly, maia, leandra, and daphne were in group A. david, taufiq, olinda, chris were in group B. "who's gonna go out?" i tot group A was going out cuz of daphne and JERRY. but, group B were in the danger zone. okay, doesnt matter, it mite be chris who's going out. but HELL! it was david! not that i'm some kinda fan of his, but!!! WHAT?! i think singaporeans are still voting for the better lookers and not those talents!!! DAMN.

i think JERRY might not be out as he praised and thanked GOD in front of everyone. not that i dislike GOD or anything, but, i think the christians out there might be helping him out with the voting! i dun condemn christians, but hell! do they have foresight! DAMN. i think jerry should be OUT OUT OUT! PUI! i despice him!

Jerry sings like SHIT! worse than constipating!!! HE'S JUST SHIT!

yucks. seeing him on the tv set actually dirties my screen. yuck! *pui!*

I SCREAM INJUSTICE!

Life of a boreder

Hi. yup, i think u've guessed it correct. i got called up by the Cpp lect this wed again. duhs. it's normal, dei. he informed the whole lot of us that there's a re-test on next wed. sheesh. it sucks. realli. but still after skool that day, my girlfrens and i went out to causeway point to dine at delifrance's. i ate the chicken sandwich, and oh, damn, i'm drooling now thinking back.

lol. suresh tot of the idea of dining there and we all agreed as we wanted to celebrate hers and gracie's bdae... and after the meal, we went to john little to buy gracie's bdae pressie.. we bot her a perfume and handed it over to her today cuz we mite not be able to see her tmr... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! *muacks*" i dunno if she's happi with the gift or not, but i hope she is... lol. i bot a edt for baby too. and i hope he likes it. but i dun think he's put on yet.

i've been working on his proj from 7 till now. and i finished part of what he wanted. he's gonna pass me somemore tmr. damn, i dun think i that hardworking on my own project. *luffs*

sat, i've got to attend my cousin's wedding. another one at the end of this month, and another one at the end of this year. wow. guess my parents' going broke. and i'm following their footsteps. i'm broke too. hee. i'm left with...wait! i tot i still have 5 bucks left, but im wrong. i'm left with nothing. i have to pay back suresh and sarong tmr. damn. damn. damn.

and all of a sudden, i dread going to wedding dinners. it's messing up mah brain. i'm confused does not know what to wear cuz my body's bulging. skirt? blouse? heels? damn. it's taking my life away.

it's slowly draining life away from me.
and it's not gonna end until end of the year.

Hi.

i'm been at home the whole day. it's a saturday alrite, and i'm at home. i dun blame anyone, but myself, for dedicating everything of mine to him. he asked if we wanted to meet, but i rejected him cuz he mite be doing it as he felt that i wanted it. but hell, i told him that i want to meet him tmr instead as we can have the whole day to ourselves tmr.

whatever. i've read this article abt horoscopes, and it's oh-so-true. abt gemini, that is. it's quite long, though. wanted to put it up as a file, but u guys may have to dl it, so i decided that i paste the article up. only abt gemini. i'll highlight whatever i think it's true abt him.

GEMINI MAN
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he starts talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly calls "Hyperactive".
He has long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type, who will write or scribble on paper, he never stays still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths, cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?
He changes his mind as fast as he changes a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hates to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and makes a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always searches for truth and constantly studies himself. He never satisfies about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepared to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his day everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hates your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he is in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.
He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.

it's so damn true. he's been working and working so hard for the opening on mon, that he forgot me. i'm quite sad, but in fact, i'm quite getting used to the fact that i'm 65 percent alone nowadays. but i cant blame him. cuz he's such a workaholic. working his ass trou the day and into the nite, and me, submitting my brain cells into bottles of misses.

Day of Dudes. *Sluurrrps!*

Was out with baby last night with him and his colleagues... They organised a "Departure celebration" for him and his boss, Jeffery, who are going to leave for SengKang... He asked me to wait at Compass Point at 1745 for them to fetch me over but they couldnt make it cuz their boss sorta like, stalled their time...

So he asked me to walk ard CP.. and i got my ass stuck in "Popular" and began to read a book named "Why men lie and Why women cry". it was a hilariously farnie book, and it tot me quite a lot of stuff... but i assume that the author's a guy, cuz the content was rated quite 'sexist'. Baby called me and instructed me to the taxi stand... it was already 1820.

so, i trotted my way to the taxi stand and waited for another 7 mins before they reached. soon, we're on our way to the hotel. but, quite unexpectedly, we got lost. we were going round and round singapore and to imagine, we actually got to the Harbour Front! baby decided to call david, but that blur sotong wasnt able to give any usable directions.

phone calls were flooding in, and confusing directions were given. we finally reached that place at 1945 or so, and we were all starving. we entered the lobby, and i saw david standing next to a handsome prince. he was Hisham. He was having this "i've-got-white-teeth" smile and he looked really dashing. the best thing is, he dint look a single bit like a Malay. baby was greeting everyone and they teased that he looked like some insurance-agent.

The food was bad, extremely spicy and so not-my-taste. we took several pix before leaving... i hope it turns out fine. saw yixia, daren's gf yesterday... she looked bettter, her skin. LOL. i'm not trying to say anything, dun think wrong. i just think this way. Then after the dinner, we walked all the way back to the Raffles MRT station. we were like, walking for 5km man...

it was realli long. but i enjoyed the scnery nevertheless. we were walking along the stretch of the pier, from the end to the front. and i enjoyed every single moment of it. it was fun, and Hisham was crazy. lol. oh yah, forgot to tell u who walked with us: Darren and his gf, Me and Baby, hisham and imran, and david. poor david, he was quiet all the way man... felt quite sorry for him.

then on the train, Hisham asked me a couple of times who i'd choose if i werent with baby. i dunno what to say. i wanted to say it was david, but i dint. i dint noe what baby would react. i meant nothing, anywayz. cuz hisham definitely dint want me to say baby, so decided to say david. but i kept my mouth shut. lol. joyln is looking now. i'm blushing. continue at home ya? bye...

Happy

oooooooooooo!
i'm so happy! though this new skin of mine aint very pwetty and i dint do it completely by myself, but i hope u guys will try and like it! i had a hard time finding and editing the pix! =) so for the time being, ciao!

Sick

the past couple of days had been hell for me. i was down with fever, with a temp of 39deg. i tot i was going to die, but hell, no. i know that lao tian ye is good to me.

went to see doc today, he gave me some antibiotics and cough syrup. 4 types of medicine!!! i can still feel the bitterness in my throat. yuck! i hate cough syrup. he gave me an MC, which i think i'll be grateful to him. lol. was supposed to go to meihui's chalet today, but dint cuz i was feeling realli sick. and i'd spent the two days alone at home, how lonely i feel. called baby but he was too busy that he cant pick up my call. =(

he's spending a lot of time on his work, he even went back home at midnite yesterday. to think he started work at 8 in the morning!!! i suppose his boss wanted him dead. lol.
but i dun care lar. i'm quite used to him not being ard me. it doesnt matter anymore.

for now, i'm' gonna help him with his proj which is due on mon. but i cant help on my c++. =(

Sad.

waiting for baby's call rite at this very moment... will be going out with him for dinner later.. but dunno what time he's off work... i'm hungry... =(

anywayz, i got called by my C++ lecturer. sucks like hell, it's the third time he's called my name. damn, i feel so f-up by him. not that i dun like him or anything, but , mayb i should only blame myself..

joy, me, grace and sharon went shopping today. BUgis. yah, again, again. lol. What to do? i'm so rigid. bought 3 bras and a bag. i'm not realli satisfied with what i've bot, though. and we'd shopped so fast, that when me and joy saw our watch, we couldnt believe it. lol.

and we bot surayah sweety's pressie. *winks winks* we hope she'll like it...
feeling a bit of a headache. u think shall i go to sleep? i slept at 4 last nite, cuz i napped in the afternoon. damn, my life's so disrupted. =(

i'm gonna end here. tired.

=)

(note: scroll down till u see another note)
LT: not because i need to, but it's because i want to.
LT: i think it's very true for what xiaoLangZi said.. i think that's prob y i have to stick with him
xiaoLangZi: it's ez to find another one..but not ez to find one u love..
Applegal: BE Happy k?not happy will older faster
Applegal: condition i mean
Applegal: you can find better guy with ur condiotn lor
: lying too much is not healthy la ..esp to a relationship ....
: tink u shld haf a nice tok wif him (not quarrel huh)..and try to find out y he lies lor ..
xiaoLangZi: hmm...how lame..he lied abt even such a thing ?..no comments
(note: read them upwards from here.)

watched the "Singapore Idol" earlier on(i adore Sylvester! he's cuuuuute!), tot nana was good, but agreed with what one of the judge commented. "U're a good singer, but u lack of the X-factor."

it's just like describing love. u can be a fantastic lover, yet ur partner might mistake you and thinks that u're just another average lover.
and after so many turmoils' happened in my life, i got to realise several things:
1.) Never take one for granted;
2.)Never take love for granted;
3.) Praise ppl as often as you can;
4.) Dont be upset by small little things;
5.) Love those whom you think you deserve them to love you back.

1. & 2.) I used to take my ex-boyfriend for granted; yell at him, chase him outta the house, verbal abuse him, and all sortta things u cant imagine(i dun do rhyming).
Now, things are sortta like taking a turn-back and these make me understand why we should never take one/things for granted.

i'm NOT trying to imply that i miss those days ard with my ex-bf, but what i'm driving here is, if u feel that he/it is worth your love, just go ahead and shower him with your TLC. never stop loving him/it and never try to compare. u'll only learn from your mistakes, not make worse of them.

I used to think that i love baby too much. and that he doesnt love me AS much. but now, i realise that i'm comparing. and it's pointless. i guess you know it. when u want someone so much, they become a need in your life. and it's time u know that he's the one for you.

it's insatiable; human always ask for more.

3.) it doesnt matter if he/she is putting on too much mascara, a lil tad too much wrinkles, or a lil not too kawaii. (ps.:and grace, i'm not referring to u okie? =) they're just examples!)
just add a lil compliment and it'll fly them to paris!

it doesnt realli matter, it's a white lie. as long as the person is happi rite?

just like earlier on, i told baby he looked purrrfect today, and seriously, it flew him to korea(his favourite country). but i realli tot he's good looking today. =p
but obviously, u have to say the rite thing at the rite time... tell him that he's looking untidy, etc.

it's good to always praise ppl for that lil happiness; to think it's created by you.

4.) this is the point which i'm trying to keep up with... i get upset for the slightest thing, and i think i mite be a bit too petty. yes, i admit, so baby, for my sake, pls change. OOOPPSs. lol. i mean, for your sake, i'll change.

it's bad for me to change; it's for the better.

5.) basically, i'm tired to type anymore. LOL. just love whoever u think they deserve your love and u deserve their love. =) *muacks*

it's love which brought everyone closer; love fills the world.

LOL.

we had a superbly crazy day today. kept luffing and luffing like no one's business. talked crap and luffed at the shit. lol.

but prob that's the way i handle things. when i dun feel happy with something, i'll try and pretend to luff my ass out. but in actual fact, i only want to divert my attention from my sadness. had a quarrel with him last nite, he said he went out to la kopi with his frens, but in the end, he ended up playing mahjong with his pals. i dunno if i should trust him. i called him, he dint answer the phone, and he told me he was playing at that time and so he dint hear the phone ring. our romance is seriously short-lived.

previously the same thing happened to us, i called him for like, a million times, he dint answer, and he told me he cant hear the phone ring. in the end, when we met up the other day, i found out that he was out clubbing (i saw the stupid chope on the back of his hand). and i was real upset. i realli hate liars. no liars in my life.

i condemn liars! anyone but liars

Thank God.

Previously what i'd written was cut off by my freaking fat feet as i accidentally tripped over the plug of this comp. so here's what i've written(quite long, though) :

Went out with baby to city hall area yesterday. we went to suntec's carrefour to hunt for the things which we wanted to buy; he eyed 3 l/s shirts for his work and me, i'd been eyeing on the white pair of slips for quite some time already. after that, we went to see the timings for "Anacondas". it was 7.15 at suntec. and he suggested that we go check out the timings over at shaw tower instead. okie, 5.15. set. so, we walked back to suntec. i suppose the shop vendors recognized us by then. lol. he bot his shirts and my white slips. =) i'm realli happy. =) seriously. not because he bot me the slips. but, i'm just gay.

Again, we went back to shaw tower. i mean, yah, it's just a bridge and few steps away from suntec. lol. but my legs sorta sored. he asked if they(my legs) are soring, but i lied. it's a white lie, anyway. and so, "Anacondas" started. we bot nachos and before the show starts, we'd already gobbled down like, 3/4 of it. the cheeszsze, OH SO GOOD. lol. hmm, i'd grade the show, A-. it's good, but just a lil too short. it's miraculously thrilling and sent my heart pounding for several times. i suggest those of u guys who havent watch the show to catch it SOON.

as for our dinner, we went millenia walk to have our favourite "niu rou mian" aka beef noodles. it's still as amazing. *slurrrps* i asked if he wanted to go over to marina bay, but he wanted to stay in city hall(waste money) and so i suggested the esplanade - marina promenade. but before that, we sneaked into Pan Pacific hotel(for me, yes, again = )... to the 22nd floor. he wanted me to stand near the glass of the lift, but i had a tiny gut. lol. so i dint. but before we left, we took a few pix. and oh, one SERIOUSLY angmoh shared the lift with us. he's dead-good looking. ya noe, i tot he was the famous rugby player who came over to coach like few months/weeks ago. i couldnt remember.
ps.: i saw the friendster's alston guy and his angie gf. he was goddamn short, and his girl was goddamn skinny. i think she had a waist of 12.

and soooo, we trotted our way to the promenade. the whole stretch of it was filled with smooching couples, and so we decided to stop at a place which we could sit and have a tad of privacy. lol. we copied them and oh, the feeling was so good. it was fantastic. lol. then, we decided to leave. oh yes, and i bot a brownie from RockyMaster. it was, alright lah, not very nice. i think it wasnt as good as CoffeeBeans'.

on the train, i commented that i was thirsty, he took out the bottle of tea from our shopping bags and fed me. HE FED ME!!! omg. i'm feeling damn high and exhilarated lor. u dunno the feeling de lar. lol.

okie, we hurried a lil and i guess it's cuz he wanted to catch the last train home; not very good to practice catching the cab back. waste of money. so, i reached home at ard 2330 yesterday.
we blabbed for half an hour on the phone before he met up with the moon-pretty and me, star-handsome.

i realli felt like his pPrRiInNcCeEsSsS yesterday. and i gravely want to relive the romance for ever. if possible.

so i guess, my life wasnt very much screwed up, or is it?