Sad.

waiting for baby's call rite at this very moment... will be going out with him for dinner later.. but dunno what time he's off work... i'm hungry... =(

anywayz, i got called by my C++ lecturer. sucks like hell, it's the third time he's called my name. damn, i feel so f-up by him. not that i dun like him or anything, but , mayb i should only blame myself..

joy, me, grace and sharon went shopping today. BUgis. yah, again, again. lol. What to do? i'm so rigid. bought 3 bras and a bag. i'm not realli satisfied with what i've bot, though. and we'd shopped so fast, that when me and joy saw our watch, we couldnt believe it. lol.

and we bot surayah sweety's pressie. *winks winks* we hope she'll like it...
feeling a bit of a headache. u think shall i go to sleep? i slept at 4 last nite, cuz i napped in the afternoon. damn, my life's so disrupted. =(

i'm gonna end here. tired.

=)

(note: scroll down till u see another note)
LT: not because i need to, but it's because i want to.
LT: i think it's very true for what xiaoLangZi said.. i think that's prob y i have to stick with him
xiaoLangZi: it's ez to find another one..but not ez to find one u love..
Applegal: BE Happy k?not happy will older faster
Applegal: condition i mean
Applegal: you can find better guy with ur condiotn lor
: lying too much is not healthy la ..esp to a relationship ....
: tink u shld haf a nice tok wif him (not quarrel huh)..and try to find out y he lies lor ..
xiaoLangZi: hmm...how lame..he lied abt even such a thing ?..no comments
(note: read them upwards from here.)

watched the "Singapore Idol" earlier on(i adore Sylvester! he's cuuuuute!), tot nana was good, but agreed with what one of the judge commented. "U're a good singer, but u lack of the X-factor."

it's just like describing love. u can be a fantastic lover, yet ur partner might mistake you and thinks that u're just another average lover.
and after so many turmoils' happened in my life, i got to realise several things:
1.) Never take one for granted;
2.)Never take love for granted;
3.) Praise ppl as often as you can;
4.) Dont be upset by small little things;
5.) Love those whom you think you deserve them to love you back.

1. & 2.) I used to take my ex-boyfriend for granted; yell at him, chase him outta the house, verbal abuse him, and all sortta things u cant imagine(i dun do rhyming).
Now, things are sortta like taking a turn-back and these make me understand why we should never take one/things for granted.

i'm NOT trying to imply that i miss those days ard with my ex-bf, but what i'm driving here is, if u feel that he/it is worth your love, just go ahead and shower him with your TLC. never stop loving him/it and never try to compare. u'll only learn from your mistakes, not make worse of them.

I used to think that i love baby too much. and that he doesnt love me AS much. but now, i realise that i'm comparing. and it's pointless. i guess you know it. when u want someone so much, they become a need in your life. and it's time u know that he's the one for you.

it's insatiable; human always ask for more.

3.) it doesnt matter if he/she is putting on too much mascara, a lil tad too much wrinkles, or a lil not too kawaii. (ps.:and grace, i'm not referring to u okie? =) they're just examples!)
just add a lil compliment and it'll fly them to paris!

it doesnt realli matter, it's a white lie. as long as the person is happi rite?

just like earlier on, i told baby he looked purrrfect today, and seriously, it flew him to korea(his favourite country). but i realli tot he's good looking today. =p
but obviously, u have to say the rite thing at the rite time... tell him that he's looking untidy, etc.

it's good to always praise ppl for that lil happiness; to think it's created by you.

4.) this is the point which i'm trying to keep up with... i get upset for the slightest thing, and i think i mite be a bit too petty. yes, i admit, so baby, for my sake, pls change. OOOPPSs. lol. i mean, for your sake, i'll change.

it's bad for me to change; it's for the better.

5.) basically, i'm tired to type anymore. LOL. just love whoever u think they deserve your love and u deserve their love. =) *muacks*

it's love which brought everyone closer; love fills the world.

LOL.

we had a superbly crazy day today. kept luffing and luffing like no one's business. talked crap and luffed at the shit. lol.

but prob that's the way i handle things. when i dun feel happy with something, i'll try and pretend to luff my ass out. but in actual fact, i only want to divert my attention from my sadness. had a quarrel with him last nite, he said he went out to la kopi with his frens, but in the end, he ended up playing mahjong with his pals. i dunno if i should trust him. i called him, he dint answer the phone, and he told me he was playing at that time and so he dint hear the phone ring. our romance is seriously short-lived.

previously the same thing happened to us, i called him for like, a million times, he dint answer, and he told me he cant hear the phone ring. in the end, when we met up the other day, i found out that he was out clubbing (i saw the stupid chope on the back of his hand). and i was real upset. i realli hate liars. no liars in my life.

i condemn liars! anyone but liars

Thank God.

Previously what i'd written was cut off by my freaking fat feet as i accidentally tripped over the plug of this comp. so here's what i've written(quite long, though) :

Went out with baby to city hall area yesterday. we went to suntec's carrefour to hunt for the things which we wanted to buy; he eyed 3 l/s shirts for his work and me, i'd been eyeing on the white pair of slips for quite some time already. after that, we went to see the timings for "Anacondas". it was 7.15 at suntec. and he suggested that we go check out the timings over at shaw tower instead. okie, 5.15. set. so, we walked back to suntec. i suppose the shop vendors recognized us by then. lol. he bot his shirts and my white slips. =) i'm realli happy. =) seriously. not because he bot me the slips. but, i'm just gay.

Again, we went back to shaw tower. i mean, yah, it's just a bridge and few steps away from suntec. lol. but my legs sorta sored. he asked if they(my legs) are soring, but i lied. it's a white lie, anyway. and so, "Anacondas" started. we bot nachos and before the show starts, we'd already gobbled down like, 3/4 of it. the cheeszsze, OH SO GOOD. lol. hmm, i'd grade the show, A-. it's good, but just a lil too short. it's miraculously thrilling and sent my heart pounding for several times. i suggest those of u guys who havent watch the show to catch it SOON.

as for our dinner, we went millenia walk to have our favourite "niu rou mian" aka beef noodles. it's still as amazing. *slurrrps* i asked if he wanted to go over to marina bay, but he wanted to stay in city hall(waste money) and so i suggested the esplanade - marina promenade. but before that, we sneaked into Pan Pacific hotel(for me, yes, again = )... to the 22nd floor. he wanted me to stand near the glass of the lift, but i had a tiny gut. lol. so i dint. but before we left, we took a few pix. and oh, one SERIOUSLY angmoh shared the lift with us. he's dead-good looking. ya noe, i tot he was the famous rugby player who came over to coach like few months/weeks ago. i couldnt remember.
ps.: i saw the friendster's alston guy and his angie gf. he was goddamn short, and his girl was goddamn skinny. i think she had a waist of 12.

and soooo, we trotted our way to the promenade. the whole stretch of it was filled with smooching couples, and so we decided to stop at a place which we could sit and have a tad of privacy. lol. we copied them and oh, the feeling was so good. it was fantastic. lol. then, we decided to leave. oh yes, and i bot a brownie from RockyMaster. it was, alright lah, not very nice. i think it wasnt as good as CoffeeBeans'.

on the train, i commented that i was thirsty, he took out the bottle of tea from our shopping bags and fed me. HE FED ME!!! omg. i'm feeling damn high and exhilarated lor. u dunno the feeling de lar. lol.

okie, we hurried a lil and i guess it's cuz he wanted to catch the last train home; not very good to practice catching the cab back. waste of money. so, i reached home at ard 2330 yesterday.
we blabbed for half an hour on the phone before he met up with the moon-pretty and me, star-handsome.

i realli felt like his pPrRiInNcCeEsSsS yesterday. and i gravely want to relive the romance for ever. if possible.

so i guess, my life wasnt very much screwed up, or is it?

Thank You

to all ma frens who've been loyally reading my blog, i have to say a big THANK YOU to ALL of you.

and i'm alrite already... things are beginning to surface as soon as i typed in my last blog....
this blog is sorta created to let ppl hear my sorrows, my happiness as well as my anger. sometimes i do say a lot of crap and swear a couple of times, but, nevertheless, i'm still the same old me...

i've just went out with him yesterday evening and we'd had dinner over at amk central... he ordered satay-beehoon and i ordered fish and chips and extra fries... *YUM* oh, and i saw Li boon there... my pri school classmate. lol.
it was fun yesterday; sorta like i was crazy rumbling trou my head, telling myself to be happy as he wanted to meet me for dinner... wanted to ask him over my house, but mom was at home, so wasnt able to...
but nevermind, at least we did meet up and had some quality time together. i'm a happy worm. =)

Watashi wa okotte imasu.

i'm just plain sick of things between u and me. i just simply hate u.

have u got any idea how many nights i spent waiting for your call and sacrificed my sleep just for a few mins conversing on the phone? have u got any idea that i wanted so much to meet you but u cant cuz u have to accompany your frens as u feel that u mite have neglected them? what abt me?

now that ur fucking-fucked-up-smelling-balls' boss had transfered u over to sengkang, do u noe how much lesser blardy time we have with each other? u dunno. REALLy, all i want is a bit of time to spend with me. that's just a little request, but u cant read that. that's all so fucked up. i just hate the way u handle things. and i hate myself for being so cheap. DARN IT.

i've spent the past 7 months going out with you, heck my frens, and this is what i get. i've lost all whom i wanted to be with, find happiness in them, and with you, i've lost all. blame it everything on me. i'm just such a cheapo wanting to see you so much. i'm cheap. i'm blardy CHEAP. my name, my body, my mind, my actions, my behaviour, my character, my everything spells C.H.E.A.P to u.

"Its undeniable
that we should be together
Its unbelievable
how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know
if you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time
time will reveal

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...

It's so Incredible
the way things work themselves out
And all emotional
once you know that what its all about
And undesirable
for us to be apart
Never would've made it very far
Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart
Cause...

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one...

Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
just in the nick of time...

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Boy its plain to see
that you're the only one for me, and
Four - repeat steps one to three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I start back at one..."

Fatigue- Reported By Worm Ong

Had a few sucky quarrels with baby. and they realli sucked like hell. i apologiesd, cuz i noe it was me at fault. since last mon, we've had a week without meeting each other. and then met again on this mon.
until now, i guess it's pretty hopeless to be pinning that we would meet up again this week. His tests are taking up too much of his attention, draining time and energy from him. all i want was just a lil bit of attention from him as well, can i puhlease have that? =(

Went out with Shiyun, Bohlat, Jeannie and Sharon today... we went to suntec to watch "A Cinderella Story". i'd rate the movie...B-.
The plot was OK. only the cast intrests me. CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY. *slurrrps* it's weird to see ppl flocking to see the show when they've already sorta know the story. but still, prob ppl has too much money to spare. hahs.

it was kinda exciting today; we actually took the lift of Pan Pacific Hotel and, whoosh. it got us high up. high high high up. okie. mayb not that high up there. but i'm paranoid. it's 37/35 floor. i cant remember. it's like, more than 5 times of what i'm presently typing this shit at. and i could see ppl down on earth like they were. sesame. Did i spell sesame rite? whatever. and i was damn scared. REALLI. no joke. it's realli hiiiiiiiiiigh up there.

then i bot a normal gio pink tee. a white colour belt, and a brown coloured long-sleeves whatever-you-call-it blouse. and altogether, i spent a whoishing 60 bucks just today. and the money was originally saved-up to pay my blardy bills. DAMN me. i'm thoroughly broke. i'm penniless. penisless, too. =x

i shall update my wishlist. =)

I'm a worm.

i'm a worm, digging away from my studies. in fact, i'm gonna be dead soon as someone's gonna step rite on me when i'm scriggling my ass away from the books.

earlier on, baby and i have agreed to study at 2330. but in the end... i guess he's dating the pretty moon lady rite now. =) *say chheeeeze!*
hmm, and that leaves me moodless to even study. i dunno. this semester i've been seriously slacked out. but i still just dun wanna push my ass to study.and tmr i have lessons starting from 8. on fir, i've c++ quiz to work on. "at least i dint fuck ard." muahahaha. i hate myself. i tell myself to study, but instead, i come online, eat tidbits, bite on earthworms and etc.

this is me.
this is my life.
completely screwed up.

*shy shy*

when baby came today, i let him read the whole of my blog. i dunno what he feels but, i dunno. i hope he knows what i feel for him. =)

it had been kinda dramatic, but, long story. wanted to break up, but finally i've decided to stop my folly and we've kissed and got back. =)

i love him, i realli do. i'm half-waiting for his call, half-waiting for myself to feel sleepy. =p
*yawns-not* lol.

i realli yearn for his huggies. i love his huggies cuz he gave me lil of it. i'm deprived of hugs. =(

Grrrr...

met up with Emily and Jasmine this afternoon. we talked cock for like, 3 hrs plus, sitting outside Coffee Bean and co,. I've spent 8.10bucks on just a slice of carrot cake and a kids-sized pure choc. I havent seen emily in like, prob, a year or a half? But she's still the same old her, trotting her way with her legs never-gonna-hit-one-another, and the way her hands swing so high up into the air. lol. ET, if u read this, dun humtump me. ty. =)

Hung up the phone with baby. damn, our happiness' gonna end, pretty much very soon. but most prob he's tired.

he believes so much into the lot he's picked over at "si ma lu"; i forgot the name of the street in english. arghs. i dunno, i'm confused. and he has such a HUUUGGGEEE ego. realli. i think he's ego is much bigger than what i've spelt. i dunno. mayb i should apologise to him tmr. whatever lah. i'm having mixed feelings now. i dunno what to say, i dunno what's not to say.

another thing, i dunno why i hate picking up calls nowadays. i'm sick and tired of matters which concerns the use of my heart. i dun want to be heart-broken again. like what i've said to joyln before, i dun even care even if it does sacrifice my so-called friends. or rather, aqquaintances.

and to surayah, i dint mean what i did last fri. i admitted that i was kinda fed-up when we keep asking u guys to accompany us to eat out at KFC when we noe that u dint want to. i noe u dint feel like going there cuz of the distance and etc. and not cuz of another person. but i was fed-up at why we're so sticky to each other.

well, i suppose the green-eyed monster killed me.

I've got a bloated finger.

Hey, it's me(ok, ok. it's lame.)!
i've just updated my blog into a more colourful page, i hope u guys will like it.
now i'll try adding audio into the blog, pix and hopefully, more.

back to my blog. i went out with baby today. i dun think i wanna say things out cuz it's gonna be "pantang" u noe, language in malay. hee. i ate lots of food and am damn sticky and smelly rite at this moment. baby's working, and i'm waiting for his call.(just like always. =) )

oh yah, i think i wanna upload the smileys to my blog also.
see u tmr.

my grp leader, ym, is quite pissed with my grp's slackiness. =x but, we deserved it.
*lol*
we're realli slack.

The Life Of Mrs Chong

The life of Mrs Chong aint easy to lead. i'm waiting for baby's calls constantly, and he invades ever so much in my mind, it just makes my brain not want to study.

okie, okie. i wont push ALL the blame to that. i wont give no more reasons. lol. i just dun feel like studying. not to mention mommy's wish will go down to drain. she wished that i could be in the forces, serving sg, or finishing my studies at a local university. but i noe my limits. i cant do that.

Nothing much has been troubling me so far. Not friendships, not family ties, not LOve. it's the stress i get from studying. but seriously, i dunno why i complain so much, either. cuz i DONT even study. i hate myself. i noe myself yet i cant do nothing to myself. WHY's that so? i realli dunno. *ponders hard*

and i noe i'm being a "female dog" (i noe u noe what it means, i just cant scold myself THAT word. =p), it's been unfair to someone. i shouldnt have did it, but i've had. and are continuing doing it. i really shouldnt. it'll spoil the whole thing we have together. but i just cant control myself. i hope someone realli understands. and i wont give lame excuses for what i've did. sukaya, joyjoy, u noe what i'm talking abt rite? *winkswinks*

finally, hopes that
-i can get over it as soon as possible;
-my studies can pick up;
-sharon gets what she's been wishing for;
-all my frens' happiness will be in their hands;
-my love for baby will nv subside. =)

damn, i've missed yet another episode of "Zhen xin mi yu". =(

Hi, the bored me again.

i'm feeling damn vexed rite now; reason being, i dun even noe how to do my basic c++ hands-on..

i'm feeling useless. called baby for the trillionth time until he answered the damn phone. wants me to wake him up at 4.30 again. and here i am, waiting for the time to pass while others are working on their damn work.

saw toro just now, with sharon. he was with his gf. he looked at us(both of us denied that he was looking at either of us)as if he's trying to say"i've got a gf. so, piss off."

i dunno. i feel that the earth is not doing its job anymore. it's stopped revolving.
=(

Ex-blogger

It's been a superbly long time since i last blogged. mayb a week ago? that's considered long already okie...

but anywayz, Life has been wandering abt in the theme park, and it's got itself settled on the roller coaster. me and baby had quarrelled a few days ago, which brought me agony and irritation. next came my parents, whom completely pissed me off.

i'm trying my best not to talk to them anymore. i dun owe them anything, neither do they. i dun think i am anything to them, particularly, him. whatever. and i will have 3 frigging icas next week. DBMS, OOAD, IP. sucks like hell.

it hadnt been a wonderful week; i've had quarrels with the most beloved ppl in my life. why am i such a person? but i dun think i can be any sick-er than some ppl i've aquaintanceship with them. Fu*k my life.

Bored.

damn. nothing to do. i'm damn damn bored.

hmm i wonder if anyone still frequents my webbie? doubt so, though. ppl are just as bored as they are peering into my webbie. aights. gtgs. watch teebee.

gd nitez to y'all. 'cept for some friggin' arseholes. but i dun mention names okie... =x

btw, i love you baby. it's been long since i hear u say u love me too. =(

Boring, boring and boring.

Does "boring" sounds fun to u? it certainly doesnt, to me.
i'm stuck at home rite at this very moment, when i have the least things to do. so decided to blog in u since it's been like, 5 days since i last blogged.
 
went out with baby and his teammates on fri; they celebrated a colleague's ORD. we went to changi V to makan, reached there ard 11pm. darren and his gf sent us there though, they rented a car and we vroomed all the way to CV. had several rounds trou the carpark b4 we left the place.. lotsa tranvesittes were spotted. and that sent david, darren and baby drooling all the way. some had half-exposed breasts, some wore superbly short skirts but only a particular one were more recognised(by me and the rest of the drooling parties). "it" was superbly elegant, and looked as if it's gonna make u drill a hole into the grd cuz u cant stand the glamour in it. it's like, so damn chio lor. the most chio IT there. she wore a sphag top and a skirt, unlike those others who wore super-skimpy clothes. well, i think i shall stop abt it. i'm going crazy.
 
hmmm, i've just changed the template of my blog, how does it look now? had this piece of codes in blogskins.com. well, i hadnt had the mood to change anything yet, so for the time being, 0-originallity for me. *snores*
well, i'm gonna do some household chores to kill time. wish me best of luck to the casualties.

my new-found comp

right. i'm currently working on my new-revived pent2 comp which da kor saved it from entering hell. this set of comp has been stagnant for... 3 yrs? also the reason behind that "pent2" thing.

hmmmmmmmmm...i'm gonna depent on my new-revived comp...and be independent to that laptop. but mayb i cant resist the temptation of using it to dl songs, upload pix, etc. i mean, laptop's def a betta option than a p2 comp rite? =x

anywayz. i dunno how come i feel fatigue even though i'd napped for like, an hour just now. realli weird. but nvm.

i'll just turn in early. =)

Life of a slacker(cont'd)

i'm currently in school taking IT2201... it is realli damn boring and thus i've decided to blog here..
sitting beside me is joyln.. she's looking at me type at this very moment. and she told me that she wasnt looking. =x

everyone of us is doing every diff work instead of working hard on his own 2201. but anyways. we still have like 10 mins b4 the lesson ends and we'll be heading to another lecture.. which i dunno which sub is tht..

he asked me a few sensitive questions which left me pondering... HARD. very diff to apprehend whatever he's trying to say/haev said. i dunno. mayb i dun understand him well..

i gtg pack up my bag already. blog in u when i'm free again.

Bad Mood

haiz. i apologised to him and felt bad after that.
i tot apologising would help things between us, but i guess, for sure, his ego must be up... however, even after i'd apologised, it seems that there's some kinda gap in us already. he dun seem to..love me that much anymore. and i hate that. *sobs*

tmr gonna start skool and i dread it... i hate skool. i hate studying. i hate being penniless. everything.

blog some time u in when i'm free again. baibai

Slacker.

yo..

it's been two days since i last blogged i think... went out yesterday with my bunch of frens...shiyun, bohlat, jeannie, meihui, and wendy.. we went to makan sakae over at bugis..
the waitress there were quite sucky.. we played with a couple of leftovers and she actually came and asked if the food's quality had problems. and i'm like, problems? well, heck, no. okie, sure. she's informed us abt the restaurant not encouraging food wastage but, hell, do we care? but i've had plenty of salmon sushi-s nevertheless.. =p *slurrps* ...lalalalaa...i'm a glutton..

den we walked from bugis to suntec..bot a mini housephone for like, 5 bucks...hees. it was damn cheap.. bot a set of lingerie too...the panty was...Whoa. revealing. hahas. =x
den, i think i bot..wait..lemme think. i bot a pair of beach slip-ons too.. for 2 bucks..damn nice. keke

and today, i rotted at home. the girls jioed me to sentosa tmr, but i dun think i wanna go.. u noe, the budget thing killed the curious pig. hahaa...