200 Pounds Beauty :)

managed to finsh with our invoices despite the fact that i had to run about up and down for more than half of the day. could have finished it faster, but...arghs.


priscy spoilt the market lor; she's already done with the invoices ystd. :(


helped cecilia moved suite together with dear dear. went to have dinner and amk macdonald's after that... i think conflicts are starting to rise these days.. just what is happening to us? :( i certainly do not wish for that!

but anywayz! good news, my computer's revived and i've managed to dl the song i like! it's cupid's chokehold. it's damn good. :)


anywayz, 5 more mins and i need to turn to sleep.


my eyelids are freaking heavy now!


went to watch this show on wed, 25th. it's a damn good show. portrays how materialistic girls are these days. and i'm gonna say i'm any different. it's just that i'm still not able to really accept the fact if someone wants to do a plastic on her nose/cheeks/chin, etc.


this show drills my eyes. they teared.

i must admit, it's good.yawns. it's the middle of the night.

General

work has been keeping me busy ever since lois came to our centre. but i'm not really complaining.

lois is very competent, to say the very least. she's transformed the office into a much "workable" and productive place. was shocked that both angie and charlotte is on MC today. damn. must they leave me alone in the lurch on a monday morning??? :(


i realised that work has also prevented dear and myself from sms-ing and calling each other.


i wonder if this will pose as a problem in the later stage of our r/s.
God, please help us.
cuz i DO NOT want that to happen. but we're really busy with our work during the day!!! and at night we'll be too exhausted to talk. but dear had been keeping it a point tat no mattter what he'll still call me, regardless of how short or long the conversation is. hmmm, i really appreciate that. :)



Jasmine teow came round at near 6pm today to collect her jacket. she's permed her hair! :)

Call me the sleeping Goddess.

Went to dear's place... slept again, and he bought me my favourite tidbit for the time being: Caramel Corn.

tell you, that tidbit was so damn good!

after i woke up, his dad had already cooked dinner and we ate it together. then, we watched "The first Emperor". it was a pretty interesting show when i had to leave for home. :(


tmr gotta start work again. :(

Hanwei's bdae

Was supposed to meet dear at 5.30pm at Orchard. reached there on time, but he was late.


so he told me to walk around the area and look for possible presents for Hanwei (his fren) first. however, i went to the toilet and spent most of my time there. cuz having to relief yourself is a hassle in Orchard during peak hours cuz you'll have to queue like MAD first before you're able to clinch a toilet bowl to yourself.

so then, he reached at 6...we went to eat at KFC, and i showered him with lots of dirty words, cuz i was really angry! but i PROMISE that i'll change and stop verbal abusing him. the thought of it just makes me feel so guilty. i'm sorry dear dear. i dint mean to scold all those things on you. :( i promise i'll change.

then we went Zara to shop for a knit wear for Hanwei.. shopped around M)phosis then he realised that there was a HOLE in my tee. embarassed, he suggested that we go mango and take a look at some clothes to change.


found one at quite a pricy rate, $50 at it. with bling bling and all.

and he paid. i seriously dint look out for that, cuz i did not want him to spend so much on me. but then again, he insisted, and i was touched. somehow or rather.


then we went to Breworkz to meet them. saw huifeng's injury, was pretty convinced that she'll recover well with Hanwei around.
food tasted pretty sucky there. dint really enjoy my dinner there.
and huifeng also told me that hanwei and herself might be getting married soon. they're looking at HDB flat now.
was pretty bemused at why dear did not tell me. i wonder if i'm his gf at all. he said he dint tell his other frens, and kept from me too cuz the issue was not finalised. but i was thinking "hello! am i one of your guy frens too? you dont trust me or what?"

so then, i confronted him. i know it's just a small issue. but you know how sensitive i can be. i hate to be lied to and be kept in the dark. and hate ppl to be late too (albeit i'm always the late comer)

but anywayz, i wont blame the hyper-sensitivity on PMS.


i just hope that the communication is there.

ARrrggggh

i dont understand why i'm so very slow at work. argghs.

Double Date + Celia's bdae

went to meet dear dear, clarence and sherry. had dinner at the german restaurant at vivocity which dear dear took me to during Vday.

we parted with clarence and sherry and we met up with jasmine, my pri school fren.

we headed down to my other pri school fren, celia's 21st bday at pasir ris park. hung around for a while and went back home.

went supper with dear dear at our "favourite" amk central. hahas.

and it was end of story. =p

Sigh. my baby's fallen sick

Today dear dear asked if we could meet up, but since i've already promised my parents that i'll be home after work, i told him that i couldnt meet him.

so in the afternoon, dear told me that he was having a fever then, and he'll be going home and seeing a doctor.
then when i reached home, he told me that he's having high fever. of 39.7, i dont quite remember the temperature.

i was feeling so guilty, stuck in between my family and him, and i eventually chosed to go and visit him, as he was having a fever. if it was a normal request, i wouldnt have done that.

then i hurried and took a cab there, and while in the cab, we chatted. he was feeling nostalgic and was saying that how his mom used to take care of him while he was sick, and he cried. i teared too, but without him knowing it. then i reached his place at around 8+, and touched his forehead. it was boiling hot.

placed a wet towel over his forehead and wanted him to rest, but apparently, he dint. i mean, of cuz i understand the discomfort of having someone watch you sleep.


was pretty reluctant to go back home. the truth.

Imma cook for da day! :)

Went to dear's place early morning. reached there at around 1045... then after awhile we got down to serious business: cooked sphgetti!

yummy! :) though he kept complaining that this should be that and etc, i dont really care.. cuz at the end of the day, i know he still likes what i do. =p


after lunch, played with his ps3. haha.. won him quite a lot of times! but he did win me as well. :)


the game ended after one and a half hour and i went to sleep on his bed.. his pillow got a bit of his saliva smell.. yeeee.. haha. and i slept from 1430 till almost 1900. i think i'm turning innto a Goddess of sleeping.. haa...


then later he surprised me with Jolin's concert tickets!!! i was really very shocked and surprised! he told me tat his cousin gave it to him and that he dint get the tix himself. but whichever the case, i'm happy to be able to watch it! and watch it with him!


muacks, baby! i love you! :)

i Wish upon a starr...

dear dear came to my house to look for me today cuz i wasnt feeling too well.

he surprised me with a box of strawberry pocky! muacks!


he came at around 3 and left at 10+.

man.


so soon and i'm starting to miss him!

To learn to save is a Virtue...

we went to create a savings account toggether, in hope that i'm able to save better.


went orchard to catch two movies as well.

first it was Teenage mutant ninja turtles. thought it will be a pretty good movie, albeit me sleeping during the first half of it.

then we went to watch Mr. Bean's holidays. it's just his usual antics, but it got me thinking that he kinda age quite a bit since i last see his old tv mads. well, i read from the papers that he might be retiring. think his joints cant perform as well as compared to before.


after that, we went home early. i wasnt feeling too well; flu and a tad of cough and headache. :(

So in Love <3

Today i took leave cuz i reached home so late ystd.

he took leave as well to accompany me. :)


we went sentosa and had rolling good time there... pix are all uploaded... check them out if you want! :)


but dear... i promise that i'll try my best to save.

Back to SG

landed on the singapore grounds from Thailand...

dear dear set off when i was at the airport of thai and went to look for me and waited for me under my void deck!!! so very touched so very happy! :)


after missing him for so long, the nostalgic kinda feeling has been gone! it's just different.

we went to Macdonald's when he gave me a photoframe with the picture of an ambiguous background.

after eating, we went back home, and he told me to look at the pic carefully. i saw that it's the one which we took at bintan, and at the back of the pic were the pix of both of us! i then remembered there was once when we went out and i told him that i wanna develop the pix of ours when he stopped me. i'm soooo touched!!

with him,
i do not feel like working
i do not feel like playing
i do not feel like reading
i do not feel like chilling

but i do like playing, read with him, and chill out with him.


ouch. i wonder how i'm gonna do without him.

Before i head for Bangkok... Nostalgic

met up with dear dear for the last time before i head for bangkok.

damn. the feeling's damn nostalgic. felt as though i can skip the trip and stay in sg with him.


and guess what, i actually cried, cuz i'm missing him so much.


:( help me! i'm too deeply in love! :((((((

Bonker's honkers

So far so good.


just that i was hyperbly temperamental this afternoon and went bonkers on cecilia and priscy. i shouldnt have done that.


guess i was not in the right of mind.


or did my mind act how i had imagined it to be ?


i'm confused.


but all's well. just that work is piling up everyday.

Valentine's 07

Was in office whole day on the 14th of Feb, Valentine's day.

and he told me that he's busy when i thick-skinnedly asked for my vday present. :(


however, a lady came by after lunch time with a bouquet of sunflowers and asked if Kelly is around. Angie and i went bewildered, and i could really see angie's eyes grow as of a goldfish's eyes. "kelly! it may be yours!". of course i was hoping that it was for me.


i then plucked up the courage (albeit eagerly) and asked which kelly it was for (even though there's only one kelly in the centre). haha.


it was for me!!! for me! :)


i took over the bouquet from the lady and seearched frantically for any sign of love letter or card. Geez.


"To Dear Kelly,
Hope this will surprise you
G****"


boy. am i surprised.


he came to my workplace to fetch me and he brought me to vivocity to dine at paulaner's. then he gave me another gift and told me to remember to wear it to bintan when we're there. i had thought what he'd bought for me, and in the end when i reached home and opened the gift, i see that it was a Giogio armani's parfume! love! :)


hao-lianess aside, we had pig's trotters and some cheese pasta for dinner.


after that, having the glutton in me, i requested for deserts. bougght him a cuppa coffee, i had hot choc, and we shared a slice of strawberry cheesecake (i had almost 80% of it).


the feeling was so sweet. it was like never before.


and i wont forget how i spent my first Vday with my loved one. :)



i want and need him to be in my life.

- Random Thought -

Dear all,

all the rubbish about living without a men is bullshit from me.


i need love to survive.




oh. i'm so awaiting my trip to bintan! -chuckles-

Down-ner. :(

i'm not sure if i am having pms or what.

quite sad with the way things are turning out.

today jemay put on a very nice smelling body cream, and she told me it's victoria's secret's body cream. but it's not wide selling in singapore, and i dont want to wait for so long for the shipping, so i went to ask jeannie to accompany me to buy the cream as jemay said that i could try far east plaza for the cream. but jeannie told me that bee-zai's waiting for her to dine together. then i told her, nevermind, i can go and get it alone. but then she said she'd already told bee-zai that she wont be going back home so early, so i'm thinking, 'why not?'.

we met up at dhoby ghaut, and i'd promised her 19.30 and she'll be home, but in the end, when we got there, the shop's lacking of the particular scent that i want, and the shopkeeper introduced us to another shop. and we took a very long time to get to the shop. finally, it's 19.30 already.

i made her late for the date with her sista.

and in the train on our way back home, i asked her if she wants to have chocolate fondue(we agreed to have it someday when we're free) tmr, and she said it's up to me to decide, cuz everything she say is of no use. to quote, (literally translated from mandarin to english)she said: 'you want means you want, you dont want means you dont want. even if i say i wanna have it tmr and you say you dont want, we still wont be able to have it'.

that somehow broke my heart. there are times when i DO get things in my way, but for her, i really wanna just let her be happy and do the things she wanted. but what she'd said really broke my heart.

so to her, i'm an arrogant brat who gets everything she wants, and not the least considerate for others? i'm sorry, but i'm not.


i always follow what jinling and jeannie wants to do and wants to say. and whatever they want to do, they can get it and have it. does she even think of my feeling?

i'm upset.


and someone close commented that i'm not like the one she used to know anymore.


i think i'm seriously taking things too sensitive, or is really telling how she felt?


arghs. what's so nice about this world? i've never taken a plane before. and i've always wanted to try. so does it mean that i am able to take it?


quarrelled with sharon about a fortnight back. guess we arent friends anymore.

and i'm feeling SUPERBLY lonely. am green-eyed about other girls who are sooo loveable and cheery. but me? i'm just an arrogant soul. arrghs

Condemned to Driving

Sad. am real sad.

failed my driving test again. and now, gotta wait for another 4 bloody months for my THIRD test. f u c k ing slow man.

what am i gonna do during these four months??? made. gotta spend another 0.4k for the driving lessons. :( making me out to be a poor muppet.

then what's next? what am i gonna do after a year from my job? am i gonna carry on studying? and be away from the "front-desk" bound job? i mean, i love my current job but it's just that it's a bit stagnant in here. and it's like, it's paying me low, but exploiting me to the fullest. and working with a demon; doesnt need me to explain more.

another colleague of mine who took over me yesterday while i was on leave told me that she couldnt stand my branch. i mean, if she was here for only A day, she can imagine me spending months with the demon.

what to do. blame it on the ill-fated luck i have. had tried to worship to every God, but nothing seem to work. maybe i'm just. poor.

another big hole in my pocket. feel so lost and empty right at this moment. :(

Happy :)

Hi people!!!

guess what? i got a Harrods bear from my tenant! =p this is my first personal gift from a stranger so far! =)

and tonight, i hope i can sell off my N70 successfully and get an N80 on thursday!!! darn happy man!

however, jas told me that another stupid tenant of ours were demanding for the "pierced" wall (just a couple of SMMALL HOLES) and he's demanded for me and jas to get it fixed asap!!! he's bumming us for a couple of days already and he's nnot dead. i wish i can kick his balls when i see him. and he hasnt paid the security deposit for their rental yet!!!!!!!! arrrrghs. still dare to ask for SO much.

My Lovely Sam-soon

Man. i'm so much in love in this korean drama.


it gets me motivated through the day, because i know that if i've survived the day, i'll be able to catch it at night on Channel U.


man. man. man. i'm just hooked lar.
how?! u guys should watch it too. u WILL be hooked.

and besides, it's been long since i got my arse stuck to the tv set. imagine that.
i'm going after the show!!!